Well, sort of.Before EA I had the good sense to fix some dinners up to the point where they wouldn’t be hard to cook.For example, I prepared meatballs, cooked them and froze them, so they just need reheating.I also made the base for onion soup so all that had to be added was broth, and that is what I “cooked” last night.I used the Phenergan the doctor gave me two days ago this morning, and feel much better as far as my queasiness goes.Duh!
I did well yesterday calorie-wise despite blowing 200 calories on a cardboard piece with sugar that some people call Pop Tarts.What was I thinking?I don’t even really like Pop Tarts!But I dutifully logged it and moved on!
So, calories yesterday, including the blasted Pop Tart, were 1235.
I still don’t have the pedometer back on, so I can’t tell you steps.Not many, I can guarantee that!Tomorrow I do believe I am going to put it on, but without going back to my goal steps yet. Just see where I am at now and what I have to work with. I am not in any significant pain.
The pitiful baby is very distressed that we aren’t going for a walk right now.R. went to the dentist and I am not inclined to go walking by myself just yet.
As an aside to those who Emailed me concerned about my sleep, I wasn't so delighted either. I did call the gyn yesterday morning and she called in AmBien. I slept normally last night and l ready feel much more myself.
For all the encouragement and support. You are all a wonderful bunch! I have found it so much easier to lose weight in a posiive manner because I have this cyber support.
I am not sleeping well tonight. I actually haven't taken any Lortab since last night and I am now wondering if I take one will it take the edge off and help me sleep or am I not sleeping because of it. I didn't sleep much during the day, but I certainly wasn't very active either. My asthma seems to have chosen now to become an issue, I may not be sleeping because of the wheezing. Or I may not be sleeping because I am busy analyzing why it is I may not be sleeping.
I managed to eat about 1180 calories today. This is quite a feat, I tell you, since my tummy is still queasy and my meals consisted of scrambled eggs, crackers, and Sprite. I actually ate more than I felt like, out of fear that a diet of Sprite and crackers would send my metabolism downhill fast. It does make you realize though, ok, it makes ME realize, how easy it is to overeat. I consumed that "not eating much." If I was healthy and not paying attention, I could have eaten everything I ate today before noon. And I wouldn't have stopped eating at noon. In fact, I'd be eating right now since my sorry behind is not in bed.
On the weight loss front – they did weight me preop, so despite not weighing myself Tuesday I got my weigh in.The nurse called it 286 but I am calling it 287.It was kind of in between the two.She is apparently an optimist and I am a realist.But I am solidly below 290 now!
On the healthy eating front – I swore not to count calories or steps yesterday.I did well on not counting steps.I found myself in bed last night at 11 o’clock p.m. OBSESSIVELY trying to add up my calories.It was definitely not healthy.On the one hand, I am confident I stayed in a healthy calorie range despite drinking Sprite.On the other, it was just plain wrong.I know you all weren’t in my head, but trust me.
So, today I am keeping track, but my goal, for today is to stay under 1500.My stomach is queasy and she did give me Phenergan but my stomach is on a hiatus.I tried to eat some toast and made it about halfway through a slice, so I am having another 4 ounces of Sprite.
On the ablation front (if you don’t care or get grossed out just move on to the next paragraph) thank you all for your support and words of well being.The doctor did find a polyp, which did not show up on my endometrial biopsy, and my endometrium was very thick and puffed with an enlarged uterus and leaving a small cavity, which interestingly enough did not show up n my sonogram.That last part I am not as clear on as we were having this conversation while I had a Versed margarita in my system, but you can be confident I will be asking her to explain that part to me again.My O2 sat stayed up relatively speaking, I went into OR at 97, had to have a nebulizer treatment while in the OR apparently, so it must have dropped, and had to be intubated (which we knew ahead of time).In recovery I dropped to 87-89 but convinced a very calm natured nurse to move me to a chair, and it promptly went back up to 92-94.She still wasn’t delighted but it calmed her.Sitting in the chair with my knees pulled up also hurt less then lying on the gurney.I was home by noon.At one thirty yesterday I thought it was some sort of sadist that made this an outpatient surgery.I took 2 Lortab.This from someone who took Motrin the day after my cholecystectomy, ok?I think that enabled me to get ahead of the pain though, and at 6:30 I just took Motrin.At 10:30 I took another Lortab.I had a lot of trouble sleeping.I finally found a position that was comfortable somewhere around 3:30 and slept until R. woke me up at 6:30 to ask which socks matched his pants.Seriously.(On his side though, he did make sure I didn’t need anything before he left.And last night he made me scrambled eggs.)So far today I have also only had Motrin.It definitely hurts, but NOTHING like yesterday.It is more like a nagging period cramp now.When I am up walking around it starts to hurt more, and my shower turned into a 2 minute shower followed by a 15 minute nap as I was starting to get woozy.Mom is bringing the baby home tonight, I think, she has been lobbying for keeping him until tomorrow and that woman has a mind of her own.She is keeping C. (8yo) until Saturday.
Thank you all very much!I hope you are all having a good day.I do believe it is time for another nap!
I had an easier day than I expected today!Of course, we were home most of the day.We didn’t accept any of the invitations we got to barbecues, etc., because I figured, correctly, that there would be things I needed to do at home to get ready for tomorrow.
We did go to the mall to check out the sales.R. needed more short sleeve dress shirts.Of course, we only found one on sale.AND this all necessitated me walking past The Great American Cookie Company and Marble Slab Creamery – which I did with ease!
Tomorrow is my endometrial ablation.So, I don’t expect to be on at all.I also won’t be counting calories tomorrow.How many calories are there in Lactated Ringers anyway?Just kidding!
J. and I had a busy day.He had Mommy all to himself and enjoyed it immensely.I enjoyed it also, but I can hardly wait to get in the shower and into bed!
I cooked enchiladas for dinner and had one with a “side salad” and some mushrooms.It was a very yummy salad!
Well, you know what I always say.If one person thinks you may have a problem, its okay to ignore them.If three or more people think you may have a problem, and you are one of them, well, you have a problem!
Ok, so I sound stressed out.I probably am stressed out.Last week was a heck of a humdinger between VBS, work, appointments, and “stuff.”
Let’s just say for the sake of argument that I am becoming obsessed with reaching the 10000 steps a day “challenge.”And let’s just say that I do have enough on my plate.I see your point(s).I was though going to just stop saying anything about it and keep track of it on my own.That would be showing some more of that secretive shameful behavior that I firmly believe is part of how I got into this boat (ok, cruise liner) though!So, here is what I’ll do.I will reduce my goal to 6000 steps through 3 weeks postop (July 26th).The particular site above recommended adding 500, but another recommends 20%, which I, the aforementioned nutcase, thinks is reasonable.I also wasn’t having much trouble reaching just beyond the 5000 last week.Wednesday I have my surgery.So Tuesday night when I take off the pedometer I will leave it off until at least Sunday, and Sunday I will decide whether or not to put it back on based on how I am feeling I will then continue at 6000 until I am 3 weeks postop.At that point, again, depending on how I feel, I will add another 20%.Sound fair?
I, also, ahem, will not start counting other things.For example, I know I am drinking 8 8-ounce glasses of fluid, water mostly, a day.But I was going to start striving for 150 ounces.(Although, now I can’t actually find any sound research to support that).I was also going to try to start actually exercising twice a week.I won’t start those things any time in July.And unless I find a sound medical article from a reputable source supporting the ½ ounce per pound of body weight water theory, I will cross that off my list altogether.
Now, onto the rest,And anyone who has hung in there this far, thanks!
MOST nights I eat what the family is eating for dinner.The night I made homemade tortellini I did eat a Lean Cuisine fettuccini, but honestly since it was in white sauce and I put it in a bowl like everyone else’s, no one noticed except for my daughter.I explained to her that mommy wasn’t sure how much tortellini would be healthy for me to eat, and by next time we had tortellini I should have it figured out.It’s his grumbling that gets to me. I mean, in all reality, I think the family and I need to eat the same thing. As I told hubby, I can eat anything, it is how much and how often, not what. Although, for the time being I am staying as far away from cheesecake as humanly possible. Willpower isn't truly a problem for me at this point, but I think that might be pushing it.
On that front, I think it is one of four things (1) he thinks this is a fad and will pass, (2) how can he win?If he says how great it is and how great I will look I might think he doesn’t love me the way I am, so in order to show he loves me the way I am, he has to act like it makes no difference if I lose weight, (3) he feels worried.I am younger than him, if I become a hot mamma maybe I won’t want him, and (4) he eats horribly, and maybe, as Molly pointed out, he feels guilty because my eating healthy puts more attention on him sitting in the chair eating pimento cheese and fritos.
I am not saying any of those things are true.I just wonder if any of them is what is going through his head.
So, first I realize I am at only 3000 steps for the day, this is at 4 o’clock.So, I realize I better get my sorry behind up and go for a walk, an actual walk, if I am going to get to 7000.I tell hubby, I am taking J. for a walk.He looks at me like I have a third eye and says “why?”
J. and I take our walk, and enjoy it as much as we can when you are as out of shape as I am, and come home to cook dinner.I cook this recipe from the back of a box from long ago that hubby loves.In an attempt to find out how many calories the thing has I look online and find that it has 752 calories in a serving and a serving is 1/6 of it!Holy cow!That surely wouldn’t be worth it!So, I make that, but make myself a Lean Cuisine pot stickers meal (which is yummy by the way).When hubby sees I am not eating the other stuff, he grumbles and says “If I had know you couldn’t eat this I wouldn’t have picked it.”Now, if he said it compassionately I might feel different, but he was grumbling.So, I say, and realize it’s true – “I can eat anything I want to.I choose not to eat that.”I choose not to eat it.I choose to go for a walk.I choose to count calories.I choose it!
I did take 3 bites of the aforementioned dinner that I chose not to eat.I tried to err on the side of caution and counted it as 140 kcal.I also moved away from the stove!I could have eaten a whole serving standing there and not even realized it!YIKES!
I will probably have a Special K Bar before bed, 90 kcal, but may not.It will be surprising if I get 100-200 more steps in.I need to park my behind here and work.
Well, I sat down “for a minute” and fell asleep on the couch.Now, in retrospect, I can see that was probably not just from being tired from taking care of the baby, but also because I hadn’t freaking eaten enough.Another case of putting someone before me.Now, don’t get me wrong.I do believe that as parents we need to put our children first to a point.I mean, if there are two seats on a lifeboat, the kids are going, not me.But even on airplanes they say, “moron, put your own oxygen mask on so you aren’t hypoxic and can take care of your own kid, we will be busy with the loss of cabin pressure/airplane crashing thing.”Ok, that is a paraphrase, but that is what I hear when they say it.JSo it is with health and food.If I don’t take care of my body, how do I expect to take care of my children’s bodies?And I believe I just felt Molly slap the back of my head.I also had similar problems with this issue before and I believe it is also a part of how I got into this boat (by screwing up my metabolism).I actually plan on Emailing to Molly later as part of my accountability.So, Molly, if you haven’t heard from me by 10 o’clock tonight it is your sworn duty to nag me.
As I suspected I would, and as Kate did also, because I didn’t eat enough, well, I woke up feeling not so well.My head ached and I was just icky feeling.So, I hauled my sorry butt up, and promptly ate my Special K with Red Berries.I also took some ibuprofen, just in case I set myself up for another migraine.Just now I am having my cup of coffee.
Today J. (the baby) is afebrile.So, our master plan is to go to church and tell the nursery that if he shows any signs of “punkiness” to page us.I fell pretty obligated to be there as I “teach” in the Junior High class from 11-12.Now, let me tell you, “teach” is a loose word.Moderate and chaperone are probably more apt descriptions.At first I used to take ibuprofen every Sunday BEFORE I went, knowing I would need it by the time I got out of there.After a year I have finally built up some respect.The “leader” in there will be out today.And the other adult is iffy; he travels a lot with his work.The summer intern is supposed to be doing the lesson.I think he’ll need all the help he can get!
I will probably only have 100 or less more steps before bed. But this meets my new goal of 7000 steps a day. I am probably going to eat a yogurt (180 calories). I wracked my brain trying to remember if I forgot to write down something I ate, but I cannot come up with anything. I'm a little concerned about my calorie intake being so low. I think I would wake up in the morning feeling like crud (if I don't eat teh yogurt, which I am going to do). And I certainly don't want to get into a "how low can I go" mentality. I do think though that it was simply due to the fact that I got all the way into afternoon before I ate much of anything.
I got soem yummy mustard at the store. Stone ground whole kernel. Still 0 calories 0 fat.
The baby is sleeping like a baby, so everyone keep you fingers crossed.
My lovely, loving eldest child goes this afternoon to spend a week with her Mimi.J. (“the baby”) will join her Tuesday night and stay until Thursday afternoon so I don’t have to worry about him while I pull myself out from under the general and protect my abdomen.
So here is the dilemma.You all know I am OBSESSED with the scale.She has hidden it.At first I thought I would have her tell hubby where it is.But then, to be honest, he hasn’t been the most supportive person to this point.I know, blah, blah, blah, he loves me the way I am, but in that case I would think he would support what I want to do to the best of his abilities.But that is another blog for another rant another day.So, now I am thinking, if they weigh me Wednesday morning, great, I will go with that, but chances are, they won’t, right?So maybe I should just suck it up and go for two weeks, to next Tuesday?Someone else’s counselor is out of town so they are running a two week stretch.Maybe I should suck it up with them!
Anyway, I will blog later.Right now I am only up to 90 calories and 600 steps.J isn’t feeling well, so I have been “trapped” cuddling him.He is even on my lap now!A kid at church (that he spent the week with in the nursery while I worked VBS) has Coxsackie (the childrens minister called everyone) and I am wondering if he picked it up.He has a fever but no blisters.Of course, I always say, J gets a fever if you looked at him crooked.Once he ran a fever of 105° for 3 days straight with no other symptoms other than the obvious lying around because he felt like crap. In fact, when we would get it down to 102° for a few hours, he would run around and play like a maniac.Finally, we took him in for blood work, and decided the next day if he was still febrile we would do a spinal tap, even though he had no other symptoms.Don’t you know, he was 100% fine the next day.I guess hearing “spinal tap” scared the bejeebers out of the fever.
