05/23/2007 08:54
Chaos
Eating healthy has been put on the back burner while I deal with everything else. I am back to where I was before. Planning a meal, let alone eating it is just more then I want to think about. Eating is just another chore I have to do.
other times I binge. I have not purged though. The whole, every meal is a choice and I can always do the right thing at the next meal, thing has backfired.
I used that thinking to help myself not feel guilty but instead it has turned into my motto. Next meal I will do right...but it is like tomorrow, it never comes.
I really hope that wellbutrin helps curb the binging and I can get back on track. My last weigh in at the doctor was 232 and I have posted on here that I was at 228 at my lowest. I don't know how accurate that is because it was only for a few hours. I would say I have put on a pound or two.
yesterday was a great day for me and I had a lot of energy. I hope that is what everyday will be like.
Posted By: Zephra
05/23/2007 23:11
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I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. I know it's the depression that has you feeling this way because I had a family member who said word for word the same thing you said. He dropped 30 pounds before he sought help because he too felt that eating was a chore.
I don't want to see you get any more down by putting on weight though. I know that could make you even more depressed. If it's menu planning that's making the eating a chore would you consider investing $10 a month in one of those menu planning websites that prepare a menu and give you a grocery list weekly? Or spending one day a week to cook for the week? I worry that if you severely undo your progress that you will sink deeper into your depression.
I do hope the meds start working for you soon. Meanwhile vent away on here if it helps, or e-mail me privately.
05/24/2007 17:45
Sorry
Sorry about your the bad eating...but good job on not purging.
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