Keep on pushing
Feeling pretty good again. Boy, it's amazing to me to sit back and watch my moods go up and down. I'm pretty sure it's mostly due to hormones but isn't that the tricky part of it? 'Cause it might be due to more sunlight or exercise or what I ate or subconscious memories. It's enough to make me wonder if anything that I think or feel is real or just a passing hormone!
Been listening to a meditation CD lately and it starts off with noticing sounds that might be around you, the sound of a car driving by outside or people talking next door. The speaker says that we don't have to do anything with the sound, just notice it and not internalize it or think about it, just, "There's a sound. It's just a sound" and then let it pass on. And I was thinking that it's sort of like that with hormones, feelings, thoughts or, really, with anything that can knock you for a loop. SO many of the things that I could react to doesn't necessarily require a reaction. A lot of it is just the flotsam and jetsam of life floating by and I don't have to fret about it, figure it out or get involved in it. That way I can save my energy and focus for the things that really do require it.
It's even like that with cravings. Hunger will keep coming back stronger but cravings--I'm thinking that maybe I could just notice them and let them pass, like noticing a cloud that's passing over the sun. It won't last, I don't have to do anything about it.
In other news around the world, I managed to get my mangy arse out the door this morning and take the dog for a walk. Luckily, that dog keeps me from getting too far off course 'cause I feel so guilty when I don't take him out. He's only the best dog in the world and of course, deserves to get some sort of exercise every day. I know it's better for him and sometimes, when I get too lazy to do it for myself, I can do it for him. One of these days I'll figure out how to post photos to my blog and I'll post a picture of him.
Keep on pushing out on those walls that hold us back!