02/18/2009 21:43
Skiing...and a mini breakthrough
I went skiing over the long weekend (it's amazing how nice that one extra day is!) and had an awesome time! I was a bit worried that my bad back wouldn't take it, but it turns out that I felt better skiing and jumping moguls than I do right now, sitting at my desk! So it really sucks that the majority of my days are spent sitting, in pain. I should have been a farmer or something...or a ski instructor!
I didn't eat so great this week, but the hours of skiing kept me even, so I'm working hard to get a pound off at my next WI on Wednesday (no WI this week - working late every night).
I read an article about binge eating disorder in Fitness Magazine yesterday, and, scary to say, it totally pinned me. I think i've known that now for a long time, but it made me realize that I still have a lot of work to do. I've made some really positive changes in my lifestyle and eating habits, but I have a long way to go. Experts always say that overeating is a symptom of a larger problem...in this case, they said that the author overeats because it causes her stress, and it's easier to be stressed about overeating than it is to be stressed about the larger problem - feeling lonely.
There's always something stopping me from hitting my goals...I always sabotage myself...lose one pound, gain two. I tell myself how wonderful life will be when I hit my goal, how everything will fall into place and it will be perfect - I'll find the perfect job, the perfect man, and be perfectly happy. But I'm so afraid that it won't happen that way, that I'm keeping myself from having to deal with it. I'm keeping myself fat.
I should probably see a therapist, ha! There was another article about therapists who exercise their patients during their sessions, instead of lying on a couch. A therapist and a trainer - for the price of one! Sounds pretty good to me!