I wish I were able to find a car. Today I looked at a cool looking car in my price range, but the clutch pedal is too difficult to push, it causes me knee pain.  Which is the last thing I need

Tomorrow I'm busy all day 8 - 6 working as a volleyball official, it's my new job, and I have not been paid one red cent. I've spent countless hours online working on all this crap, gone to two clinics, worked two games, and tomorrow is my second tournament.
Nope - have not received one check.... nothing nada, and I paid up front for materials, uniform, and "dues".

So I'm just full to the brim of worries etc.  I would like to work out, it's just not really happening for me at all. Not at all.  We will see, I am an aspiring gym rat.

What a wild week. I have not been able to find a car that suits me. And the crazy thing is that i"m not being picky!  I do want a Nissan, Toyota, Honda, or some brand something like these... but I"m really not being picky just dont want to be ripped off. I almost bought a Suzuki today, it was totally cute, but I took it to my mechanic to glance at and (for the third time) he advised me to look on due to engine issues.

Eeek. i need a car.  Im using one of my dad's super horrible construction trucks for now, beginning today.

The reason I need a car so badly is that i have taken a second job - being a ref. for volleyball games for our local middle schools and high schools. The games are supposed to start about 5:15, and hopefully be done by 7pm, pain in the arrrrggg..... my major problem is I haven't been paid one red cent for my work yet.... arrrggg the check is in the mail.

Diet ? aweful, just totally bad choices in the past two days ( i cant believe its only tuesday)  I ate big meals and then just tried to barely eat later kind of to make up for it. 

I am so busy!  and I'm sick of being busy!  No time for anything with my job, my second job, and the full time hastle of car shopping.  Who knew?

I just hope my plan works:
I want to go to the University of Kentucky gym and work out often and work out really hard.  Tonight, though, I just felt too busy to work out.  After work I went to my new job working as a ref. for volleyball.
I also have to eat right, such as tonight, for dinner I ate wheat toast topped with homemade pesto and tomatos from my garden.  I thought that went well.

For some reason, I have all this hope that once I buy my new car (hopefully tomorrow) I will have the drive to get to the gym in the evenings and get to the grocery to buy healthy foods.

On Monday of this week was my first morning in Washington DC, so I went for my first run of the week. It was so beautiful, and it was great. I used the cardio coach on my i-pod, I was all over the place by the monuments, etc.

Well, now I've had shin splints as a result of doing too much Monday.  Its Thursday morning, and I woke up early but still have the shin pain. So I've been sidelined all week.

Eating has been decent but not great.  Ugh, so frustrating.

My 1988 Volvo (laughs welcome) has quit on me this week, exactly as I was looking for a new car and tryinjg to sell it.  I actually already had a seller for it when it broke down.  But then Dad said I had sold it for too little money anyways so I was better off getting it fixed and towed by one of his friends and then asking for more money.

I guess i just feel like I dont know what i'm doing.

Today I found a 2003 Nissan Altima that I wanted to buy. It costs $6500 so its low enough i can afford it.  And then also it has 118,000 miles, that is alot.  So then my brother in law was laughing that I was getting ripped off.

Am I ?  I dont know but I"m sick of everybody telling me I'm making the wrong decisions. Im not seeing many other decision options out there!  I mean I've been looking and comparing prices, and there isn't much you can get for $7000 is there?
I'm so confused.

Plus, my bank would give me  a loan that is a lot bigger, but am I crazy to want a small loan that I can pay off and pay off quick?  I thought that was smart.

I feel so confused and so sick of everybody telling me that I'm messing it all up.  If they are all going to criticize, then they need to offer to help as well.  Thanks for listening.  I'm just so wound up about it.  =(  I feel frazzled.  Very very frazzled, and i've been like this all day long, actually all week!

No I have not worked out or done any type of exercise since monday... that might be a provlem,  but then again it might not.  I can always get back on track tomorrow may be, or something. 
I might ride my bike to work tomorrow. 
This Sunday mornign I'm going to Washington DC again if anybody is in DC and wants to go running in the morning, hey!
I definitely will try to go running each and every morning while in DC, and I will also be keeping up with my blog!  So I will be commenting and keeping in touch with you all even though I'm traveling.
Update: I drank plenty of water the past couple of days!  And I bought a watermelon today, so thats all good.

I have not weighed myself. But for some reason I feel like I'm doing well.  Like I said, I dont even know how much I weigh.  I also did not drink hardly any water today, maybe just 30 ounces.   I drank coffee, which I think caffeine is bad for weight loss efforts.  Didn't make myself any green tea in the past two days either.

I ate a salad for dinner but then I came home and ate two grilled cheese sandwiches.

I think it's being too optimistic to say I'm doing okay.  I didnt even exercise today at all.  

Hi, I need to go exercise and I need to eat less.  That's whats going on with me. I'm full of all different feelings and emotions towards everything and my eating and exercising is reflecting that.   Not doing a great job at all. I'd give myself a D- for the past five days.  Maybe tomorrow, since it's Sunday, I'll turn over a new leaf.

I agree with everybody who said the weekend was too short.  It certainly was, and that makes me want to take a sick day or something some time this week.  Sleepy is sick right?

Let me also say that I have stayed on my doctor's orders for one more day. There must have been an accidental slip sometime, because I noticed the effects of such. 

This evening, our volleyball team played at 7pm, and we won!  YAY so we played again, because it was a tournament.  We lost the second time, however, we were proud!

Well I'm just glad Monday at work (which was horrible) is over.  Next week we can all watch the Olympics!  I'm going to be watching online!

30 Minutes; I did thirty minutes of unplanned, un-routine exercise this afternoon on the eliptical.  Tomorrow morning I'll wake up  early and go jog thirty minutes in the morning.   Tomorrow night is my favorite exercise class: Fit and Faithful!!!!  =)

I had a great weekend, it was BF's birthday and his parents came to town, they are very entertaining, fun folks.  And I saw my family as well. 

This morning I got up at 5:45am.    that made me tired.
But I went to the 6am exercise class and did cardio and weights. I also brought my lunch to work today: Apples from the back yard trees, a soy yogurt, and a crab meat salad with some tomato from the back yard garden!

I feel so "Under the Tuscan Sun" with our gardening!

Chantal has just challenged me to step up my exercise by doing thirty minutes more per day.  You know, I think I can do that!  I can go to the gym after work and do 30 minutes of cardio! YEa!!!  I will, I can do it!  It's my challenge to do thirty more minutes of cardio... Every DAy! 
Today (Monday) Go to they YMCA and get on the machine for 30 min.
Tuesday: Wake up and go wogging around the neighborhood for 30 min.
Wednesday: Gym after work
Thursday: TBA
Friday: Gym after work!