08/11/2008 10:41
HI MONDAY! I'M HERE - TA DAAAAA!
185.5 - Ok, no gain, but no major loss. I’m so skeptical of my scale at home though. I want to go down to the clinic in our building, but I don’t feel like it. I get on the scale at home and sometimes come back to it in a couple of minutes and it is 2lbs loss or something. Anywho, going full throttle this week. I don’t care about no cramps – it’s show time. I know I said I’m looking for 179 (my mini goal), but I want to see 181. 181 has stuck w/ me a long time. I remember getting on the scale 181, months later 181. Or not see it at all. Somehow 181 and 160 stand out to me b/c I weighed those for the longest.
This past weekend was fun – not really. My nephew spent the weekend w/ me and my daughter. He is 5 and will be 6 this Thursday. I know I was enthusiastic about the Wizard of Oz when I first saw it as a child – I saw it really early b/c my mom is into children’s classics and such. But my nephew wasn’t really exposed to it like we were when we were growing up. So one day while I was out of town – I talked to him over the phone and told him that it was on. Ever since then he could not stop talking about it. So when he visited, he wasn’t satisfied w/ what was on TV. Well we went into my DVD and VHS selection, (yes, I still have videos) and I said that I may have the Wizard of Oz. I thought it was damaged though. Well we found it and why did I do that? We popped it in and it showed great. I have one of those VHS/DVD combos. He was ecstatic. I was too but I didn’t want to watch it 4 times over the course of 2 days!!!!! I watch a little of the old Batmans (Returns and Forever) and Big Fat Liar and some Barney!!! I packed those VHS and sent them with him – fast!!!!
He said all of the others played when he got home except for the Wizard of Oz – awww! So I will have to purchase the DVD for him.
Well I got some 30 minutes in last week and over the weekend except for Wednesday and Sunday, but I have my bags packed (good sign) with workout clothes for after work and will walk. I’m excited. I’m planning on doing more than 2 miles. My stress level seems to be up a bit and my immune system seems to be weak, so I know walking is a good dose of medicine for me. Having relationship problems, but I have been there before. I will survive!!
Good thing I don’t like dating ice cream. I usually put my frustration into cleaning things. My life has to change for the better – I want to lose weight so bad. My bday will be here in no time- Nov. 4, (election day-why?) And I plan on celebrating it. I haven’t celebrated my bday in years and I want to. I will feel so good if I look good. I love looking good. Makes me feel good inside and out.
I think I mentioned that I don’t like going out w/ the girls or being around people that I’m not usually around b/c of my weight. A former coworker (who I got along w/ good) recently resigned from a former job and I was invited to come to the going away party. I know others wanted to see me, but I just couldn’t do it. My old boss (who works there) lost half of her body weight. She had to be 300lbs and is now like 150 or less and she lost it w/o any operations (over some years) and others in my former unit look like sticks too and I look bigger than I was when I left (about 4 years ago). I just want to show up looking like I want to look. Some people probably don’t care, but I do.
This morning when I got up and off to work, I felt like I should have called in. I’m glad I didn’t. I feel so much better. I think it has a little to do with my willingness (and with medication of course). I didn’t sleep much last night (stress and pain combo). Seemed like nothing worked until I finally took a sleeping pill. I still felt bad this morning, and when I got to work, but I feel good right now!
Hi Monday – I’m here –ta daaaaaaa!!!!
