Yes, it's almost that time again. Time to go clothes shopping for work. Once again I am not at goal so my cheap old heart won't allow me to buy well made clothes with big fat price tags since once again my clothes will only be worn for one season. :( I plan to hit the Wolfe Chase Galleria in about 10 days, hopefully all the back to school people will be cleared out. Anyone who is painfully honest is welcome to come. My 2 girlfriends will tell me everything looks great on me. They are so not coming!!
I hope to go back again before Christmas to fulfill a long time dream of mine.
~~~~~I want to go in Lane Bryant and try on pants and skirts and be able to huff out of the dressing room in a snit and announce...Huh! NOTHING in here fits me, it's all TO BIG!! And then run like hell through the mall before anyone can kick my skinny ass!!! LOL~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
In the past 3 tax seasons I've gone from a 26 to a 24 -22 then from 22-18 and last season from 18 -16... now here I am in size 14's and some 12's :D
I realized the other day that my brain is seriously warped. I was talking to my son's teacher from the 2nd grade who has lost probably more than I have and more quickly. She looks fantastic! We were talking about how much more we had to loose. I told her 40 lbs more. ....suddenly it hit me..NO DUMMY only about 20 to 25 more.... OMG~~~ so why am I still screwing around and not losing this??? What the hell am I doing? Do I want to stay fat?? Am I so lazy that I'm willing to keep this extra 20 lbs forever?? NOOOOOO I want it off now!!
That said it's still like 105 degrees and 90% humidity here. I walked 2 miles at 6 am this morning while my 10 year old sat on a bench at the park and glared at me after he walked only 1 mile. I would have gone another mile but I just hated him sitting there out of my sight. I think I can make up for the other mile. I have been outside mowing my jungle of a yard. It's one acre and hasn't been mowed in about 3 weeks. Oh and we finally got rain, so it has really grown. I don't know if I've burned any calories at it yet as I keep coming back inside to rehydrate and cool off...I've drank a lot of water though :)
My mom called she is finally ready to hem my jeans! Thanks Ma! They are size 14 GAP button fly jeans with the wide bootcut legs. They look great with my boots with the 3 inch heel. 1 small problem...the boots are now to big and have been given away...oh and I wore the other pair of gap jeans just like these the other night...TO BIG!!! They made my stomach look huge as they sagged in the belly and my but which is already FLAT looked nonexistant as they sagged in the butt too!!
Anyone need some jeans?? We can start our own sisterhood of the traveling pants. I'll mail them to you, you just have to mail them to the next person!
I found myself a new diet drink without the carbonation that makes me bloat!! Has anyone tried Morning Spark? it's these little foil type pouches that you add to bottled water. I got the cranberry ones and they are really good and best of all they have Vitamin C and my favorite thing CAFFINE!!! I've been mixing mine with my favorite Light Cranberry/Raspberry Juice to cut the amount of sugar even lower.
Okay ya'll wish me luck I have a first date on the 26th....He seems to be a really great guy and has the most beautiful blue eyes and great dimples.....He's seen pictures of me in shorts and still wants to go out with me...Let's see if he bails like the others....
When is a good time to mention that there used to be a lot more of me? Before I run into someone I haven't seen in a couple of years? Should I mention it??
Oh and the guy who wanted to take me motorcycle riding then bailed? He emailed not 1 minute after I made the date with Dimples. Sorry Dude!! LOL I found out that an old friend of mine has something to do with the disappearance of Mr Hottie......I don't know what exactly yet but oh WELL!! His loss!!
Posted By: LOCO Leah
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08/20/2006 11:00
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I'd be brutally honest with you and would love to go shopping. The next two weekends, however, I will be MIA. :( Maybe I can catch you on the next round when you're wearing 10s and 8s!
Can't wait to see how the date goes! I don't think you have to tell him you were 'bigger.' Why should he care? You aren't bigger now, are you? If someone you see mentions it, it will only make them look petty to mention it in front of your date. You look the way you do now, which is the only way he knows you to look. I wouldn't bring it up. This is who you are now, and you aren't big anymore.
You wouldn't feel the need to tell him every pimple you've ever had, would you? Okay then!! When the topic comes up (much further down the road), very matter of factly say "I had some issues, and I'm thankful to be over them.!" Easy as that.
When should you tell him you used to be alot larger, hmmm? I would say does it matter, however, I already know the answer to that question..lol.
To be honest, all my (now) husband knew was that I worked out alot, I then slowly told him I lost weight, he never EVER asked me how much, he's just not like that, that was several years ago of long distance dating, from 2001 to 2004 when we were married on May 8th. I've JUST begun telling him I lost ALOT (160lbs) of weight, all he say's is "really", but, not in a particularly interested fashion...hmmm? guess I was just fortunate with #2, as I was with hubby #1 who experienced my full bulk , even then, he never made me feel like a cow, or anything. He used to tell me I was sexy....I suspect he was a "feeder"...LOL!! kidding, he was by far not a feeder. He just loved me I guess, that's kind of hard to believe, when you really have no concept of what love really feels like...oh dont get me wrong, I was never in an abusive relationship, and my parents were the BEST! Its just me.
Sometimes you have to let yourself go to experience love, and I've never been able to just let myself go...sigh.
Listen, dont worry about someone from your past walking up to you during your date, all you have to say is "Yes, I have lost weight (take this moment to glance over at your date, and then back again to the date intruder, and finish saying...)... thank you, Im sorry Im being rude (stress rude) and say, suzie this is my friend sexy blue eyes (hee hee), it was really nice seeing you.
Then give the intruder the ("see ya when I see ya") look and wish them away. This has always worked for me, then again, I have the unfortunate pleasure of wearing my true feelings on my sleeve, and everyone who has ever known me knows that...lol! Im a LUCKY girl.
You are doing so great. It must be wonderful to be so close to your goal. Congratulations. I think you might start a new exercise trend, running from Lane Bryant. I like your plan. I think someday I will have to do the same. Good luck with the date, I hope you have a good time. You have to be proud of what you have accomplished, not ashamed of where you were. I know though I would not know what to tell someone either.
Congratulations on your weight loss. You are INSPIRING. Thank you for sharing your story. I cannot wait to see you reach goal.
Don't forget to tell us about the date. Enquiring minds want to know. They really, really, really want to know. I'm a sucker for dimples as long as they are on the right cheeks.
Don't overeat on your date and blow your efforts thus far. We've got a shopping date, and we WON'T be shopping for a size larger, you hear? lol.
Have fun. Order something "clean." No spaghetti to stain your washables. Don't pick your nose. Say please and thank you. Let him pay. He should open your door and let you in the car first. And, remember, you are a princess and should be treated like one!
So if he has pictures of you, does that mean you have a picture of him? Perhaps to share with us? Hmm? Hmmmmm? Share those shots, Loco Leah!
I loved your Lane Bryant fantasy--i have a similar one. I went shopping recently at Dillards in the misses section for the first time and it was oh, so satisfying. I think your traveling pants idea is great. Unfortuneately you and I are the same size right now, i think. I need some size 14 jeans right now, maybe some 12s. Mine are bagging in the booty and I cannot afford to buy anymore clothes. I have seriously got to find a tailor in my area. I do not want to buy anymore clothes until it gets cold.
