Christmas time at the office!

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Slight Gain

I haven't weighed myself in 2 weeks, I've been a little relaxed in my diet but Friday will mark one full week of 30 mins of excercising every morning. (20 mins on tready, 10 mins strength training!). 

I've gained a few pounds but won't make it official on my log until Friday.  Its frusturating to me because I still have not dipped into Onederland, and everytime I get so close, I fall back.  This has happened about 3 times now!  This time I'm going full speed ahead as if I am needing to run right through the wall of 200 lbs and crash through the other side!

On a non-weight note, I am pleased to be wearing a size large shirt today.  Its a bit snug but with a cami underneath to sort of smooth the fat I'm look'n good!

I am sooooo getting smaller!

This past weekend I finally got up enough nerve to step foot into victoria's secret.  I used to love their bras when I was thinner, but as I ballooned up to a 40DD, I knew there was not a chance in heck I would fit into any of their bras.  I had to be measured, which actually caused a little bit of anxiety for me, but turns out I am now a 36DD.  Whoooo hooooo!  So I brought home the new biofit bra, and I love it, fits very nice.

This morning marked the second morning that I got up 1/2 hour early and walked on the tready for 20 mins and then did strength training for 10 mins.  It feels good and its such a good jump start to my morning!

I also went paint balling with a bunch of friends on Saturday night.  It was so much fun.  I was worried about being physicaly fit enough to run and dodge the paint balls but I had a blast, it was also a great workout!

This morning I pulled out a shirt that I expected to not be able to button.  Its a long sleeved collared shirt that I used to stick a cami underneath and just leave unbottoned.  But today I was able to button it up and tuck it in. 

All of these things are just such a great boost to my confidence and helps me to stay motiviated.  I also ordered a new black suit in a smaller size, hopefully it fits when it comes in.  I expect to have it Wednesday so I will keep you updated!

So here's to a great, succesful, on-track week!

Goals

My goal still stands this week to make it to Onederland by the end of the week.  Today will be a challenge.  I am meeting some friends for Chinese at lunch, and have a meeting at an Italian sub place for dinner.  Wednesday I am planning to eat a sensible lunch and a quick lean cuisine on my way to class. 

Now that my 24th Birthday has passed, it is really time to get busy.  I want to be my old thin self again by age 25 and not a day past.  I have a year to lose 70 more pounds, and I know I can do it!  That is about 1 1/2 pounds a week.  No more wasting time, now is the time for me to get serious. 

I definitely need to get more serious on the working out.  10 pounds ago when I was working out, I was about the same size that I am now even though I am now 10 pounds lighter.  If I had continued to work out, I imagine I would look as though I weighed 190 while weighing 200 . . .just a theory.  It is also such a stress reliever and a great time to just be with my own thoughts.  Lately between school and other commitments, I have been too busy to even have inner conversations with myself, which is not good. 

So onward with this week and attaining my goals!

I made my goal!!!

My goal was to make it to 200 or less by Saturday, October 4th, and I did it! I weighed in at 200.8.  Now after cheesecake at the cheesecake factory and TGI Fridays that day, who knows! 

I'll keep working at it and hope to be into Onederland by Friday!!!

Happy B-Day to Me!

Earlier I made a goal of getting to 200 or below for my b-day. Well, I'm very close but unfortunatly all of the celebrations from last weekend caught up to me and I weighed in this morning at 201.  Grrrr.  I'll keep plugging away though.

Day 4 - Really Making Progress!

Today is Day 4.  Still no morning tready, but I did quite well yesterday so I have to give myself some major points! I did not do fastfood but did subway again, had the spicy italian, again, so that is 2 days in a row.  I really should do a turkey breast sub or one of those that is under 6 grams of fat.  The darn chart was right in front of my face yesterday and I even thought to myself "wow that is only 300 cals" and then subway lady says "ma'am, what will you have?" I say "spicy italian please!"  rgggh, atleast I wasn't at McDonalds.  I had a lean cuisine for dinner, my favorite is glazed chicken and rice, it has fungus which I pick out (yes I am talking about mushrooms here) and french cut string beans (I am allergic to all things green in color but do actually consume these, afterall its too hard to pick them out and that would require far too much effort than I am willing to exert after the long day I had yesterday!)  I am really very proud of myself for the choices, although they could have been better, they were decent. 

This morning I weighed-in at 202!  My 24th B-day is October 1st, so 5 days.  I would be so thrilled if I could make it to 200 by then.  Its a small/short term goal which I think is easier for me, but I think it is doable so long as I stay on track.

I must be good at lunch today.  Friday night is my pizza night, and I earned it!  I posted a few days ago about how I will take that away and not have pizza if I eat fast food anymore this week and apparently I managed to threaten myself enough, that it worked!  I love the food at Colombo's which is our favorite italian restaraunt, but I also love the fact that my husband and I (whom I am currently separated from) have been going to Colombo's for 7 years (since we were in high school).  Its also a great way to have good conversation, without fear or blow up or either of us screaming and yelling because we are out in public and do not want to let the waitresses realize we are having problems (they all say we are there poster couple . .  hahaha, if they only knew!)

So here is to a fabulastic weekend!  I am meeting with my best friend for lunch Sunday and joining us will be one of our professors who is a few years older than us and is an attorney.  I have aspirations of law school and am currently a sophmore in my bachelors, majoring in political sciences and minoring in women's studies with the pre-law program. I hope I can pull this off, nothing would make me happier.

Also, I found out that next weekend my husband (or whatever I should be calling him) is taking me to Chicago to see Blue Man Group! I am very excited!!!! I have always wanted to see them and again, I'd like to be 200 or under in order to fit into all of the clothes I will want to buy downtown! 

Day 3

Day 2 went pretty well.  Stuck with subway for lunch, it was delicious (I forgot how enticing their fresh baked bread smells!) and dinner was sensible: a small portion of flank steak.

This morning I weighed 203, so I'm getting back down to that 201 I had once attained.

I am a little worried that I do not yet have a lunch or dinner plan, so I will have to figure that out. Also, didn't workout on tready even though I got up early (lets just say I spent 30 mins round-brushing my hair, so I look hottttt but did not work out, rgggh).

Day 2

Today was actually what I would consider successful when matched or compared to other days of my life, maybe not successful to someone who is on track. 

I did not get up early to work out, shame on me.  The alarm went off and I was greeted by a happy purring kitty who wanted to give me a massage so of course I couldn't turn that down.

For breakfast: Granola and Raisn Bran Cereal with Skim Milk and flaxseed.

Mid morning snack: 200 cal smores pop tart! yum!

Lunch: Subway 6 inch spicy italian

Dinner:  Leftover flank steak (not much there, couldn't have been more than 3 oz).

Dessert:  Watermelon.

I have class tonight, so I am proud of myself for not stopping at a fast food joint on my way.  It was easy because I had planned ahead.

Hopefully tomorrow I will be more motivated to get up and work out.  The hard part is usually waking up earlier without hitting the snooze, I never imagined my own cat would be the deterent!