Well I lost 1kg last week (2.2lbs) - I thought it would be more from my own scales but I did weigh in in the afternoon rather than the morning so that might explain it. I was a bit naughty over the weekend though after my weigh in. I bought some additional bars (biggest loser ones) just as top-ups but I ate them over the Sat and Sunday (2 extra bars a day). I told myself that I would still come in under 1000 calories a day so I should still lose weight but when I checked my pee stick I had come out of ketosis - for those not familar with VLCD - ketosis is the state your body goes into when it is burning your fat reserves as energy - this releases ketones into your body which can be measured by peeing on a special stick. The more ketones the more efficient your body is at burning fat - my body is not efficient at the best of time - even when I am religiously sticking to the diet I only just register in the ketones stacks which probably explains why I don't lose weight as fast as others. Fingers crossed my lapse over the weekend isn't going to ruin my weight loss this week!
In 2 weeks I am off to a conference for work so I am going to eat that week. In one way I am soooo looking forward to eating but on the other I'm scared I won't be able to stop. I really want to get down to a new low for me 60kg (9 1/2 stone) which will be my lowest ever adult weight. Still aways to go yet though......
Well - you can probably tell from the delay in posting this that my weight loss wasn't quite what I'd hoped. I lost 2.2kg (41/2 lbs) which is good and under any normal diet would be excellent but for the first week of a aVery Low calorie Diet it is quite low. The first time I did a VLCD I lost 7 1/2 lbs in my 1st week and that was less than the other women in my support group who lost between 10 and 14 lbs each. I'm not letting it dishearten me but similiarly I'm not skipping 6inches off the ground either. onwards and up (down) wards as they say....
The beginning of the week was a breeze - I remember thinking what is all the fuss about I can cope with this! But I reckon I was still functioning on the food I had eaten the week before. As the week has dragged on I have become more tired and hungry. Today I was hungry from the moment I woke up until.. well now and I've eaten all 3 meals. I struggled to get out of bed and walking home from work my legs just didn't want to move...Oh well it will all be worth it in the end.
I'm more upbeat today than i was yesterday. It helped when i slipped my work trousers on and they did up more easily than they have done recently (and it's only been 3 days so far). It's also TOTM which explains the emotional rollercoaster - men really don't know what they are missing eh! The only slip today was an extra shake to make up for the stomach cramps - but the scales are showing very postive moves downwards so I'm not too worried about that. Roll on Sat for my official weigh in - I'm hoping for more than 2kg loss.....
Feeling a bit blue today - I'm hungry tored amd emotional - all to be expected. But I've had a bad day in the office too. I'm beginning to think I can't do this - I'm getting no support from the company or my manager but I'm expected to get results without any investment. Either they want me to succeed or I wish they'd just sack me and let me get on with my life......
So I've put (almost) all the weight I lost back on again - yes a classic yo yo dieter me!! I could give my self lots of excuses - I was lonely having moved to melbourne (leaving hubby in the UK) - I had to socialise to meet new people, the new job requireds alot of business developemtn (revolving around travel, conferenecs and business lunches) - all of that is ture but it's not really an excuse - other womeon can live that sort of life and not put 15kilios on in a year. I pigged out - I let my emotions get tyhe better of me again. I didn't feel I could sole source because of the socilaising so i tried WW again - no luck I just can't moderate my eating..... Any way long story short I am back on the Cambridge diet again and I feel good about it - my head is the right space. Hubby is here with me now, we've done alot of the socilaising and I'm more confident with my new friends to just say NO....food is like an addiction to me. The difference this time is that I am going to do regualr weeks where I do eat - only an evening meal and only low GI and at pre-planned time periods. For example I have a conference in Adelaide in August and will need to attend the conference dinners. I think this will be a good thing as I need to learn how to eat as I obviously didn't last time eh!
Anyway diet started yesterday (Saturday) weigh in was 97.5kilos and my goal will 60kg - this will be hard, harder than last time
Good news another 2kg off this week and I feel good I'm still on a high. I've got loads of energy and it's really showing in the gym - I'm going on the treadmill and starting to run!!!! Which if you knew me is a complete shocker - I've never run anywhere in my life - but I'm actually enjoying it. I can't run consistently yet, it's jog 1 minute/walk 1 minute but when I first started 3 weeks ago it was jog 1 minute walk 2/3 minutes so it's a big improvement
I'm a bit worried though coz my hip was really hurting when I left the gym this evening. I'm hoping a good night's sleep will sort it out. I'd hate to stop the training now when it's starting to make a big difference - I mean I've only lost 5kg (only!!!) but I've lost 27cm from around my stomach - my diet counsellor was shocked she had to double check it as she didn't believe the difference - I think that's primarliy due to the gym rather than diet. I even did a Pilates class on saturday as well as my normal workout to help me tone up.
I know I will always struggle with my weight - I'm not going to get down to my perfect weight and stay there - there is too much history and conditioning but at least I know I've got a tool now to help me manage it - next time I won't leave it so long before I use it again.
Today i won my first paying commission - whopee - I've travelled across to the other side of the world to set up this new division in this company and I've been working my socks off but up til now ther has been no payback. But today is just the start - where 1 job comes in others will follow.....
I just knew I was going to lose weight this morning. I felt so strong yesterday, I really broke through the pain/hunger barrier at last and lo and behold I had lost a kg when I jumped on the scales. I've felt good today too - alot more energy. It's amazing really how this diet works - I'm not sure whether it is a physiological thing - you know your body going into ketosis, or a mental thing, being in control and seeing the amazing results. It's probably a bit of both. I wish I could learn to control my eating normally though. That's my next task, when i finish this time I'm cosidering going to say a real dietician to learn to eat and control my eating properly.
Oh well I'll think about that later when I am closer to my goal weight.
On the bad side my weight hadn't moved for the fourth day in a row. That was a bit disappointing - last time it moved every other day at least.
On the good side I finally broke through the tiredness and hunger. I felt good at the gym tonight and I felt full after my last shake - in fact I felt guilty like I'd eaten something I shouldn't have! Hopefully this is the turning point into the ketosis high....
