Homework

We are set homework at our weekly counselling sessions and this week it is to keep a thought diary and catch our "crooked" thoughts. "crooked" thoughts as I understand it are those that  we twist or over emphasise. ie.  I can't live without that chocolate bar. Obvioulsy not true as you will live...but by thinking in that manner you are convincing yourself that it is not in your control. There are lots of ways to twist your thinking but my main problem area is the "I deserve it..." one. ie. I've been so good on my diet for 6 weeks now I deserve 1 day off!! Of course I don't deserve anything. I've been overeating for 38 years - just restricting my intake for 6 weeks doesn't really mean I deserve a treat. The other one is that hubby has just left me for 10 whole days while he is gadding about on the ski slopes of Whistler (I hate skiing so he always goes without me). Usually with him gone I'm like a little girl in a sweetshop. I eat all the foods I shouldn't - well I need the comfort don't I? Anyway what he doesn't see he won't know about and it won't count as calories then will it?

Argghhhh...I know when I'm thinking it, it is ridiculous but it I've never been able to stop myself in the past. But this diet is for me - no-one else. I've done so well so far and I can do so much better by sticking to it. Just imagine how good food will taste when I eat it SLIM! The first evening is over and I haven't slipped and I know I won't because I am in control

Did that sound convincing to you?