the results are in on my type II diabetic scare. or should i say is still scary but i haven't hit a point of no return. thank God! i did the 3 month avg. test and it came back a 6.8 which isn't the best "but" its still before a 7.0 "the point of no return". i also weighed in a 224.6 this morning. i weighed in at 224.0 yesterday but i bet its b/c of the change in my eating pattern. well the doctor consoled me on prevention and its about time! just saying your pre-diabetic doesn't mean you know what that is or how to stop it or prevent it. he recommend a protein diet....yes i know fun wow! i have been on them before and it took me forever to get on the ball w/ low carb. eating not to mention how sick i would feel which would make me go off it before the third day. anyway, i have started a low carb. diet yesterday (i guess kinda of an atkins south beach mix-they both start out the same) i had a terrible headache all day and that old worry of mine about getting hungry but for sugar load foods came back into play but i stuck w/ it. this morning was too bad and i'm already to the afternoon. i just might make this my first try. my big struggle now is that i know i can eat as much protein as i want and i have gotten use to eating smaller portions but w/ the "permission" to eat more i find myself drifting off to what protein i can eat w/out being hungry. so just as one battle starts to end another battle begins. i am realizing something i guess i already knew. the battle w/ my weight and health will rage on for my life time. the sooner i realize that full the better prepared i will be and more successful. so if anyone else is out there on a low carb eating plan give me a shout...i can use all the help i can get w/ suggestions and i'd be glad to share what i'm doing...=) happy sunday!!!!
ok the "skinny" on my gain.....well according to the scale this morning it said i have only gained 3.2 not the all most 5 pounds it said last night. that sure was a wake up call. its so hard to lose and so easy to gain. i am on good behavior now let me tell you...=) 5 pounds is a hard hit on gaining. well, its pretty nice here in NC today....sunny. we only got a little rain, no storms like the news said we might so as always theres always something outside that needs attention...=) happy sunday!!!
YIKES!!!!! i haven't really been weigh as i usually do (my way to keep myself in control) and now look what that da-gone easter bunny went and did to me!!! =( (so i wish i could blame him) i got on the scale tonight (usually i do first thing in the morning so it might be a "tiny" bit different tomorrow or so i'm hoping) and it SAID!!!! that i gained 4.8 pounds!!! OMG!!! i knew there had to be maybe two at the most b/c i have been over indulging w/ those yummy peanutbutter eggs but almost 5 pounds.....what a heffer!!! well no poor me! time to get my butt back in gear...i hope i enjoyed this vaction b/c its back to work on healtier me!!! not to meantion my sugar has been a little high (i was feeling like a slug and very tired so i called the doc and he took some blood and i'll hear what my sugar level avg. was for the 3 months and find out if i walked over the line of "pre-diabetic" into a whole nother world of type II diabetes) but i'm sure my poor goodie diet here lately has a lot to do w/ it. hope everyone else is doing much much better than me!! and yes! i'm gonna keep it in the positive...=)
another 0.2 gone...!!! yeah i know 0.2 pounds big deal some might say but i have learned early on every tiny bit help and eventually adds up to a pound and these days all those tiny bits will soon be added up to a total of 24 pounds gone!!!! wow, i just can't believe this...i am actually losing, maintaining, and changing into the beautiful butterfly i knew i could be. i still have some way to go getting out of this cocoon but i see the sunshine on the outside...=) easter dinner went great but old habits are still hard to brake. i discussed w/ myself that easter dinner would be a free for all and i'd just go a haed and eat all i wanted. well i filled my plate (full size) w/ all that i love and gorged my self w/ in the past. i filled the biggest glass i could find w/ "full strength" pepsi....mmm mmm yummmy... then i dug in. OMG! just as i expected it was so good but the truth be know which i didn't even know was there... i couldn't eat everything like i once did. i couldn't even push myself to eat even a little more when i knew i was getting full and as for that pepsi it tasted really sweet and the bubbles filled me up like i had to belch (i didn't like that feeling either) i have once thought that this was all a "will power struggle...mind over food" but now my body has taken the steerling wheel and when it says its time to pull over and stop. finally one battle fought and won!! i am not mentally alone here in my body. my mind, heart, and tummy have become partners. =) finally!!! i have this renewed strength that i can "do this" !!! and i finally have some control over my addiction and comfort needs w/ food. i am a work in progress!!!
Special Thanks to..... ashleyb Step Inside if You Care for always keeping an eye on me even when i thought i was forgotten here...=) and for being a big part of my support system, motivation, and letting me know i am not alone in this struggle to change for a healthier me.... you go girl !!! =)
happy easter to everyone!! things have been busy as i said before. the weather is getting hot here, almost time to turn on the central air and i recieved bad new from NY earlier in the week. a teenhood friend (cousin to one of my best friends in high school) passed away at 36. they think it was from a stroke. here i am overweight and not as active as i should be and the news came very hard as i am 37 and could help but wonder if i don't really get serious here what fate has waiting for me down the road or around the corner. as i meantioned before i was in a relationship from the time i was 13-29 and my ex was abusive and controlling but in those young years he was mostly controlling and qwick to slap me (not thats better but compared to later years it was) but stolen moments my friend and i would sneak to her cousins high school dances and hang out w/ them and their friends on the other side of town. they were stolen moments of what my teenhood should have been and then later in life when i finally got away and divorced they (the same cousins of my friend) reappeared in my life for support and healing my broken self image. so i find myself soul searching, blogging just lays it out for me. i've also started another written journal that i carry w/ me. healing a broken inside is as slow as losing weight...=) some days are better than others but i'm healing and happy. i weighed in at 224.8 and have been naughty w/ the peanut butter eggs...=) hope everyone is doing great too, i will try to look in on my favs. a little later today and see what you have been up too...see you soon! =)
its amazing how the stomach does shrink. i've always heard people talk about that but have never been able to "do the time" for it to really shrink and feel the effects. w/ my boss having had gastric bypass i hear her always say, "now i can expect to gain back 20% of what i've lost and thats if i don't strech my stomach back out". then theres days when she complains how much she ate at lunch when the day before she couldn't eat very much, she admits its scary. only time will tell how her journey will end. i hope for myself, although this has been the slowest process of losing wt. for me is that i cont. to learn along the way and b/c its been a slow journey i may have sucess of keeping it off b/c i've changed inside as well as out. i just may get close to 200 by the end of june!!!! =) hope everyone is doing great. i'm gonna try to check in on everyone since our friend who has been visiting from NY has headed back home.
i'm still rocking and rolling!!! =) but have been very busy. we have a friend down from NY and the weather here has been awesome but i'm still working at it. i've weighed in today w/ a happy 225.4 !!!! i have really been adapting to eating less and my portion sizes are much smaller rather than the hog bucket i once ate from. i reallly don't even have to think about it, it seems my stomach has gotten smaller and i stop eating when i start to feel full and before i gorge myself "and" strech my stomach back out!! i hope everyone is doing great!! spring is here!!!! =)
OMG!!! i don't know how this happened !!!! i got on the scale and it told me....226.6 !!!! (i even got back on 2 more times to triple check!!)
heres the kicker though...i have been a slug when it comes to exercise here lately and i indulged in a 9" steak, cheese, and mushroom sub last night...and i ate the whole thing w/ mayo!!!! not to meantion others tid-bits including 2 ho-ho's!!! all i can think is i that i roughly keep track of my calories but not exact so maybe i'm not meeting the needs of my metabolism and making is slow down even more and when i ate crazy yesterday it shocked it and got it moving??? i have no idea??? but i do know i'm gonna take the loss as a gift from the wt. god and get my butt back in gear!!!
hey-ho!!! =) i have been feeling so good!! i wish i could say its b/c i lost a ton more wt. or b/c i'm eating and exercising like i should BUT i'm not....i'm holding my own and have 0.2 lbs to get back down to my lowest wt. maybe its b/c i am "trying" new things...namely veggies...=) still working hard at that and probably always will. i still pick thru what i like best but at least i'm trying new things!! here a recipe for a broccoli medley and only 52 cals per serving!
Broccoli Medley
1 tbsp. olive oil
1 clove minced garlic
1-1/4 lb. or 5 cups broccoli, cut into bite size pieces.
1/2 red and yellow pepper (total 1 cup w/ both), cut into thin strips
2 tbsp. soy sauce
1. heat olive oil and garlic in a wok or skillet.
2. add broccoli and stir-fry for 1 min.
3. add peppers and continue to stir-fry for 3-4 mins. more or until veggies are crisp-tender. then add soy sauce and cook stiring until heated throughly.
i'm not a big pepper eater but i like the flavor it adds. so in some cases i'm finding out is that i may not like to "eat" something but cooking w/ it i like the "taste" it adds to the meal. hope everyone is doing great!! =)
Chocolate Mint Brownies
Ingredients: 4 ounces unsweetened chocolate, divided 1/2 cup plus 3 tablespoons butter or margarine, softened, divided 1 cup sugar Two eggs, lightly beaten 1/2 cup all-purpose flour 1/2 cup coarsely chopped pecans 1 teaspoon peppermint extract, divided 1/8 teaspoon salt 1 cup confectioners' sugar 1 tablespoon half-and-half or evaporated milk
Directions: Preheat the oven to 350-degrees. Combine 2-ounces of the chocolate and 1/2-cup of the butter in a large microwave-safe dish. Microwave on high for 1-1/2 to 2 minutes or until blended, stirring halfway through the cooking process. Cool slightly. Stir in the sugar and eggs. Add the flour, pecan, 1/4-teaspoon of the flavoring and salt and mix well. Spoon into a greased 7 x 11-inch baking pan. Bake for 20 minutes or until a wooden pick inserted in the center comes out clean. Cool in the pan on a wire rack.
Mix the confectioner's sugar, half-and-half, 2-tablespoons of the remaining butter and the remaining 3/4-teaspoon flavoring in a large mixing bowl until smooth. Spread over the brownie layer. Chill for 30 minutes or until set.
Combine the remaining 2-ounces chocolate and remaining 1-tablespoon butter in a small microwave-safe dish. Microwave on high for 1 to 1-1/2 minutes or until blended, stirring halfway through the cooking process. Drizzle over the top, spreading evenly to cover the surface. Chill until set. Cut into 1-1/2 inch squares.
Recipe makes 40 servings.
Nutrition information per serving: Calories: 94 Fat: 6g Sodium: 43g
