Oh yes. I did just as I had promised and joined the Y. This morning my butt was up at 6:15 to get to the gym. 6:30 the class started, and I started sweating and huffing and puffing. Then she said "OK, were done with the warm up! Moving on!" Um, what? Was that SERIOUSLY just a warm up? Was the class called Body Boot Camp- Full body cardio work out, or was it called Body Boot Camp-Puts you into full cardiac arrest!!?? It was SO hard. But it was nice to see that even the advanced people were sweating like pigs and making horrible faces trying to push through the work outs. Everyone skin was soaking wet. Huge sweat spots soaking through everyones shirt. I thought I was just going to die. But the second class ended it felt like I had just climbed Mt. Everest. Such a fantastic feeling. Even though I feel like an overboiled noodle right now, it's fabulous. I think I might do the Body Boot Camp MWF in the morning and do an evening class on TTH. And then have the weekends free. What do you guys think? Do you think I'm taking on too much work for a beginner?? Or should I just force myself to do it? Also... I MUST stay good with my eating habits. I'm ALWAYS either eating really really healthy and not working out, or vise versa. This time, I HAVE to combine them. I've always seemed to have the mentality of "Well, I worked out this morning! It will be ok!" But I just cant do that anymore!
Tomorrow, I will join the gym. And every Monday, Wednesday, Friday I will do the Body Boot Camp: Body Boot Camp: Try this intense, cardio total body workout, geared to make the most of your exercise time. It'll keeping you moving. I WILL do this!!!!!!!
So I'm down to 247.6. Better then yesterday. I have to get on top of doing my core work out. It's been so hot, i've been totally unmotivated, but I know I have to do them. Tonight. I promise. :) I really love this site. I feel like, for the first time, I can be honest with my weight loss. If I mess up, I admit it, and move on. People understand and it really is such a great support system. Well, of to drinking loads and loads of water! It's become so easy for me! Yay!
Yesterday I was down to my lowest weight at 246.0 and now today I'm up exactly two pounds. WHATTTTT!!!! Ok, my body is completely out of wack right now because I stopped taking birth control. TOM has lasted for NINE days! (Shoot me now) So I think that has something to do with it.... I'm hoping that it has something to do with it at least! I'm frusterated. Yesterday I stepped on the scale to FINALLY see it moving in the right direction after seeing it move in the opposite direction because of TOM. Now i'm back to seeing it move up!!! Why does all of this have to be so hard. I feel like I do so good for 3 weeks out of the month, then TOM rolls around and I feel defeated, frusterated, and unmotivated when I see the damage. Then I get back on track, and it all happens all over again. I've been on this site and have only lost how much?? 11 pounds!! No wait, since I gained TWO over night, 9 pounds! Amazing. :(
So this weekend wasnt too bad. Friday I had a bad day, but the rest of the weekend was pretty good. I managed to get back to 246.4, even with my bad Friday, so that was good. Can't wait for TOM to be gone! Didn't do any exercise this weekend, so I have to do it every day this week. It will be ok. :) I have to go grocery shopping tonight. I found some great recipes on weightwatchers.com Not much else to update about! Hope everyone is doing well! :) Off to read blogs!!
So I step on the scale this morning. All the way back up to 248.0. Lovely... NOT. I know that it's just TOM, but there is nothing more irritating then staying perfectly on track, and seeing the scale move UP!!!! Also, this morning TWO people brought doughnuts in.... When she waved the box in front of my nose and asked me if I wanted one, for one second I thought "YES! And no one will have to know" ...BUT. I was stronger then that and declined. It doesnt help that everyone has been oohing and ahhing over these particular doughnuts this morning. But... I've said no once, I can say it again... Happy Friday everyone!!!!
Ok, so I got home from work today and I was STARVED. I know, it's only my own fault. I had a decent lunch, but I didnt have anything inbetween. What do I turn to when I'm starved and short on time?? Pasta. I made two servings (one for me, one for my boyfriend) I drizzled it with olive oil, crushed fresh garlic into it, and topped it with fresh basil. Awesome right? Not quite. I was still really hungry after my one serving of pasta, but I tell myself that I am going to wait a few minutes before eating anything else. So I wait about 20 minutes and I'm still hungry, (Thanks TOM!) so I decide that I'm going to have a bowl of cheerios. I still have plenty of points left over for the day, so I know that I'm safe. So I eat my cherrios and berries and I feel satisfied. Then I start my 25 minute Core Workout video. Five minutes into it, I get a call from my dad who says he right down the street and wants to know if I wanna go get some colonge with him and my stepmom. Of course I say yes. Especially since they are leaving for Cancun tomorrow. So we go get what we need to, and then they are hungry so they want to go to the Mongolian BBQ in the mall. I'm thinking in my head "HOW am I going to get out of this" Some of you may be thinking that I'm crazy.... stressing over something like thta, but in my family... food is love. Providing food means that you are well taken care of, that you are loved. Not eating the food provided is rejection. I know this. 21 years of this, I know what they are going to say when I say I dont want to eat. So I order a meal, and I tell myself that I'm going to pick some of the veggies out, and pretend like I'm eating more then I'm actually eating. So I do this... And I hardly ate any of the meal. I brought it home for my boyfriend who I'm sure will enjoy it in a few minutes, but I'm mad at myself. First of all, I let my self get so hungry that I ate pasta, and then cereal, and then Mongolian BBQ!!!!! I have to start packing snacks so that I use my points throughout the day and dont have like 20 extra points at night. Anyway, at least I came home and finished my work out video. It was the least I could do..... Sorry for the rant! Just needed to vent.
I gained .2 pounds today. I'm sure that its because of TOM. But I still hate seeing the scale go up. Yuck. Yesterday was a good day (eating wise at least, work wise was horrible) My amazing boyfriend made me dinner for the first time in 4 years. It was SO sweet of him. We had sauteed tofu, edamame, and brown rice. Pretty impressive for someone who's cooking skills peek at a peanut butter and jelly sandwich!!! Anyways, it was very kind of him, and it was soo yummy. After dinner, I still had 10 points. So I decided to have a tiny bit of ice cream. Ben and Jerrys Light Frozen Yogurt. Half cup for 4 points... SO worth it!!!!! I'm an ice cream fiend, so.......... I ended up still having like 6 points after ice cream, but I wasnt hungry and I didnt want to use them. I know that I'm "supposed" to use all of my points for the day, but I dont see how eating when I'm not hungry will help me lose weight. Also did my 25 min core full body work out. Woo hoo! I love it. Have a lovely day today everyone!! :)
I'm down 1.2 pounds. Woooo! So happy!!!! I went to have my blood drawn this morning. You cant eat anything for 12 hours before having your blood drawn! When I got out, I went to the market and bought a diet green tea snapple. (mmm) Then my boyfriend was taking me to work and I felt like I was going to throw up. And when I got out of his car, I felt SO light headed. I still feel light headed and woozy. I packed Cheerios and apple sauce for breakfast and thought that if I ate it it would help... but I still dont feel better :( Hopefully it goes away! Yuck! Yay for the 1.2 loss, boo for woozieness!
I had my doctors appointment. It went really well. The doctor was really patient with me, and took her time explaining what she really thought. I told her that I had done a lot of research on Phentermine (true) and that I thought it might help with my progress. She said that she doesnt believe in anything but diet and exercise and I told her that I am doing both, but I'm just looking for some help. She agreed and said that I have to do blood work before she perscribes it to me. So tomorrow I have to go to a clinic and get my blood tested. I hope that I can make it tomorrow. It's by walk in appointments only. She also brought up something that was interesting. She asked if I was on any medication. I told her that I was on the pill and she asked when I started taking it. I told her about 4 years ago. She then asked what my lowest weight was, and when I started gaining the weight. I told her my lowest was in high school, and it was about 190. I started gaining right after high school (2003) She then said... "Isn't that when you started taking the pill?" I said "I guess, yeah... but I dont think that's the reason, cause I've never been thin" and she told me that she knows that it's not the problem, but she thinks that the hormones from the pill may not be helping, and that I should look into getting an IUD (AHHHHHHHH, such a scary thought!!!!!) because it doesnt give off any hormones. I have to do research more about it. As for now, I'm happy that I went and can't wait to get my blood work done. Wish me luck for tomorrows appointment!!
