07/09/2008 09:46
Getting Back on Track
Oh well-TOM is here and in full effect and I can’t do anything about it.
On top of that, I wet my hair this morning in the shower and no blow dryer to dry it. I think I turned into a demon when this happened. 
Anyways, I put my hair in a ponytail and put a hair clamp on it. I don’t like wearing a ponytail b/c my hair isn’t that long and my face is really fat, especially my cheeks – thanks mom and grandma for the cheeks! 
And having my hair in a ponytail just accentuates my cheeks. But you know what – I have on my yellow today and I feel good 
– until the next cramp that is!
I did go walking yesterday (Hurray! Hurray!). I had to – knowing I hadn’t been walking since last Thursday and knowing TOM was about to stop by. But remember, I did do the Gazelle on Sunday though-how could you forget that. My mom called me yesterday like, “I thought you were coming over to get on the Gazelle.” I was like, “I didn’t say that. I said maybe tomorrow” (Wed.) –lol! But now I know I’m not getting on it today.
I had to – knowing I hadn’t been walking since last Thursday and knowing TOM was about to stop by. But remember, I did do the Gazelle on Sunday though-how could you forget that. My mom called me yesterday like, “I thought you were coming over to get on the Gazelle.” I was like, “I didn’t say that. I said maybe tomorrow” (Wed.) –lol! But now I know I’m not getting on it today.I was back in my zone yesterday. The sun was killing me though. I should have waited to go walking, but I got off early yesterday and ended up w/ some free time after my errand and if I would have just sat around, I probably would not have gone. It was more people than I expected when I went and man were they focused. So I got myself right on out there on the track and did my thing. I wanted to do 3 or 4 miles. I was thinking about it, but I couldn’t push myself to do it. I decided that I will push harder to even walk the 2 miles I do and to make sure I do it at least 5 days out of the week. Also, I will start 3 (or 4) miles in August. Probably just 3 miles so that I don’t push myself from walking all together. Gotta get that dvd out like I keep talking about so that I can do something at home too-I keep forgetting about it. We’ve been having raining season for the past couple of weeks here – gotta love that Florida weather! So sometimes I just have to get out there and pray it doesn’t rain on me or just stay home and avoid the risk.
I just feel so much better when I do exercise. 
My body feels better and my mind feels better and I need that – trust me!
My body feels better and my mind feels better and I need that – trust me! Why does it always feel like I have a million things to do? I think I will do some massive cleaning this weekend – like throw some things away. I hope so; I have become the pack rat I dreaded to be. I wondered why my mom kept all of that stuff and now when I look back at those things, it brings back so many wonderful memories and I thank her for that. I have some storage space in the house so I can pack things away in there. Just gotta dig in and do it. And the list goes on…clean car, donate some stuff, do some work at the church, get my daughter ready for school for next month. I’m the kind of person – I just have to start doing something – once I start then I’m good. Just starting is the problem.
I have to get this eating thing down though. I am ok for breakfast and lunch and let’s thank God that I do eat breakfast b/c I didn’t use to. As for dinner, the last couple of days it seems like the weekend. It’s like my body has slipped back into that state of it’s time to eat and let’s just eat something while we can before it gets too late – like the food in the fridge is going to disappear or something. I figure it was b/c I wanted something fast to eat.
BTW, my sis. called me over the weekend and said that she had a pecan pie over to the house. I told her I'm not even coming over there and I didn't. I would have devoured that pie in one bite. Pecan pie is one of my weaknesses (w/ a topping of cool whip). I'm kind of proud of myself that I didn't go over there. 
I just know within my heart if I keep my eating healthy and exercise regularly – the extra pounds will leave. My ultimate goal is to make it a lifestyle. Still working on that-wish me luck and thanks for the support!!!!
Still working on that-wish me luck and thanks for the support!!!!Down a notch. (posted at 1:46pm)
Maybe she didn’t mean anything by it, but today me and some coworkers were looking in a catalog together. It was one that had t-shirts w/ sayings and other little funny cute type items in it. Anyways, as we were browsing, we ran across a blouse. It was a peasant type - flare shirt w/ long sleeves. I wouldn’t really wear it, but she said Oh you would look good in that shirt and another co-worker agreed. Maybe it was b/c it looked (a little) fashionable and they wouldn’t dare wear something fashionable. But that wasn’t the impression I got from it. I just nodded and went looking on. I’m so insecure about my body. Maybe she didn’t mean anything by it though.