07/06/2009 23:19
Oh hai! I has interwebz again!
I never realize how much I rely on the internet as my link to the outside world, until I spent the weekend at home without it. Now not having an internet connection is waaaaaaaaaaaay down on the list of things to complain about, but seriously, when I first realized it was out, I panicked like I just found out that a hurricane was coming and I had no supplies. It was ridiculous! But I am now connected again and able to post my food diary.
Alli and I are working on our relationship at the moment. I am not sure Al and I will be good friends, but I am willing to give it a month and see if I get the hang of these blasted side effects.
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07/02/2009 18:01
Alli or Foe
I just purchased Alli for the first time. I am going to start using today when I go to lunch. I have heard the horror stories, I am willing to deal with gas and other 'unpleasentness' if it helps me while I'm helping myself by eating healthier. Any Alli users out there with happy news?
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07/02/2009 16:50
Screw Baby Steps
In my past dieting endeavors I would ease myself into a diet. Spend weeks contemplating the nuances of the program, and then spend a fortune on foods. Those days are gone as of today. Fad diets don't work for me. Regimented workouts don't either. I need to be able to eat when hungry in order to avoid the gorging myself, and I need to be able to do whatever exercise strikes my fancy WHEN it strikes my fancy.
My headlong leap into this healthier me is scary as hell. I am not looking forward to doing the thing I have always dreaded most, staring the fat me in the eye. I am going to find the roughest, ugliest, fattest picture of me I can get my hands on and I am going to post it here on extrapounds.com. I feel safe here, this site is not designed for the cookie cutter Barbie Dolls that other sites are. I need a place where I can come everyday and stare at the blob I have become. If I can't find a picture satisfying enough, I will take one. Trust me, by this evening there will be an appitite destroying picture of myself on this website.
Baby steps my ass.
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07/02/2009 05:24
Fat to Free to Me
The title of my blog may sound like gibberish, but to me it is the mantra I plan to live by for the next 18 months. I am fat. I hate the word 'fat' but it's what I am. FAT. It's an ugly word, but I intend to own it and beat it. I am fat now, but I won't always be fat. I won't always be a prisoner in my own body the way I am now. I am trapped in this prison that I built for myself. I built it with pizza, cupcakes, tacos, and burgers. I put the bars on the cell with ice cream, cookies, and soda. I plan to break free of the jail cell that is this body, I plan to be free.
Once I am free of the of the weight that I have burdened myself with, I can be the person I used to be. I won't be so embarrassed to leave the house. I won't be afraid of running into someone I knew before I became the slovenly mess I am now. I will be me.
I hope like hell, I have the strength for this...
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