Happy Easter!!!
happy easter to everyone!! things have been busy as i said before. the weather is getting hot here, almost time to turn on the central air and i recieved bad new from NY earlier in the week. a teenhood friend (cousin to one of my best friends in high school) passed away at 36. they think it was from a stroke. here i am overweight and not as active as i should be and the news came very hard as i am 37 and could help but wonder if i don't really get serious here what fate has waiting for me down the road or around the corner. as i meantioned before i was in a relationship from the time i was 13-29 and my ex was abusive and controlling but in those young years he was mostly controlling and qwick to slap me (not thats better but compared to later years it was) but stolen moments my friend and i would sneak to her cousins high school dances and hang out w/ them and their friends on the other side of town. they were stolen moments of what my teenhood should have been and then later in life when i finally got away and divorced they (the same cousins of my friend) reappeared in my life for support and healing my broken self image. so i find myself soul searching, blogging just lays it out for me. i've also started another written journal that i carry w/ me. healing a broken inside is as slow as losing weight...=) some days are better than others but i'm healing and happy. i weighed in at 224.8 and have been naughty w/ the peanut butter eggs...=) hope everyone is doing great too, i will try to look in on my favs. a little later today and see what you have been up too...see you soon! =)