Things are starting to look up

Crappy week

This week has been virtually non-productive.  I still can't work out for 4 more weeks, other than walk.  Yesterday i ended up back at the Dr. because I pulled apart a small part of my c-sec incision by lifting my daughter...so now I'm having to take it REALLY easy and watch for infection...  I am still trying to watch whatI eat, but finding that I get so busy I skip meals, and then overeat when i do finally have a moment to sit down.  I am really trying to eat healthier, and haven't had a soda or sweets in 2-3 weeks, but we'll see how well I do over Easter since I am hosting the shindig tomorrow.  I DID buy lowfat brownies to make, and plan on making a lowfat fruit dip and fresh fruit as well.  But the egg casserole I am making for our brunch will NOT be lowfat.  Hopefully I can really watch how much I eat, and then just have my soup for the other 2 meals tomorrow and won't see too much damage...we'll see Monday morning!

Dr. Appointment Tomorrow-hoping to start workout plan!

Today was a real bomb.  I didn't even weigh myself this morning, and by later today I was too disappointed in myself to get on the scale.

It started out on the right foot, I thought...I got up with the kids and ran to the gas station for a newspaper.  I picked up a donut for one of the girls, and my other daughter wanted a slice of breakfast pizza.  I made a HUGE step (or so I thought) not getting anything for myself, and returned home.  BUT, my motivation didn't last all day.  I ended up having 2 bites of Ava's breakfast pizza, and prepared a fast, but unhealthy dinner for the family-fish sticks and frozen french fries.  To top it off, Eric was at the store and got a no-bake peanut butter pie mix he wanted for dessert, so I had a slice of that around 7pm.  UUUUGGGHHHH!!!!  I was sooo motivated and on the right track-and then I blow it!!!    I am sooo disappointed in myself!  Hopefully tomorrow I can pull it together and get back on the right track.  Tomorrow is also my 2 week appointment after my c-section and tubal, so I am hoping to find out specifics from my Dr. as to when I can start working out-at least walking more and doing some ab work to start off with!  Maybe she'll have some suggestions for me as well....  hoping so anyway!!!!

Overmotivated and underdedicated???

So...my first weight loss blog....

Not much to say about my progress, since I've only been watching my diet and not exercising the last 2 days!  And so far, I've even gained a pound back!!!  I hope this gets easier the longer I work at it...

I CAN, say, however, that I am TOTALLY motivated to lose weight!!!  I am realistic-I know that after 3 babies it's impossible to be the same size I was in high school-or even my fitrst year or two in college, for that matter.  But, I know I want to lose about 40 pounds, feel good about myself again, lose all the baby weight I gained over the last 4 years, and learn to control what I put in my mouth, since my husband has a very different eating style than mine (he sees it, he eats it!  Unfortunately, over the years of living with him and being married to him, I have taken on a little of this too-partly because the temptations are right there in my house).  I think my biggest issue is probably portion control.  I find I tend to overeat when I finally DO sit down for a meal, and then regret it afterwards when I feel miserable.  I currently have a 4 year old daughter, another daughter that turns 2 next month, and a 2 week old son.  Because of the c-section and the tubal, I am not yet able to work out, but intend to add that as soon as the Dr. says I can.  I also live in a small town in North Iowa, where there is no gym, nowhere within a 25 mile ardius to work out.  My plan this summer is to don quite a bit of walking, and hopefully work up to running early in the mornings before the kids wake and the husband leaves for work (I teach and will have the summer off, and I used to be a cross country runner and would love to start running again-if my hip injury cooperates ).

So, as my post title states, I am definitely motivated to lose weight, but the time I have to dedicate to working out is going to be my biggest hurdle to jump.  I hope I can do it!!!!