YAY!!!

well i've finally started bk losing weight again...yea, after SEVERAL months of being on a plateau. LOL i'm currently sitting at 316 lbs! i cannot WAIT to get out of the 300s!

i hope i don't hit a plateau again before i get to 299. plz, plz, PLZ! LMBO!

well, Christmas is in just a FEW days!!! can't hardly believe how quickly this yr has flown by! i hope to lose even more weight in the coming year. not too picky about how much...just as long as i lose some!

x x x

not much going on

well i have gained weight but it's only ONE POUND! w00t!

i haven't really been on here much as of late.  i need to start trying harder to lose again.  i've been really letting my eating go lately.

and i also get tired at nothing. which totally stinks, but i'm gonna try hard.  i do NOT want to be back up at the weight i was before!

-huggles and xoxo!-

argh!

gained the weight bk again. oh well, i can lose it again...i have to and more to boot! i can do it! i dunno why i keep 50 lbs off and then can't lose more and keep that off too.  it's just weird. lol oh well, try try again!

yipee!!!

i'm finally OUT of the 320's! and hopefully it's for good this time! i can see my goal of getting to 299 by Christmas a reality for sure!!!

yayyy!!!

i am so proud of myself...last night i only had a few cheetos instead of a ton of them...probably less than even a serving! and then after that i thought about having popcorn, but resisted the urge and EXERCISED instead!!!

this morning, i got up and i was famished (again) and had grapes instead of junk.  i'm getting good at this making wise choices thing!

i can't wait to see what the scale says tomorrow!!! (never thought i'd say that! haha)

excited to report...

i am almost out of the 320's! hopefully for good this time! i'm sitting at EXACTLY 320 lbs right now.  i really, really WANT to get to 299 (my mini-goal) by Christmas! so in other words, i have 21 more pounds to lose by then which is doable because, hey, that's 4 months away! i have to keep my goals in sight tho if i want to get there...but i really want this so much! i'm readyyy!!!

for the past 2 days (not including today) i've only (yes it sounds like plenty to some, but for me this is like a miracle!) had 3 sodas (12 oz. cans of it) per day! i usually drink more soda than i care to admit tho.

i can do this! i think i'm going to write down all my old weights on paper...because when i started really trying to lose was last year and i've got weights on record on here from 2008! lol but anyway! i want to keep a record of it, but i want my "pounds lost" to be what it really is and not from where i started almost 2 years ago.

i remember back 2 or 3 years ago when i saw 302 on the scale for the first time, i really wanted to kick myself for getting that heavy, but now i will be happy to see that number on the scale again! lol

i'm ready to make more and more progress! yay!!!

i've started exercising again. 45 mins a day, but i try to really get myself going so i burn more calories.

i love to dance all crazy-like in my room, so that's my means of exercise. i have started trying to work my stomach and arms more to get rid of the flab on them and tone them up.  i want to be in great shape for the first time in a long time!

i look forward to getting into the 300 and teens soon!

plateau?

i think i've hit a much dreaded plateau. i knew this was coming.  it usually happens every so often for every "loser".  i just hate these things tho.  even though i know for a fact that it will pass.  just...so annoying!  i want to obtain my goals and i feel like such a failure since i've gotten this far and plus with how i'm eating and all.

i've been totally binging  all the time and i don't even know why.  maybe me being depressed these last months is to blame??  in any event, i need to get back into this and stop procrastinating my progress! YES!

i just feel like such a slacker for eating so much all the time and it's totally weighing me down...LITERALLY.

i want to update more.  lately i've been sitting on my butt and watching tv for hours and hours.  it's RIDICULOUS! i need to get off my bum and exercise!

i was watching a movie the other night and thinking of how much i want to be in shape again...if i ever was! lol

i need to get the lead out tho and do what i know i can do and kick this plateau to the curb! i know i can do this!!!

i have no problem being positive (i've noticed), but then i completely lose sight of what i'm trying to do and end up totally messing up and binging all over again.  this HAS GOT TO STOP.

food is fuel.  i have to remember this.  not that i shouldn't enjoy eating, but not so much that i eat and eat and eat and EAT. it's just so out of hand.  but i can get back on track.  i have to...for my health!

down, down, down i go...:D

losing water weight is awesome! i wish i wasn't prone to Edema (swelling of the feet and legs), but alas i am.

i'm going to really try HARD to NOT drink ANY soda.  that stuff just doesn't like my body at all!  for one, it causes my legs to swell so bad that they actually hurt!

so ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!! i'm so tired of taking in soda when i know for a FACT that it's going to do that!

my body deserves so much better than that and i'm going to give it lots and lots of H20. two thumbs up for that! yay!

i have to start taking better care of myself and that means not eating so darn much FRIED FOODS as well! two thumbs WAY DOWN for that stuff, guys...after all, all it does is hurt your cholesterol! and mine is already too high! yup, i'm 25 and already have HIGH CHOLESTEROL!

that's what i get for eating how i've eaten for so long and for NOT taking care of myself!

i need to enjoy taking care of myself and i'm starting (today) to live a new life now and be all i can be health-wise!

i want the weight to come off, but i also want to be healthier and what good is being at a good weight if everything else is off?

i'm ready for being healthy and my body deserves it!

i'm down (again) to 325 lbs.  i want to get to 320 or 319 really soon!  i want to see the pounds shed off and my cholesterol drop!

I CAN DO THIS!!!

wow...so much going on!

it has been absolutely AGES (like 3 months?) since i've updated thru my blog! so much has been going on tho...

on May 1st (this yr) my dad was pouring gas in the carborator of his truck to get it to start (apparently a lot of people do this, but it's NOT SMART!) and he tried to get the truck to crank and it wouldn't...so he put MORE gas in the carborator and...well, it caught fire.

and exploded...

and caught him on fire...twice.

we ended up going to the UNC Chapel Hill Burn Center for him to get treatment.  he stayed a total of 41 days.

he's doing great now tho, believe it or not.  even tho he had 2nd and 3rd degree burns.  he had skin grafts and is completely healed.  he will continue to have scars tho...obviously.

it was like a complete nightmare because i was the one that found him.

and he was burned so badly because he was trying to keep the fire away from the house...away from my mom and me who were IN the house.

this is why i've not been on here posting.

busy busy busy with all the dressing his wounds and helping around the house for one...and for two, my weight has been ALL OVER THE PLACE and i dunno...i just didn't know what to say either.

i hope everyone that reads this learns from my dad and does NOT pour gasoline in the carborator of a vehicle of ANY type.  PLEASE DON'T DO IT!

there were 4 other people in the hospital that were burned b/c of that.  it's very dangerous...use carborator cleaner INSTEAD of gasoline.

xoxo
Ellen the Alien

thanks for all your input! :)

i haven't checked my PM's yet on here, but one of you said to maybe go to somewhere like a pharmacy and weigh in.  i think i will maybe do that when i go into town and see how much i weigh and then compare it to the doc's scales!

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well, half an hour or so ago my dad had the idea to weigh a bag of sugar on the scale (the bag of sugar is 5 lbs) and on my scale it said it weighed somewhere between 4 and 4.5 lbs.  so my dad re-calibrated the scale and now it weighs correctly. :) so i currently weigh 330 lbs.

i figure, it's better to be accurate and weigh what i really do weigh than to be inaccurate and think i weigh less.  of course some people would disagree with this. lol

off to update my weight log!

xoxo

a big surprise!

i went to the doctor yesterday and didn't weigh nearly as much as i do on my at home scales.  when i weigh at home, i have on just my pj's, but i had on my full set of clothes AND shoes at the doctor yesterday and weighed in at 319 LBS! :O i was completely floored!

i'm so happy that i don't weigh as much as i previously thought! :) but in this brings a dilemma...i'm not sure if i should put my weight for yesterday on my ticker, or just keep weighing in like usual and ignore what it said at the doctor since i don't have an actual medical scale at home that would weigh me more accurately.

what do you guys think?