Bad bad bad

I am so far off track from south beach that it can no longer be called south beach. I will have to start from scratch. I am not even step on the scale because I am sure it will make me cry...but I did it to myself.

Wellbutrin is supposed to help with weight loss but it seems to make me very munchy. Is that even a word? I just want to eat all the time. It is also making my stomach hurt a little. Feels like gas but I don't think it is. I am have some dizziness issues and have bouts of irritability.  I don't feel depressed anymore but I don't think being pissed off all the time is better.

I am going to the store to get some salads and will do a detox Starting Monday morning. Why Monday? Well, I have new wood floors going in this week and several field trips and 5th grade graduation. I just know I will not be good this week and I do not want to put any pressure on myself that might make me want to purge. I have felt the urge a few times but have not done it.

I didn't really realize that I had a eating disorder but now I am more clear in my head and I can see that it is a thought that always pops up when my stomach feel a little full. I am shocked. I have a eating disorder. One of the things it says in the warnings on wellbutrin is to tell your doctor if you have an eating disorder. That makes me a little scared but I am not ready to tell anyone...other then you all but you don't know me in person.

I guess I can just add this to my list of crap that is wrong with me.

CRAP!

(((Hugs)))

(((hugs))) I know you dont want to hear this but maybe the wellbutrin isnt the depression medicine for you? It could take several tries to find the right one. I know you hate to admit that you needed the help, but I think admitting that maybe something isnt  going right with the medicine is even more important! Dont knock yourself down about the weight loss, it will come when things are figured out!! You are in my thoughts!

Gail

Me too

I never thought I had an eating disorder either until I read about binge eating disorder.  I know, without a doubt, that I have that.  I hope you can get off North Beach and back to South Beach.

My thoughts are with you...

Did the docs say how long you had to give Wellbutrin a try before you decided it was right for you or not? Maybe the irritability and munchies will subside soon. As for the stomach pain I would definitely let the doc know about that. I know that some medicines can be very hard on the lining. Maybe drink a glass of milk or something coating before taking your meds?

If you feel that you may have an eating disorder please seek help. This brings us back to the convo you and I had about people not seeking help for depression. I know it's hard but getting help for the eating disorder might help in more ways than just one.

I will keep my fingers crossed that you find the solutions you need. Chin up!