Give and Take

i have gained...... some muscle and some unwanted weight.  i'm not feeling bad though.  i know the reasons, all my own.  my parents are down for the 2-3 month visit and my mom loves to eat out. i'm proud to say... i have that situation undercontrol 95% of the time but my problem is actually exercising on regular timed session.  i have been still doing my yoga and modified yoga moves (i've been using the book "a yoga guide for idiots") and have become more flexible and relaxed.  i am still playing softball and loving it!! thats where i know the muscle has come from as well as the strength that the yoga gives to me just by moving my own body.  my cloths are baggy!!! i actually need a belt and i have actually purchased a few pairs of new jeans that are tight. this will give me a goal to actually get my hands on and physically gage how i'm doing.  when i take a bath and dry my body, even thought i still have aways to go i can see the curves of muscle in my legs and arms. i can feel under once all sqwishy fat strong hard muscle!! so i'm giving and taking. giving it a 100% and taking my time to really make the life change. i'm not beating myself up for the gain b/c i have already changed so much. especially my mind and choices. once there was a time when it came to food it was a mental battle...to eat or not to eat. now i eat w/out really thinking about the choice i am making. i eat healthy. sometimes not perfect but most of the time i eat only what i want in a portion size that isn't out of control and if i want to eat something full of cals. i do and  most of the time i eat enough that it fufills me and leave more than half on my plate. i'm doing good...=)  and i'm  proud. as the weather gets colder here the less i can spend out side so i will start blogging again and checking in on some of my old friends and look forward to meeting some new friends too!  =) 

the best advise i can offer :  Never Give Up!!!!  w/ each new day there is a New Start and eventually that new start is a new journey and then a new way of life and how you will love.....NOW LIVE IT!!!....=)