now that i'm losing it shows. my cloths are baggy and my face has really thinned out. i've noticed men straight out looking at me, checking me out...me!! its weird and kinda uncomfortable b/c its been so long. don't get me wrong men have flirted w/ me but only after they took the time to get past my tick popping shape and got to know me inside. but yeah right there in front of my husband some will even smile and do that head nod thing...huh??  its all weird to me in the fact that i think my being over weight gave my husband marital security. while he was a good husband he did lack in the romance department and i only chalked that up to the years married, work, or lack of time. well let me tell you the man holds my hand, watches my every move... i thinks funny. before when i was on the phone he'd never ask who i was talking to and now he does as well as when i was on the computer he'll come in and sit w/ me or stand behind me to see what i'm doing. i think hes feeling insecure and i did read where this becomes and issue for some men whos wives have gastric bypass but i never thought it would be us. i have never given him a reason before and while he told me i was beautiful i don't think he thought anyone else did which leads to my weird feelings about everything. yeah its funny he'd worry about something he doesn't have too and then i feel kinda disappointed that he has found security in my unhealthiness. i'm not gonna stop feeling good about me and i'm not gonna hide from the world. i've wasted already too many years hiding out b/c i was so over weight. so i'm just gonna keep on keepin on being me. he should be secure in the fact that i love him and we have a great relationship but i don't want a jealous husband i want a proud that she's mine husband. i've tried to bring up the topic but hes not ready to talk about this i think hes kinda shocked too that hes feeling insecure. b/c what does it say about us really if hes insecure and worried....hmmmm that's food for thought. i know i haven't changed any. but what happens when i start buying cloths to fit. how bad is this gonna get w/ him before he'll admit hes acting different? and i plan on having a tummy tuck if i need one and figured to have my breasts touched up too as well. that's a long way off but what then? these are things i choose for myself to make me feel good about me. i've told him my plans and his only concern was for my back problems...i laughed b/c i wasn't looking for watermelons...just get back some of my youthfulness ...lol  after 3 kids and w/ the weight loss i didn't realize before how much of my boobs were fat vs. breast tissue. but like i said that's a ways off and maybe the end won't be as bad as i think it might be. its in God's hands and he never leads me wrong!  hope everyone is doing great!