Slow but sure

Well it's another 2.5lbs this week so I'm getting there. I'm feeling more positive today than I have for a couple of weeks. It's a lovely spring day today, the sun is shining which always makes me feel so much better, my tutor at college is happy to extend the deadline for my Managing Information assignment and my meeting with some of my fellow students gave me some direction in where I am going with it, I found out my team at work won one of the major bids we had tendered for which is a great coup for me personally, I had a meeting with my boss and a couple of my colleagues and we agreed a new structure for our business that is a good compromise (after 6 months of debate!) and my husband comes home tomorrow from his second skiing holiday.  Life is not so bad after all....Actually I wasn't depressed just very stressed and I am still under alot of pressure (my assignment is still due in and I still have 2 other major tenders at work that need my attention and I still have over 3 1/2 stone to lose) but that's the difference,  pressure is exciting, it keeps you motivated, stress tires you out and wears you down.

Actually I'm always more positive when the sun shines it really releases the endorphins. It's one of the reasons I want to emigrate to Australia - I want a different lifestyle. To be honest I think I've gone as far as I want to in a standrad job. I'm a senior manager in a business and I enjoy bening in charge, and managing the direction of the business and until I got this job I was always really ambitious and striving for the next level. Recently I felt I don't want that anymore, I want to be my own boss, I want to make my own decisions but I don't want to be part of this chain of management with all the ridiculous office politics in involves. So I have a dream - my dream is to move Western Australia and set up my own business - possibly a franchise opportunity. To have a lifestyle of my own choosing and to be my own boss. I've been looking into the visa situation and I need to apply now before I hit 40 (hubby is 50 this year so he is too old for a working visa and too young for a retirement visa) - but I need approval as a Civil Engineer which is a skill in demand, but I'm not sure I've got enough technical background. I've discussed my plans with hubby and he is supportive in a sort of dismissive way. You know he say yeah that's a great idea we'll think about sometime!! So I've told him sometime is no time, and I've got to do it now if I am to have any chance of getting enough points, but he just mutters and tries to avoid the situation, Anyway I've made the decision I'm booking an appointment to see an emigration agent and start putting the wheels in motion. I'd like to move within the next 3 years that is my goal and I WILL SUCCEED.