Monday Blues on a Tuesday

I know it's Tuesday but I feel like it's a Monday...I have just been in a crusty mood the last couple weeks.  I have been good with my exercise, but I can not seem to get my eating under control. 

I get up in the morning and I tell myself I am going to stick to my points today, start off with a good breakfast, an ok lunch and snack, but then I kill it at dinner.  I always seem to justify the brownie or the ice cream or fries, grrr.  "I worked out hard today, surely I have burned enough calories."  I do not know what my issue is.  Maybe it's seeing my husband eat anything he wants and not gain an ounce...it is so unfair!

Long time...

Well it has been a while since I posted.  I have just been crazy busy.  I think I am starting to get un-motivated.  I feel as if I am putting so much into this and I am not seeing the scale move much.  I am working out with my trainer twice a week and working out on my own 3-4 times a week and I have only lost 7 lbs.  Argh...Maybe I am putting on more muscle in place of fat and that is the issue.  I am just getting frustrated. 

I think I am going to zero in on my food intake and watch to see if I am having problems there.  I have been logging what I eat and not going over my points.  I wonder if I am not eating enrough, too much.  Hopefully I can get my head around it and shed some pounds!

I was bad, very, very bad....

What is my issue?  I started off the weekend really good.  I ate good yesterday and went skating.  Then woke up this morning had a good breakfast and lunch.  I also went to the gym and worked out for an hour.  Then dinner came and I blew it.  I had 4 pieces of cheese and mushroom pizza.  I also dipped it in ranch.  Argh!  I know it is one meal but I just could not control myself.  I even told myself "ok all you need is two pieces and you will be full".  Now I feel bloated and guilty.  I can't figure out what my trigger was.  What made me go overboard?

My results have been good.  I have lost inches rather than pounds (Booo).  But my trainer said that is normal as he has me doing some major strength training.  Maybe self conciously I was feeling upset because the pounds are not falling off.  I guess I have to look at my measurements and how my clothes are feeling but man, I would really like that scale to go down.  I even got to the point where I ordered a new scale this weekend online because I was thinking mine was broken...yeah right.

Oh well, tomorrow is the start of week 3, let's see if I can stick to my diet and exercise...

Yeah it's Friday

Well I made it through week #2.  Yeah for me.   I was really good about tracking my food and working out with my trainer.  I have lost 4 pounds.  I totally thought I would loose more since I have been working out so hard.  But slow and steady wins the race, right?

The good news is I took my measurements on Monday and I lost 1 inch arond my chest, neck and thighs (who new my neck was fat....),  1/2 an inch around my hips.  So maybe I am gaining muscle as I burn the fat, who knows.  I am trying to pay closer attention to measurements rather than the scale.

So here goes another weekend, I am planning on going roller skating with my hubby Saturday like usual and then maybe go ride our bikes on Sunday. 

Monday Blues

Well I did lose another pound so I should be happy and motivated right?  

I'm not.  I don't want to go work out tonight, I don't want to eat good.  I don't know what my deal is.  I am going to try my best to go workout and bust my butt tonight.  Maybe that will make me feel better....

First Loss

Just checking in.  I had my first weigh in today and I have lost 2 lbs.  I have another work out scheduled today with my personal trainer.  I am pumped!

Wow....

I am pumped!  I just got back from my first work out.  I signed up with a personal trainer and he is great!  We sat down and figured out what I should weigh and how to get there.  In order to maintain my current weight I have to eat 3740 calories a day.  I about died when we went through that.  Imagine how much I was consuming to get this overweight...holy cow.

So he wants me to eat 2700 calories a day (still more than what is recommended) but he said as I lose we can adjust it.  I just can not believe I was eating that many calories.  Talk abolut a wake up call.

The workout was great and I was able to keep up.  He was impressed that I was able too considering my weight, but I am young and I do exercise a little.  I am sure when I go back wednesday it will be tougher.  Oh boy! 

I want to say that everyone that has commented these last few days have been a wonderful inspiration.  Thank you for being there for me and reading my posts.  Be sure that I am reading yours.  Have a great night!

Oh boy, exercise....

Ok, I did it.  I joined a gym through a rewards program from my health insurance.  I decided that if I am going to eat better I am also going to start really working out.  Not just walking my dogs.

I have an appointment tomorrow after work to have a new member workout with one of the gym's trainers.  This always makes me nervous.  I think it's because I know that I am over weight and I imagine the trainer is thinking..."yeah this will last."  Sigh...I guess I am just used to people not beleiving in me.  My husband always asks "So how long in this going to last?" and "Do I have to do it too?".  I guess that's why I am here, to find inspiration from others in my situation.

We will see how it goes...

About me

I am 27 years old and 266lbs.  Oh my I can not beleive I just admitted that.  Ugh.  I have been overweight since my late teens and have tried probably every diet there is.  Some worked for a while but were so restrictive I failed.  I have lost around 40lbs and then put 60lbs on.  I am stress eater.  Whenever I get stressed (which is often obviously) I reach for junk and I usually can not stop at just one (corn dogs anyone?).  I also have an incredible sweet tooth.  I am pretty active.  I love to go bike riding, walk my dogs and roller skate.  My problem is food.  I love it too much.  I know how to eat healthy.  I just don't.  It is just as easy to make something healthy than it is to drive to the local fast food joint.

My father had a triple bypass last year at age 64.  That is my future staring me right in the face.  If I do not get this under control I will end up on the operating table or dead. 

So today I am not going on a diet.  Yeah, that's right.  I am not going on a diet.  I am changing my eating style.  I believe the moment I declare that I am dieting I will fail.  I am not going to buy junk at the grocery store.  If it's not around I won't eat it.  I am hoping once I get rid of these extra 96lbs I can inspire my sister to do the same.  Wish me luck.