02/19/2006 01:15
No motivation, could I be depressed?
hey everyone!
i guess i'm doing ok. i really haven't been feeling well but i'm not sure if its a bug or just not being happy w/ myself. i have cut back on eating like i said i would but "i'm eating junk!!" its in my mouth chewed and swallowed before i realize..."DON'Teat that!!" then i've got the taste and an emotional battle begins in my head...and i always end up eating just a little more. why do i do that!! i feel and sound so weak! i am so strong every where else in my life except for this area...FOOD! Monday is my weigh in and i can't bare to see a gain but yet i don't stop myself from making the wrong choices when it comes to food and i'm not being consistent w/ exercise. instead of feeling gun-ho i just can't get excited like i have before about losing weight and feeling better. could i be depressed? is this what its like? i feel happy around my family and friends and stuff but inside where people can't see i feel so down. has anyone out there had bout w/ depression? does it sound like i am?