Lessons learned
I got a full 8 hours of deep sleep last night and yet today I feel completely exhausted! I'm not sure what's up with that...
I was about to do a workout tape when I noticed the sun shining; I checked the thermostat -- 9 degrees and there didnt seem to be much wind. So instead I bundled up and walked outside. I thought the fresh air would do me some good. I was right, I feel a little less tired now. But still feel lazy.
School starts back up again on Monday. I always have such big intentions over breaks... my to do list is always miles long... but for some reason not much gets done. I think part of it is because I work so insanely hard during school that my subconscious forces me to take it easy over break. But regardless, I still feel bad about it.
I was completely OP yesterday and feeling good about it. I really think it's going to work this time. About 10 years ago I lost nearly 45 pounds with Weight Watchers. I was obsessed about what I was eating and exercising... reading everything I could.... joining challenges.... logging everything... and it worked. I feel like I have that bit of obsession again! And I'm excited about it!
So I'm sure some of you are wondering why, if WW worked that time, I'm back here again, this time with 85 pounds to lose. The answer is because the closer I got to goal, the cockier I became. I thought I did it. I thought I looked great and knew everything. I didn't think I needed the meetings any more. I didn't think I needed to log the food anymore. And I let up on the exercise. And here I am, 10 years later. How sad really.
But I learned my lesson... when I lose this weight I am NOT going to fall into that trap again!