05/06/2007 21:20
When the man upstairs knows best!
God is talking to me........
me, my husband, and 5 yr.old son set out hiking this afternoon. it was our usual hike but we planed on walking half a mile then turn down another trail we've never hiked before.
this .50 miles is the same .05 miles i walked in January when my oldest son came home to visit for christmas from college in ny. yes, i was slow but i did fine....TODAY i was huffing and puffing, heart pounding....i wanted to stop and turn back but i didn't say a word. i pushed forward and could not believe how bad i felt, how out of shape i was again. we came to a place on wolf's trail where there was a look out, high above the green carpet of trees and tiny rises and falls in the distance i sat looking out... i told my husband and son i wanted to rest a bit and to got a ahead and go exploring but i really wanted a few moments alone.
i thanked God for looking out for me, my wonderful family and for all the 100s of blessings in my life "and" for letting me know that i am not physically ready to go under general anesthesia, my lungs and heart are just not as strong as they once were, my body just isn't ready for such an undertaking as gastric bypass surgery right now and the three months would allow me to work up my strangth and stamina. i honestly did not realized how far a slipped backward until today... and things happen for a reason that's for sure!
so when the boys returned our 2 mile hike turned into about 5 plus. my feet hurt and my leg muscles are a little tight but i feel great. proud i am on this track. i was able to do a lot of thinking as well as spending time w/ my family. i even laid back on a rock and looked up into such a huge beautiful blue sky and said to myself...."the sky's the limit"
i am so much more excited than i thought i was before. i have always tried to set goals but august as a target and growing strong a "have to" i feel like everything is coming together like it should be and i now have a peace that was missing before. well i better get to bed...i am tired...lol
hope everyone is doing great!!!