RELAX?!?!?!?!

Who has time to relax!  I running around like a chicken with his nuts cut off....  ummm. do chickens have nuts?!??!?!

ha ha ha

I will relax tonight!  My weeks are full these days though!  I am a busy girl! 

I am getting ready to scoot out the door.  I am going to do my best to blog everyone on my list this weekend.  I am sooooo sorry that I have only been posting but not checking up on all of you! 

It is my solemn prayer that everyone is doing a fantastic job, and they are happy, peppy, and bursting with love!

I love you all!!!

Love, Jen

It is Thursday!

WOW!  1st week of SS almost over.  Man I was up till 11:55 last night doing HW!

I still have to read chapter 2! 

I have to go...  lots to do!

love to you all!  Jen

PSYCH EVAL ... CHECK!

I did my PSYCH evaluation yesterday!  It went fine, I think.  I had to take the MMR2..  that test where you answer 385 ?s about weird things and the results tell you your deepest darkest secrets.....   or something along those lines!  =-)

I have to go back for the results on the 14th.  He said it took about a week to score them. 

Melissa at the bariatric center has already sent off for my letter of "need" to send to the insurance company.

The insurance pays 90%.  I pay 10%, which is $2500.00.  I can do it... that is why I am teaching summer school!

I go back to school on the 20th... So, I am going to see if I can't take my final early... and get the surgery around the 6th of August!

I love you all...  7am!!  I gotta scoot on to work. 

Love, Jen

MOVING RIGHT ALONG!!!

I talked to the lady at the bariatric center yesterday.  My insurance will cover 90% of the surgery....  YEAH!!!  I have the money for the 10%.... thus summer school! 

I go for my psych evaluation today... and then my follow up on t he 14th.  WOW!!  I am getting this done!

FIRST DAY OF CLASS...  went good!  The instructor scared the piss out of me. She kept saying, "If blah blah blah... then you should drop the class".  ha ha ha   I had to remind myself that I have a degree and this is for my Masters.  ha ha ha 

I need to scoot on to work. 

Love, Jen

BIG DAY TODAY!

S U M M E R     S C H O O L,     and     I start my Accounting class.  It is from 6:55 to 8:55. 

I get out of summer school at 2pm.  So there is time there to study, sleep ... whatever. 

I am nervous because it has been a long time since I stepped into a classroom.  I hope they have bigger seats.  I am also worried about not fitting in the chairs.

I know it will be ok.  I was 265pounds/270pounds during my bachelors degree.  I hope anyway.

I did not sleep worth a crap last night.  I was up til' 3am.  I was in bed, but I could not shut my mind off.  Which sucked!

I need to get ready to head on out! 

H A P P Y    M O N D A Y    TO YOU ALL!!!

Love, Jen

DRINKING AND TYPING ALL AT ONCE!

man... i am talented!! 

i am having a little drinkie, and i am getting ready to go OUT!

i wanted to share something with you guys.  A GLIMMER OF HOPE!

IT IS ALL ABOUT ATTITUDE!!!

i am heavy... yes.. we all know that... but i am here to tell you that i go out every weekend with a beautiful woman who is a perfect SIZE 8 and i get more play than she does... ha ha ha

i am NOT making fun of my friend...  i am just stating an observation...i talk to people, and i am happy and MYSELF!  People are drawn to that...  i love being the center of attention..  my husband loves that baout me...  the weekend B4 last a guy (((A GORGEOUS GUY))) came up to my hubby asnd told him that he is damn lucky to be married to me... 

that made me feel soooo good!  because i used to be the one that people made fun of...  NOT ANYMORE!!!!  =-)  MEN AND WOMEN ARE DRAWN TO ME BECAUSE I AM REAL!  People love real, honest HAPPY , approachable people!  I do not care what sex you are OR how big you are!

ONE DRINK DOWN!!   I AM UHHHH FEELING IT!!!!!  =-)

I AM A GENERALLY HAPPY PERSON!  I LOVE ME!  I JUST WANT THERE TO BE LESS OF ME!  MAN.. I HAVE TO WORK IN THE MORNING!  CRAP!!!     HEE HEE  I WILL BE OK!  WE ARE GOING OUT AGAIN TOMORROW WITH FRIENDS THAT WE HAVEN'T BEEN OUT WITH IN A WHILE!

hold on i have to go make myself another little ((HAW!!)) drinkie!

HOLY CRAP! THAT DRINKIE IS  ((((( WOW !!! ))))) I AM FEELING GOOD!!!!!

CONFESSION:   I smoked at PORT A!  I was there with 3 other smokers and i had a hard time when we went out... but i have been able to CUT IT OFF again!!

It shouldn't hurt me as far as my surgery goes.  It only takes 4 days to get nicotine out of your system.  So.. I am OK!! It was EZ to quit again because it didn't really feel like I started again, you know!

OH I HOPE TONIGHT IS A GREAT NIGHT!!!!   i had a blast last weekend, but i really missed not going to my bar!  the regulars that did not know... soooo asked about me!!  =-)  hee hee

It is 8:32..  I want to be at the bar around 9ish!  my friend (Miss SIZE 8) should be there around 9:30 ish!! 

OK!!  Ummmmm!  trying to think if there is anything else that i missed!   GOD SEX IN MY CAR ON THE BEACH WAS FUCKING INCREDIBLE!!

My hubby and I had some GOOOOODD!!!!!!!! sex WEDNESDAY night!  I love my hubby sooooooooo much!!!  He is goegeous and MINE!!!

I love you all!!  COME BACK AND CK THIS BLOG!  i MIGHT COME ON AGAIN AND ADD TO THIS!!!!!

LOVE, JEN 

happy june!

hi.

you are there.

i am here!

we are!

ha ha ha ha ha    (((DEEP!)))

i am ok! i was very busy yesterday.

my icense decided to remain in port aransas.

so i went and got another one.

Then..  toes and nails

then mailing off several packages.

take son to get bloodwork done.

pay rent,

take son to lunch.

i was very very busy.

271.6 this morning...  well... it is less.  not by much BUT LESS is good.

i hope that all of you are having a great day.  love you all!

love, jen

OK! I have made a decision!

V A C A T I O N     W A S     A W E S O M E  ! ! ! ! !

For the first time in my life, I have SEX ON THE BEACH.  I was in the backseat of my SUV with the windows half way down.  You hear the ocean and the waves!  The ocean breeze runs through my vehicle.  WOW!!  Best sex (( TO DATE )) with anyone!! MY HUSBAND IS AN INCREDIBLE MAN AND AN INCREDIBLE LOVER!!!   WOW!!!  It was so romantic and exciting!!   HEE HEE HEE  I loved it!!!

We had an absolute BLAST!!  I loved it all.  We went shopping, clubbing, boogie boarding, swimming, tanning, dining, BBQing, LOTS OF FUN!!!

I have to lose some weight so my surgery will be more effective.  I have quit smoking.  YEAH! 

I can get down to 235 pounds and my BMI is still greater than 40!!  I am too heavy!  I have been through a lot, I know!  But DAMMIT guys!  I am DONE!  SO SO SO SO SO DONE!!!  

I am making some changes, which is good.  I have CUT OUT SNACKING because you can not snack  when you have the gastric bypass. OK.  Let's see if I can get some of the "QUITTING SMOKING WEIGHT" OFF ME!!!

I AM HAVING SOME SERIOUS PROBLEMS.

#1:  I can not sleep well at night without 2 of my fingers on my right hand falling asleep and hurting!!

#2: I wake up in the morning in pain!!

#3: My feet hurt so badly that I can not walk in the morning.

#4: I am always SWOLLEN!!  BADLY!!!!  From my fingers all the way to my toes!

#5:  NO STAMINA!   Boogie Boarding in the strong GULF, very hard!

I FEEL TERRIBLE!!

You guys know that I love being happy!  So, I am going to work on that from here on out.  I am not depressed, more concerned.  I want so many things in life, and my FAT is stopping or hindering me!!

I am still living life to the fullest!!!  =-)  YOU ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO!! We have been having a lot of rain here.  Floods over low crossings are everywhere.  A friend of mine watching 2 other cars cross a low water crossing...  THEY DID IT... So she honestly believe she could too.  The water wasn't that bad.  Her car stalled.  Then she tried to call for help and get out of the car.  As soon as she got out of the car a waist deep surge of water hit her and knocked her off her feet.  She was swept away UNDERWATER.  A lady on the side of the road saved her by fishing her out of the water.

YOU  HAVE  TO   LIVE   YOUR   LIFE   TO    THE    FULLEST   !!!!!!  You have to!  

I love you all!!  Wish me luck on my search for my inner control!! 

Love, Jen

SCHOOL'S OUT!

I am getting everything ready to head out to the coast!  I'll blog on Tuesday!

Love you all!

Jen

The w8ing game!

Hi Guys! 

How are you all doing today?  I am GR8!  It is that last day of school!  I am going to the coast tomorrow with my man and my son!!

I FAXED MY INSURANCE CARD.  MELISSA SHOULD CALL ME BACK TODAY, AND VERIFY THAT SHE RECEIVED IT.  The I will go in a pile.  I have to w8 my turn, but guys I have been so sweet to her.  HOPEFULLY, the fact that I make her laugh will account for something.

I want to get the insurance approved, the psych evaluation done, and surgery date set.  I want this done!!

I have a week off then begin my ACCOUNTING CLASS (( 1st of my Masters classes )) and SUMMER SCHOOL!! Then Summer school ends at the end of June...  ACCOUNTING goes thru Aug 9th...  Then I want my surgery on the 10, 13, 14, or 15....  Then I return to school 2 and 1/2 weeks later....

OH!  I can't wait to see myself this time next year!  I am ready!!

I still haven't SMOKED!  BUt I am about to go on a 3 and a 1/2 day vacation with THREE SMOKERS!!!!

FUCK!!!!!

But I am going to really try to hold it together.   I love you all!

Love, Jen