09/02/2007 20:54
WLS more than for Wt. lose
"I'm Bacccccck!!!!!!!" =)
First of all i wanna thank everyone for their comments and well wishes. I truly needed and appreciated every word of confidence and support. i needed them more than you know...=)
Well heres how my journey started.
as we all know i was gun-ho and ready to go. we drove down to south carolina and as time passed i became an emotional basket case in spite of all my family's effort to calm me (and they have no clue what was really going on inside). the hotel had a pool which i really needed, water has always had a calming effect on me. so i floated around and played w/ my family but mostly floated on my back looking up into the stars asking God if i was doing the right thing and acknowledging there was going to be a point where i couldn't say stop, i've changed my mind. after the pool i washed a pre'd as i was ordered and my case of nerves returned. the alarm went off at 5 am and off it all started. it all happened so fast. i remembered laying in the pre-op bed thinking everything through again....pros/cons...looking at my little guy only 5 and my daughter 21 and thinking of my older 19 voice and how scared he was but so supportive. then my husband there by my side full of nerves and all his own questions but yet supported me every step of the way. yes, i need to proceed in all honesty....i can not lose this weight by my self, i need this tool, this gift to help me live for myself, my children, and my husband.....for my parents who will one day need me too to be there. so up to that moment i doubted myself. up to that moment i was unsure and so when they rolled me to the OR suite i had self confirmation.
the surgery took about 2 hours ( this will differ among surgeons but my surgeon and partner who assisted him had done over 6000) he also said he'd look around at everything too, gall bladder and such.
well if you've read any of my previous blogs of concern 2 years ago i had high liver enzyme levels and was told i had "fatty liver disease" and that most obese people have some degree of it. i lost 10 pounds and the levels became normal. that concern was always there it really bothered me that i could have a liver like an alcoholic when i didn't even drink but i felt like i was out of the water w/ that concern as long as i didn't gain anymore weight....well...........
while the doctor was looking around at my insides he noted that my liver had some irregularities as well as fat deposits. he told me he did a biopsy of my liver and then it came, i asked should i be concerned. he said that w/ the irregularities i have "a mild form of sclerosis of the liver".....OMG!!!! WHAT!!! i'm not an alcoholic, i've never abused my body w/ drugs or alcohol..!!!! it made me sick... i did abuse my body w/ food. i have mild sclerosis of the liver b/c of all the years of being out of control w/ my eating. i will hear the report on the 5th when i go for my check-up but he says w/ it being mild as i lose weight i will heal and my liver will get better. so even more than ever i need to have this surgery. i can't imagine my liver another 10 years of up and down eating and dieting.
so far i haven't been hungry, which is a good thing. its a psychological want to eat and it passes fast. the protein supplements are yuck at this stage but should get better next week/stage. the trapped gas has been a lot of fun too..not! but that's getting better. activity is good and for the most part i am "chipper"...=) i just thank God for this second chance at being healthy. august 28th truly was like being re-born into a new live. i weighed into and have lost 5 pounds already.