...... I know it's been a while but I've been really busy. I go back to the doc on Monday for a x-ray. Hopefully everything is good and I'll know when the cast comes off. I'm still having a lot of pain in my ankle and i'm unsure why. My weight is kinda up and down 5 pounds ( I think) It kinda hard to weigh with the cast. I 'm guessing that the cast weighs 5 pounds and taking 5 pounds off of my weight to keep up with it. I might be wrong about the weight.
..... Does anyone know how hot it is in a cast this time of year? Well I do! I went out side yesterday to sit by the pool and oh gosh. My leg was burning up sweat running in my cast ( nasty ). I think I better sit by the AC from now own.
.......... I now have a pretty purple cast. I received a call from the doc's office this morning. I was told to come to the office as soon as possible. I get there and after the doctor relooked at my x-rays in a morning meeting . One of the other doctors decovered that I have 3 hair line breaks on up my leg. So now I have this pretty purple cast up to my upper thigh. I look so pretty! Just think of this my first year where I might want to wear a 2 piece in public ( last year I wore shorts over the bottoms) And I have this purple thing on my leg. What the hell! This sucks. I can't swim, run, hell I can't walk. I'm just about helpless. I tried to go to bathroom by myself however it was this the wrost experince of my life. I couldn't get up after I sit down, My big leg blocking the door that I shut. No one could get in to help me. I was ready to die of enbrassment. DH asked me why I shut the door. I guess habit ! Hopefully i'll have a better day 2morrow.
...... Let me explain! Well Sunday started off good. I maintained my weight for the week. I go to church and then out to eat with my husband and kids. Here is where it goes down hill. After we eat My oldest son and I decide to go to the local high school to run some bleachers. The football bleachers are what the football team uses. My son can do 1000 bleachers. However he's been doing this for 3 years. I wanted to beat him, I wanted it bad. Well on the forth run up which is the 95th bleacher I fall. My ankle is the size of a basketball and a pretty color of purple and black. We went to the ER. Waited 4 1/2 hours, for the doctor to send me to a ortherptic ( that's spelled wrong ) first thing today. Well I can't walk on my leg for at least 3 weeks. The Doc said that he needed to cast it but the the swelling is so bad that he's not sure if it will do any good. I creaked my elbow and my little finger. To put it plain I got my ass kicked by some stupid bleachers. I told my son I would beat him on the bleachers on day. I want be hurt forever.
............... Yesterday on my daily run I decided to change my route. I run the same roads daily. Well yesterday I went a different direction. About 3 1/2 mile down this country road was a little boy and girl playing. The boy said "look old people run too". And then he yells " run forest run " I could have died. I go on a mile or so before I turn around and head home. I get back to where the kids were at. He yells again " are you tied" I keep going acting like I can't hear him then he said " She's so old she can't even hear" Then I stop and say something I should have never said. I told the mouthy little boy " I may be old but I'm faster then you" He get up and runs as fast as he can to beat me to the end of his yard. I beat him! He says " Wow your a fast old lady" I say no Your a slow little boy who runs like a girl" He then said you going to run 2morrow. I said yes. He say "I be waiting and i'll beat you" He waves and run back to play. So today I'll need to jog until I get to his yard and then run like hell to be sure I beat this braty little boy.
All is good here. I gained a couple pounds the week nothing major just a couple pounds. I have cut my calorie in take down to 1000 calories daiily. Maybe I can just maintain . That is my goal now just maintain.
Got my test results yesterday. I do not have a eatting disorder. All my test results were all good. I called my nurse and my DH and said told you so. The doc did say that I have PMS. Which is causing all of my problems. Good news I think. The doc did say that my ideal weight is ........ 117 pounds. He doesn't think I need to lose or gain just maintain. So that was great news. I think that is the first time in many years that a doc has said that my weight was good. This is me smiling!
All else is good here. My meeting at work was good. All but my oldest son calling me 6 times. My new outfit looked amazing. Two thumbs up for the Gap. I might have to go get me a couple more pairs of these new jeans. So many compliments on how they looked and fit.
"The tragedy in life doesn't lie in not reaching you goal. The tragedy lies in not having a goal to reach."
..... I had a pretty boring week. Work was the same old same old. The kids are in to a little of everything, that keeps us running from here to there. So I had a boring week. I did go to eating disorder clinic twice this week Tuesday and Thursday . My weekly average is 115 lbs. (Still in heathy range) I had some test done on last Friday results were not in on Thursday and the Doc said I'd have to wait until Tuesday for the results. I'm not really sure what there looking for. The doc said he would be able to tell 100% if I had any kind of eating disorder by the results. They checked my teeth, blood, gland, stool, pee and a few more things I can't remember. I have been having some really bad mood swings. I don't sleep for more then hour or two and wake up in a cold sweat. My monthly is all out of wack too. The doc seems to think I have a form of depression. But he has to rule out the eating disorder before I can get any kind of treatment. He also said that drepession would cause the weight loss i'm having. Anyway enough about that. I have always believed that everything happens for a reason and God know what he doing.
I was reading someone blog the other day and she said that a sales clerk told her that size "0" was the most popular size. Well I was at Neiman Marcus on Friday and I was looking for a size "0" and the clerk told me that was there best selling size also. That if a wanted a sertion name brand I'd have better luck to order them form the online catalog. I drive a hour and a half in the worst traffic i've seen in many of years to get to the only mall in NC that has a Neiman Marcus for a pair of "7 of all mankind" jeans that they are sold out of. Just my luck. My girl friend got me hooked on the " 7 of all mankind" brand. They fit amazing. The only thing is that I have to either drive for almost 2 hours or buy them online and not be able to try them. The clerk did measure me and get my perfect size according to them. I was suprised at the measurement and the size she recommanded. The clerk also had me try on a " Juicy Couture " pair of jeans. They fit kinda OK. But for $154.99 they would have to fit amazing. So I spent 3 hour looking for a pair of jean that were dressy yet stylish for a big meeting at work with some white shirts that are coming to the company I work. We were told to wear casual yet dressy clothing. All the supervisers were told to wear dressy jeans and a white button up shirt. Any way to make a long story short I got a pair of jeans at "Gap" . There is a Gap in the local Mall in my town 15 mintues away. Go figure. I have a super cute stripped blazer looking jacket I'm planning on wearing over the shirt. My husband keeps saying that I want to be the bested dressed so that it don't matter that I'm clueless about what the meeting is about. ( I forgot what the meeting is about ) I'm walking this meeting with 15 of my co workers and 40 or more strangers with no clue as to what were going to talk about . It's sad, right! Hopefully I'll be able to wing it. Wish me luck.
................. Let me start by saying" the grass is not always greener on the other side" I am still losing weight! I have returned to my old ( my fat ) eating habits. Still I seem to lose a pound or two each week. I am still seeing the eating diorder consulor. She doesn't think I have any eating issues, she thinks that maybe I brun more calories then I consume. Anyhow, this seems to be a real problem. I am still at a healthy weight according to all the weight charts I've seem, an my BMI is 21. And that's in the healthy range. I did go to the doctor yesterday for some blood work. Hopefully everything will be OK. I'm so sick of hearing that I over dieted, over exercised, or just did them both wrong. I wish people would not be so quick to judge me for my weight issues. Yeah, I know that am too small but hell I'd like not hear it for just one f*^*ing day. I eat. I promise that I do. Yeah I kinda watch what I eat and still write everything down. Only because I don't want to be 200 pounds again.
You want to know something personal!........... Well for 5 years or so I was judge by me fatness at work at home at kids school events and out with friends. You all know what I'm saying. I was the fat Mom, or the fat Superviser or the fat chic at the bar. Well, now Yeah smaller and people are still quick to judge. I'm the mom with Anorexia or the bitchy superviser or the chic who's to skinny at the bar. The world we live in is so judgemental. I 'm having a real problem by gossiping B*^&hes in my area. Ive heard so much stuff about me and my weight. Why is my weight anyones problem by mine. Yeah I lost some weight but that don't make me the center of gossip. Ya'll would not believe the rumors I've heard. From I'm cheating on my husband to I'm strung out on Crank. Damn... can you not just lose weight because you want to feel better or you want to look better. Ok, I'm done venting.
....... I'm so glad to be home. Getting away is so relaxing but getting home and getting a good night sleep is priceless. As for Aruba, it was wonderful. The beaches were breath taking.The resort we stayed in was everything and more then the travel agent told us. Easter Sunday the Chapel had sunrise service on the beach. Which I really enjoyed. The Pastor was super. After the service the resort had a breakfast for a king. Any kind of breakfast food and fruit of all kinds. I ate fruit I'd never heard of. Coconut pancakes with kiwi toppings were my favorite. The chef gave me the recipes. I can't wait to try it. I didn't know that so many collage kids would be there for spring break. But all in all we had a great time. The weather was in the 90 degrees during the day, 70 degrees at night. One night me and my husband slept in the hammack on the little private porch thing that lead you to the beach. Each room had there own little private getaway. It was so pretty there were candles and flowers every where.
I ate food I'd never heard of. I did gain a couple pound. I didn't exercise any while we were gone. Well, thats a lie I did get up early each morning and run 5 miles down the beach and back. So 10 miles total a day. That's all I did. I'm ready to get back to the gym. I feel like I've gained 20 pounds.
Oh, one night at the Tiki bar the bartender ask me for ID. I was so excited. I could have just about kissed the bartender ( just kidding ). I didn't bring it down with me, but he served me anyway.I did meet a couple ladies from France. We went dancing one night with out any Husbands. It was so much fun. I got couple free drinks and some man asked me to go for a midnight stroll on the beach and a morning breakfast at his house. I nicely turned him down. I was so flattered.
