So, this week was not my best week.  Seeing as I get some very important news this week that will impact the next four years of my life, I'm getting it together again.  If anything, the news will motivate me more.  I just need to keep up some level of dedication, especially with that awful day in May creeping up.  Aaaaah!  At least I've still been exercising.  This WILL work.  I will make it work!  And Spring Break next week... Goodness.  It isn't hopeless.  It isn't hopeless.

 

Oh, and I decided I want to go to Puerto Rico when I reach my goals!

 

 

I don't know that that's Puerto Rico in the background.  That doesn't matter.  I just wanted to emphasize the Puerto Rican-ness of my mood by playing some some music by that gorgeous man.

I have lost two pounds since yesterday, but just a few minutes in the real world can bring your happiness down to the floor in seconds.  It's not a matter of people saying rude things; it's just personal insecurity and paranoia--like everyone is staring at you, but you know that no one is.  Anyway, it's just been frustrating... Will I ever be where I want to be?

 

Whatever.  I'll hang in there.  I know my work has to pay off, it just might take a little more time than I thought.

So, I have been kicking some major butt on my WiiFit, but my results (in terms of weight loss) aren't where I want them to be.  I've definitely cut back on bad food intake as well.  Maybe I just need to give it a bit more time.  I can certainly say that I have much more energy--I'm more than happy to go on walks with my mom now (in addition to WiiFit).  I need to fit in a nice dress of some sort by mid-May, and I'm practically desperate to get there.  I suppose I just need to keep reminding myself that it's all worth it and it takes time.  Lots of time.

 

In the meantime, I hope everyone around here is sticking to their goals and feeling more confident with each little step.

So... After a bad day yesterday, today has been going beautifully.  I decided on a "program" with my brother.  He and I love sweets and we simply can't cut them out of our daily diets completely.  We're going to just have one meal a week to eat "bad" stuff.  It'll be on a Friday or Saturday so we can go see a new movie or rent one for home.  Because I won't be doing this alone, I think the support will really help and I think, eventually, our nights out will become less about the food and more about each other's company.

Oh, and as my own extra goal, I want to do some form of exercise every single day, whether it's 10 minutes or an hour or more.  It'll be a good start to help me form life-long habits... And, strangely, I'm actually looking forward to all these changes.  That MUST be a good sign.

This has definitely been a rough year, and I know now that things need to get done.  I haven't made a plan necessarily, but I know that I need to commit to an hour of physical activity each and every day to get started.  I really ought to put the WiiFit back together and update my Zune for work-outs.

This is the biggest year of my life so far, and I need to face it with confidence.  Hopefully I can build that through dedication and committment.  I definitely need to make a committment.