I'm still here. I have another blog that I post on almost everyday Chronicles of an exhausted Mom if anyone would like to pop over and say hi. I have been having a few bad days and have cheated but nothing really bad...
I found out yesterday that I am suffering from depression. At least I think I am. My endo and talked about my thyroid results and everything was right on track. I asked her if there was anything else we were missing. She said she believe based on my symptoms that I had masked depression. After doing some research on it, I find that it describes me to a tee.
I am making an appointment with a new primary doctor (new insurance) and am going to talk to him about it. I feel so very tired. I am weary of everything including eating. Sometimes I wish I didn't have to eat, to think about it. I am weary of my children and my husband. Funny thing is that I am happy staying home. I am a mix right now and I feel like I am always in a hold pattern waiting for something...problem is that I don't really know what I am waiting for.
Thanks guys for posting comments. You have no idea how much it helps me.
Posted By: Zephra
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05/15/2007 11:57
oh momma!
Aww, I wish I could give you a hug...Depression is something I struggle with and i know it is no fun! Maybe your new dr will see the need you have and be able to meet it! Whether that be some kind of counseling, medication, whatever the situation calls for. Once depression is balanced, you will feel like a new person! I am not saying it will be fixed 100 % but well enough for you to not wait for the shoe to drop. I hope you have a terrific day. If you ever need to talk..I am here!
I've known a lot of people who suffered from depression but never had the strength to admit it or seek help. The fact that you are trying to do what you need to do to get better shows that you are a strong woman. Good luck and I hope the healing starts soon. I will definitely check out your other blog.
Yes, unfortunately some people are afraid, I think, of being labeled negatively so they hold back how they feel. I know someone very close to me who denied his depression until the day he held a gun in his mouth. Luckily he had the sense to put the gun down and call his son. I'm actually one of those people too. I'm not typically depressed but I had severe postpartum depression after the birth of my son but I was so scared that someone would take him away from me that I kept it to myself. That was the hardest time of my life so I know what you mean about it being difficult to live with it.
My husband suffers from highs and lows...I don't know if you'd call it depression, but he started on St. John's Wort three years ago and according to him he has rarely had any lows since taking them. Maybe, if you are looking for non-narcotic ways to treat yourself, you could give it a shot.
I'm sorry to hear about your depression. I've dealt with depression as well. I'm glad you are getting help. Once you find the right cure, you will feel more normal again.
I have dealt with depression since I had my 1st child (postpardem) when I was 20, I'm 35 now (well, 35 in 8 days!) I have low grade, chronic depression. I have been on medication since, and it has helped SO MUCH. I dont know where I would be without these drugs. I am functional and most times happy. I hope you can find something that helps you!
