08/20/2007 00:56
pre-op today at the hospital
finally the jitters are gone (for now...lol) i feel so much better than i did last monday. the shock has taken its toll and the nerves are settling so i'm starting to feel more excited about my approaching surgery date.
i think a lot of my big fears were the ones i had about eating right after surgery (the clear liquid stage) and getting enough protein and then forever eating "regular" food. it really stressed me out but the best thing i could have done was focus that in my online research (which for 3 yrs now i've researched the surgery itself but to my horror not every tiny detail like the stages of eating after) and the books. one about life after surgery and a cook book for life after surgery.
so i've found a 42 gram "protein bullet" which is a tube like plastic container that has a clear flavored liquid and a high amount of protein. so there won't be a lot to drink to get what i need meaning only 2 bullets a day along w/ my regular hydration.
and as far as the forever after eating. the cook book has showed me that i can eat what i have been just less and being conscience of "healthy" eating. 3 years ago when i started this inquest i felt i couldn't have done this surgery. i felt it just wasn't something i could do at that time and so i went on my 2 year diet to lose only 32 pounds and gain alomost everything back "once again". but along the way i re-learned how to eat and how to be health thanks to weight watchers. so w/ 3 years of research and all the diet and healthy facts i now know i am committed 100% to my decision i have made.
by no means have i jumped into this decision. i thank God i have the support of my family and friends who have watched me struggle over the years along w/ each year my health decline for such a young age.
today i go to the hospital for my pre-op and then a last visit to my surgeon and then the big day will happen on august 28th. my arrival time is 7:30 am. i will know more detail later today.
hope everyone is doing great!
PS. my nephew is going home tuesday!!!!!! still a long road a head of him but he has already been dubbed "the miracle child" by the doctors and nurses from the ICU. thank you who have been praying for us...!!!! thank you!!!!!! thank you!!!!! and please continue b/c the power of pray sure is showing its self !!!!!!! =)