i went for my check-up on wed. i thought for sure that i might be in trouble for not losing like i should. being slow is alright w/ me as long as i get there but i didn't want to disappoint my surgeon.
he walked into the room w/ his usual smile (a great smile) and we talked. then he turned his attention to my chart and where it said what i weighed. oh boy, i thought here it comes. but before he turned back i saw his cheeks puff w/ a smile...yes a smile... he said, "your doing great!!" in my shock i said, "really" i thought i was kinda on the slow side.
he said no that i had already lost 25% of the weight i was over weight. WOW! i hadn't looked at it like that.....=) then he put me at easy about people's bodies being different and the rate of time vs. what was lost wasn't the goal...the goal was the end of the road...i was glad to hear that...that we were both on the same page and i don't have to worry about disappointing his any more.
i have been feeling a acid on my stomach the past few mornings. so i'm gonna take a few minutes this weekend to try and pin point the cause b/c i don't like waking up feeling that way even though its not uncomfortable just annoying.
so keep in mind what my doc said.... "the goal isn't the amount of weight you lose in a short amount of time, its the goal of reaching the end of the road...healthy" =)
also, that 100% goal is actuall 106 pounds which would put me at 135...i can't imagine. my goal on here is set at 165...i'm thinking of changing it to 145..but those small numbers are still hard to believe they could become a reality...so i may wait a little longer before i change my goal setting on here.
I feel Awesome!!! =) my husband has always been sweet, kind, and willing to compliment me. but when it came to my weight and how i was looking i would get irritate b/c i knew it wasn't true. now when he calls me his skinny baby or says his wife is melting away...i smile...b/c i am and i already feel so much more healthier!! i'm walking at least 2miles a day. i want to walk at least 5miles, thats my goal and thats not w/ every day movement. i am walking an extra intentional 2 plus miles a day. wed. i go to my surgeon and i'm gonna ask about weight training. i feel like i'm ready for it but i am waiting for his approval. the only issue i have is my fluid intake...the same as when i was pre-wls but i guess thats a hard one for a lot of people. so my focus is protein and "fluids"... i can't believe how easy my lifeis and all the worry i did about after surgery life for no reason... =) i've said it before and i'll say it again.... WLS has been a blessing for me and i thank God for this "tool" to save my life!
20 pounds gone and that's w/ three weeks of lower back pain now almost gone!!! the doctor said now that i can get around better the weight loss will really pick up....i am already amazed at my new life... WOW!!
i am deprived of nothing! my energy if bubbling over!!! and that is what has kept my away from blogging. my life is already changing so much from sitting and doing to "DOING!!!" =)
the transitions through the eating stages have been pretty good but i was really to get off the clear and full stages when it was time. for the puree stage i bought a magic bullet and its amazing the things you can blend....lol
God has blessed me and i really feel this surgery is a gift. i admit i was nervous right up to being rolled into the operating room. every time i got nervous i thought of my children and then asked my self this question, "Do i want to live life watching life OR do i want to live life living life?" and well we all know that answer. =)
i can't believe i even had surgery. w/ the exception of finally moving down the scale and smaller meals i feel great! i have been blessed w/ not experiencing any major or even tiny problems. of course my back has been a royal pain but that has nothing to do w/ my tummy, just the amount of exercising i can do but its getting better.
i'm in the puree stage and anything i can blend i do and anything that is tender i chew really fine before i swallow. i haven't had anything to disagree w/ me. i even find my self asking inside my head, "did the doctor really make my tummy into a tiny pouch?" but then i get the full feeling and then think, "well i guess so".
the only real problem i have faced is eating slowly and i watch the clock for that 30 minutes to pass so i can "drink!!!" i didn't think that would be such an issue but it has been but its getting better.
on another note, i talked w/ my nephew today and he is returning to work (only part-time to start) next week!! he sounded awesome!! i almost started crying when i heard his voice answer the phone. how he looked when i left the hospital to come back home to nc flashed in my mind and almost could speak. that was such an emotional time for me as well as all of our family. but anyway hes doing great! he still has to heal on the microscopic level which only God and the body can do. thank you all for your prayers for both of us...=)
i can't believe my back is still killing me. its interfering w/ my much needed walking. in the past 4 days and i was feeling better. i hurt it last sunday and it is still killing me!!!!!!
other than that everthing is going good. i had my protein supplement for breakfast and just had some cream of cheese & broccoli soup....yummmy and a few spoon full of sugar free mint in chocolate pudding....yum yum i can't believe i worried that i could survive the stages after surgery. this coming wed. means anything i can blend...."anything" ...lol i'm looking forward to move cottage cheese and pears. of course everything in tiny amounts at first to make sure everything agrees w/ me.
i can't believe the scale said 228 this morning!!! wow!! i am just in disbelief. it would take me 4 months to lose 13 pounds....at least...and how i struggled to get 13 pounds off in the past. i just can't believe how good things are going. its not hard at all to keep w/ my new life eating plan. right now i'm on full liquids and doing well. i jut have to learn to slow down my eating. to take at least 30 mins while i eat. i guess i'm just use to gobbleing everything up and the other is not drinking during eating and then another 30 minutes after to make sure i get everything out of what i've eaten. i already feel pretty good. i plan on going bak to work on monday so thats less than 2 weeks out of work.
i hope everyone is doing great!! i have started walking...my back still hurting but i'm getting through it...
good note on my nephew!! he has advanced so much that he has completed all of his rehibilitaion and all there is left to do heal inside as only time and God can continue to do. i am hopeing to go and visit his soon. i am so proud of him!
i was sitting and twisted a tiny bit and wham!! i through out my lower back...boo hooo.... my surgery hadn't made me cry not one tear and there i was crying like a baby sitting on the pot....kinda of funny but very painful.
i'm feeling great all except for my lower back.... the pain is killer and i worried at first about my surgery on the front but everything seems to be doing ok... i just can't walk as long as i should but i see the doctor on tues. but i'm hoping my bak will be feeling a lot better. i just dread that 3 hour drive but its worth it....=)
First of all i wanna thank everyone for their comments and well wishes. I truly needed and appreciated every word of confidence and support. i needed them more than you know...=)
Well heres how my journey started.
as we all know i was gun-ho and ready to go. we drove down to south carolina and as time passed i became an emotional basket case in spite of all my family's effort to calm me (and they have no clue what was really going on inside). the hotel had a pool which i really needed, water has always had a calming effect on me. so i floated around and played w/ my family but mostly floated on my back looking up into the stars asking God if i was doing the right thing and acknowledging there was going to be a point where i couldn't say stop, i've changed my mind. after the pool i washed a pre'd as i was ordered and my case of nerves returned. the alarm went off at 5 am and off it all started. it all happened so fast. i remembered laying in the pre-op bed thinking everything through again....pros/cons...looking at my little guy only 5 and my daughter 21 and thinking of my older 19 voice and how scared he was but so supportive. then my husband there by my side full of nerves and all his own questions but yet supported me every step of the way. yes, i need to proceed in all honesty....i can not lose this weight by my self, i need this tool, this gift to help me live for myself, my children, and my husband.....for my parents who will one day need me too to be there. so up to that moment i doubted myself. up to that moment i was unsure and so when they rolled me to the OR suite i had self confirmation.
the surgery took about 2 hours ( this will differ among surgeons but my surgeon and partner who assisted him had done over 6000) he also said he'd look around at everything too, gall bladder and such.
well if you've read any of my previous blogs of concern 2 years ago i had high liver enzyme levels and was told i had "fatty liver disease" and that most obese people have some degree of it. i lost 10 pounds and the levels became normal. that concern was always there it really bothered me that i could have a liver like an alcoholic when i didn't even drink but i felt like i was out of the water w/ that concern as long as i didn't gain anymore weight....well...........
while the doctor was looking around at my insides he noted that my liver had some irregularities as well as fat deposits. he told me he did a biopsy of my liver and then it came, i asked should i be concerned. he said that w/ the irregularities i have "a mild form of sclerosis of the liver".....OMG!!!! WHAT!!! i'm not an alcoholic, i've never abused my body w/ drugs or alcohol..!!!! it made me sick... i did abuse my body w/ food. i have mild sclerosis of the liver b/c of all the years of being out of control w/ my eating. i will hear the report on the 5th when i go for my check-up but he says w/ it being mild as i lose weight i will heal and my liver will get better. so even more than ever i need to have this surgery. i can't imagine my liver another 10 years of up and down eating and dieting.
so far i haven't been hungry, which is a good thing. its a psychological want to eat and it passes fast. the protein supplements are yuck at this stage but should get better next week/stage. the trapped gas has been a lot of fun too..not! but that's getting better. activity is good and for the most part i am "chipper"...=) i just thank God for this second chance at being healthy. august 28th truly was like being re-born into a new live. i weighed into and have lost 5 pounds already.
one more day closer to the day "my life will change"....."FOREVER" there is no turning back once i am at the hospital and under anesthesia but i am not looking back. i am looking forward and to the future. i have a few jitters which i'm sure will increase tomorrow morning.
we've decided to go down to south caroilna tonight instead of that 2 am wake up call for a 3 am start on the road. i found a really nice hotel that has a pool and king queen size beds for me and my family. i have already gotten everyones things together as well as mine. my daughter just has to get her things together. shes gonna stay the night tomorrow at the hospital w/ me. my husband and son will return home later in the day. my little guy started first grade and will miss tomorrow so he needs to get back home and rest for class on wed. if i can come home then my daughter will drive me the next day but if not she'll then return home and come back the next if i'm ready then to come home but we'll just have to wait and see what happens and how well things go afterward.
pray for me!!!! =) wish me luck. =) i will blog as soon as i can.
