Missing in Action..Totally!!
i have been MIA here but honestly not only here but also in my every day life. i am filled w/ the old skeleton in the closet... i am emotionall dealing and food is my long time comfort and friend that doesn't judge or tell me to grow up. i have gained 3 pounds in almost 4 weeks. i guess it could be worse. i went home to new york and had a wonderful time. my surface being is smooth and calm w/ sunny blue skies but truth be told deep w/ in in rolling waves of emotion and thunderstorms of discontentment. i am home sick. i miss my older children who are now both in college. dealing w/ these changing tides are alot harder on me than just emotion but also physical... i can't get myself to move!! or to eat right and i'm felling it! i have felt sick and tired. i'm sure my wt. gain isn't huge b/c of the way i haven't been feeling well so even though i have been living on junk its not doing as much damage as it could. i'm forcing myself to go w/ my little guy out for a hike. i know want to but i have to get moving. i think about the goals i have and what i want to achieve and i'm just a slug. i'll write more later...at least this is the first time i am admiting i'm having a problem and it could get out of control w/ my eating.