So, my drinking is under control. I drink on weekends, and even then, only ONE of those nights is actually a "party" night. The other night (usually Friday) it's just a glass of wine or two with my boyfriend. OK - that's cut out about 1500 calories from my week in booze alone, not counting the foods I sometimes binge on when I'm drinking.

But lately, I've found that I am still bingeing at nights - on NUTS. those little fuckers have about 150 calories a handful, and well, considering most nights are like last night, I probably pull in an extra 900 calories (!) by my "snacking". Granted, I don't eat as much as when I have booze in hand, but still...

What the...?!?!

No WONDER I'm not loosing weight. I really DON'T want to snack on "low calorie alternatives, like pretzels or rice cakes". Kill me first. And snacking on fruits and veggies? Hell - that's my food all day, along with nuts, beans and tofu.

Huh. I don't think my body is telling me it "needs protein" (ugh - our obsession with our SUPPOSED need for metric butt-loads of protein makes me laugh)

I think it's my brain telling me that I need to pamper myself with oil and salt. What the hell do I need pampering for?  It's not like my life is all that stressful. It's a bad habit that I am gonna change today. Maybe I should go "nut-free" this week, just as extra incentive to not eat them at nights. No more of that "I'll just eat a HANDFULL" crap, which always turns into a BOWLFULL.

So while my whole purpose on this site is to loose weight, Im not doing it. I AM, however, working out more and eating WAY healthier. Lots more raw veggies and lots less processed foods. Cool. Baby steps. Baby steps. Two steps forward, one step back. I am down with that.