Thanks to Everyone!!
thank you to everyone who commented. i never thought yoga could be so rewarding "inside" as well as the outside.
things have been going good w/ getting back on eating healthy once i stopped using the heat as an excuse to eat a little junk here and there and nothing else.
my poor daughter...=( my heart is just in tears over her new dilemma w/ her father. i for a long time have not allowed him to use me as an emotional punching bag as he once did emotionall and physically. he has now the past 2 months while arriel has been visiting ny every now and then flipped out on her. hes crazy! and when she gives it right back right down to the dirty mouth he flips out even more thats shes being disrespectful and questions the truckers mouth. well she learned it at the source...the man himself. i use to worry but she doesn't use that verbage anywhere else in her life. i know how she feels. to spoon feed him right back what he just fed you sometimes feels like your only defence. of course, he then starts burning up my phone line talking crap but he only does it a few times b/c he knows the next person maybe my husband picking up that phone and hes afraid of another man...then its all about he'll call the police for harassment or assult but he thinks he can abuse any woman he wants too. well maybe his girlfrend but not me or his daughter. i think this is finally it. arriel has finally had enough and the man being her father doesn't give him a free card to flip out on her when things aren't going right in his life. to be honest i am thrilled!!! i worry so much about that unhealthy relationship. and yes for those of you who know this story my 18 year old son is living w/ him still "but" usually minds his ground but mikey is every upset w/ the verbal abuse his sister has gone through here lately. our talk today kinda shocked me when my son said, " dad really talked to you that way too all those years?" i wanted to say HELLO!! but he was just a small boy when all that went on and i guess he really didn't know. now i worry for him but he doesn't have to stay w/ hhis father if he doesn't want too. my parents still live up there and have aleady told him he has a home to come to and still be able to attend the college hes worked so hard to get into. at least i don't have to worry anymore about my ex poisioning my sons mind. mikey is nothing like his father either, thank God!!
whooo, i love this place...just get my worries out there and let them free. no more drownding them in a pan of brownies which by the way is out in the kitchen walnut and peanutbutter chip. but here is my comfort not the food. and even yoga has brought the release of tention in the few moves i am only doing for right now.
when i stated above about being healthy mind, body, and soul.... yoga i see now is gonna be that major part that has been missing from my life. GO YOGA!!! ...lol =)