More than physical Changes

i am doing great... but i have noticed a lot of changes occuring w/in and around me.  people are really starting to notice the weight loss and i am realizing that i am treated differently slimmer. i get direct eye contact, people want to stay engaged w/ conversion longer w/ me, they dont mind to reach out and touch or hug me upon greetings or departings. this is all so emotional for me. b/c y mind although knows i'm slimmer still doesn't want anyone in it person space and certainly not touching it! and when i think about it, it makes me angry. i am still the same person if anything i have w/drawn a little b/c i don't want to be the center of attention. its really making waves at work w/ my co-workers b/c then they see this all going on and get asked, "so when are you going to have gastric bypass since the doc did it and so did emma?"  i see the looks on their faces and it does make me feel bad. i have one person who once was a close friend who has distanced herself from me and has been chating behind my back thanks to another co-worker i am hear exactly what shes saying. her big complaint is i've changed so much, but the one telling said she and the others dont agree that they dont see any personality changes except being a little more involved w/ my job and less chatting time but thats not a bad thing. i will feel like someone is watching me and i'll turn and there will be the neg co-worker looking at me and she has this look on her face... its hard to explain like she hates me for doing something terrible to her but all i do is smile at her or ask her if she needs any help w/ anything or if everything is ok and she'll snap, "i'm fine!!" it does make me mad. it makes me mad that to some people losing weight makes me a better person when i am the same person!!!  i see now what the books were saying about psychological issues after surgery. all i know all i can do it continue to be myself and not forget what it was like weighting 248 pounds and how i was treated and how i am treated now and wade through the people who are true of heart and loved me/liked me at 248 or 181 or slimmer! well i hope everyone is getting along good.... =)  now i'm off to check on you guys!!

It's so frustrating isn't it?

But you are right, people do treat you differently when you lose weight.  However, even though you may basically be the same person, I'd bet anything that you have changed a little.  How could you not.  This was a HUGE decision for you to make and one I'm sure you didn't take lightly so therefore you are going to only want to surround yourself with happy & supportive friends & family and leave the negative ones waiting on the sidelines.  And those people are the ones who feel you are not the same person because you are not willing to let them walk all over you or to put up with their crap...you have a whole life to live now and we are given very little time to live so don't waste a minute of it on those who can't see the real you be it changed from before or not!

I was happy to see your post..

I was getting worried, wondering if you were okay.

Hang in there, of course you're changing, how could you not?  It's the others that has to realized that its all for the better.

Have a great week