12/05/2008 22:52
One weekend a month my chunky bubble butt!
Hello to all again. Its been a busy couple of days -- and I haven't been anywhere near a scale (thankfully) or the gym. I traveled to Denton, TX today to take part in my new ritual of one weekend a month. Yep, I'm in the Army reserves -- one of those call up things where the Army was short of personnel to fill positions because everyone is occupied in Iraq and Afghanistan. I had been on active duty before, but was out a little over two years when they gave me a call. I never regretted raising my hand to enlist back on 12 Dec 1990, and I have never been more proud than when I wore the uniform. But now....enh
I say that because I feel like a fool every second that I wear my uniform. Not because my opinion has changed about my service or anything. Im just an embarrasment when I walk into a room full of soldiers and before they even know my name they already have an assessment of me. You know: "who is that fat bastard?"
(hmm..what a difference a day makes. I'm already through two paragraphs 
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Pity party aside, I was looking through some old pics of me back in the day and some more recent, trying to visualize myself as that person in those photos, because experts say its best to visualize the image of the person you want to be and it will become reality. So I closed my eyes.....Hugh Heffner! (minus the skanks and the gaudy house and the whole creepy octagenerian vibe).
But, seriously, I know I could be far worse than I am; I am the youngest of eight surviving children and the only one currently not diagnosed with diabetes. I buried my father two years ago after he lost both his legs and then his life because of that disease. I guess I'm just really dejected because I cant realize my own potential and focus on taking care of myself like I should. I'm frustrated because I'm trying to stuff myself into a uniform everyone else can fit into easily. I've actually considered greasing myself up for a split second, but I dont want anyone to take anymore free pot shots than normal.
Damn, still rambling. Better wrap this up.
I'll hit the scale tomorrow and check on my progress (ahem) and let you know how it goes. I want to give a special thanks to Tatum'sMom and CrawlWalkRun for their kind words of encouragement to help me along. I truly appreciate it.
See you on the other side
Posted By: end0flinej
12/06/2008 09:10
keep your head up
My brother just enlisted. He's 18, and is over weight. He got made fun of for his "manboobs" during his medical eval. Keep your head up and don't let anyone get you down. You can get back to where you were!
