02/11/2006 11:27
EMOTIONAL eater!! and good news!!
i know i need to be working toward my deadline of how i'm going to loss this weight through diet and exercise. i think about it constantly but have not committed to anything as of yet and Monday is 2 days away. as i said before its like i'm afraid to be hungry or deprived the privilege of eating what i think i might deserve. so that's my big problem, i'm an emotional eater and i guess i'm afraid that a major crisis will happen and i will be w/out the means i'm use to having to cope with it. i know i have to stop telling myself that i "deserve" to eat something high in calorie or unhealthy. what i deserve is to be healthy and live a long life for my children and myself. i realize that food intake and exercise is a very important part to weight loss but after analyzing myself and the way i think i know in my heart and soul if i don't get my mind straight w/ why i'm eating i won't keep any weight that i lose off and i'm working toward a life change not a quick fix like before when all my hard work was regained and w/ a vengeance!!!
On a good note my 17 yr old son just got his acceptance letter to the University at Buffalo for civil engineering!!! now that's two in college. my 20 yr old has been working toward her BA in psychology where she plans on going into med. school or law. and my 4 yr old is working on getting ready for kindergarten this coming school year... i am so blessed!! and i owe my children to enjoy w/ them the great accomplishments and milestones to come in the future. i need to do this! i need to change my life!!