I'm such a loser!!

Whooo hoooo.... I am down to 165 again.  I only have 2 more lbs to lose until I get back to where  I was a little more than a year ago.  I'm not beating myself up for gaining back that weight.  I'm patting myself on the back for picking myself back up and climbing back on the diet wagon....At least I stopped before it got out of hand, and I decided to just be fat the rest of my life.  15 lbs is way easier to lose than 90.  I know.  I am now past the even 100 lbs mark I had been so content to stay at for so long.  So content I even started gaining weight.  What the hell was I thinking?

I had a pair of jeans that I had been wearing that were a size 12.  I had quit wearing them because they weren't fitting right.  Well Duh, Leah, wonder why?   Let me tell you that one pair of Levi jeans must have been in the delusional section of the store because I couldn't squeeze my big ole thighs and belly into any other 12s in any store.  WELL NOW I CAN!!  I am a size 12...whoo hooo YAY ME!!

I think if I can lose 15 lbs in September I will be a size 10 by October...Then it's new clothes time...:D  Real clothes...pretty wool,lined, dry clean only, grownup, work clothes.  You know the type you keep forever and have hanging in special covered hangers.....  Yep I will get a job just to pay for my clothes LOL...

I'm having such a great day.  I've been in the attic getting rid of all my 16s, 14s and old clothes I'll never wear again....The container at church where everyone drives up and donates old clothes is going to be over flowing.  I'm getting rid of everything that is to big or to young looking ((those 12's I've been hanging on to for 10 years)).  I don't want any excuse to gain back any weight.  If I gain 3 lbs the 12s I have will not fit.  That's the way I want it.  NO stretchy fabrics, no elastic waistbands...If I gain I am going to be so uncomfortable I'll be unable to eat.

BTW  I'm still doing Kimkins if anyone wants to check it out.  www.kimkins.com    I like the plan, low carb, low fat...your own food.  Plus the chat room is awesome!!