failed again
If you've been reading these posts at all, you'll notice a recurring trend - I do awesome for about 2 and a half weeks, then I totally f*** it up and have to start all over again.
Without fail, I do something to sabotage myself. This week, I overdid it just a LITTLE bit at a party last weekend, and it's snowballed from there. I can't stop eating.
Last night I went to a book club meeting and ate for 3 hours. 2 hours had gone by when suddenly I realized my hands had been going for the chips and dip non-stop since I had arrived. I'm thinking, "why do I feel so full? I didn't have any dinner tonight," then looked down and noticed a bowl of spinach dip completely devoured. I was sitting on the edge of my seat, hovering over the food like I would fight off anyone who came near my pretzels. For the next hour, I managed to sit back in my chair, but COULD NOT resist the cookies and cupcakes that appeared just a few feet away from me.
I'm not sure if any of my friends noticed my behavior - they must have, because I was acting like a starving crazy person. This morning the scale says I gained another pound. No surprise there! 2 days until my WI. Totally screwed.
Chugging water like it's my job. And coffee (even decaf) seems to work pretty well as an appetite supressant - going to get more at lunch.
Breakfast: JC granola, yogurt, half grapefruit, decaf coffee w/ skim
Snack: dried apricots, plum
Lunch: JC burrito, side salad w/ dressing, decaf coffee w/ skim
Snack: JC anytime bar
Dinner: chicken soup, steamed cauliflower
Dessert: tea