i'm doing it!! i got on the scale this morning and it said 230.8!! i can feel it.....220's here i come!! i know some say that you shouldn't weigh your self every day, don't let it become an obsession and i haven't. for me its something i do as a daily guild. i guess kinda like mini goals. if i weigh in and i've lost a little i am thrilled, if it says the same i am still happy b/c i didn't gain, and if it does say i gained then i know i have and that i have to look at what i ate the day before and what i'll do better at today. but Monday is suppose to be my official weight recording day.
i decided a little while back that if i had a lose i was going to record it mainly b/c theres something about the graph that really motivates me. i know the journey i'm on will rise and fall along the way and as i'm learning control and discipline i am learning how to better deal w/ disappointment by not turning to food and looking to other comfort resources such as journaling. not just here but in a book i carry w/ me to work and have on hand at home. i have done this when i was going through my divorce and started a note book diet stats and journal when i started trying to lose this weight last summer. most people tell me, "every time i see you your always smiling" and this is true...good times bad times the outside never told the true stories, that the fat didn't mean happy and content. inside, my eating, sleepless nights, and plump apple shaped body really told the story. so in addition to venting and celebrating in my personal journal as well as here i think i'm growing in abilities instead of size...lol i have also tried to exercise when i'm frustrated or angry but that doesn't give me the finality of leaving it on the pages when i close the cover.
well see you tomorrow for the official weight recording...=) hope everyone is having a great weekend! =)
Posted By: Emma Bella
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03/05/2006 13:29
YEAHHH!!!!
I am SSSSOOOO happy for you!!! WOW I cant say how proud I am of you!!! You are doing WONDERFUL!!! I believe you know what works best for you! So if weighing in every day works for you.... then do it!!! Wow look at that graph....YOU GO GIRL!!!!! I will be checking on you tomorrow! GOOD LUCK!!!
You're doing great! I'm glad to see that you're the kind of person who smiles a lot. It's amazing how taking positive control of your life can make you happy at times. Thanks for the lengthy response to my blog--really appreciate your interest in my well-being. :-)
I weigh every morning. First thing. I have to do that to keep myself on track. You say don't let it become and obsession but I find I have to be obssessed with dieting for me stick to it. I have to think about the diet everytime I walk in the kitchen. Plan meals and such so the whole family can eat. The rest of my family is skin and bones so they dont need lettuce and tuna everynight..lol...
Hey Emma, thanks for your helpful comment to me yesterday. I enjoyed reading your blog, and can really relate to your struggles. After my weight loss surgery, I decided to weigh myself every day so that I would learn how to NOT be enslaved to the numbers of the scale. That may sound contradictory, but there was something freeing about growing to understand that my body weight will fluctuate up and down (sometimes as much as 5-6 pounds) on a daily basis, even when I'm doing everything "perfectly"! With the surgery, I knew that there wasn't much I could do "wrong" (at least in the first year or so...), and so it didn't send me into the tailspin of depression and binging if I saw the scale numbers go up some days. It was liberating and I really did retrain my brain about that darn scale! Good luck!
