K A B L A M ! ! ! ! !

i am so sorry that i did not get to blog this morning.  I woke up at midnight because

K A B L A M  ! ! ! !

Thunder & Lightening!!!

It woke me up out of a dead sleep.  So I went to go see what was heading our way and find out why my hubby was not in our bed. 

He was watching THE 6TH SENSE....  and watching the weather.  Well, I ran in to ck on Thomas because thunderstorms use to scare the ba-gee-bees out of him. 

Lord!  He was snoring so loud.  He did not even hear the storm come in!  We had to unplug the computer.  BUT that meant I couldn't just flip it on this morning!

I got my insurance card... B U T lost the fax #.....  I called Melissa several times today but could not catch her.  I am sure that she will call me back tomorrow withthe fax number so I can send her the copy of the card. 

Step by step!!!  We are getting there!!!

I love you all!  Love, Jen

M E N T A L H E A L T H D A Y ! ! ! ! ! !

MY SON AND I ARE TAKING A MENTAL HEALTH DAY TODAY!  ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

My son could not believe that I eas going to let him skip school!  ONE DAY THIS YEAR!  I would say he deserves a day off!!!  It is after all the last week of school!!!

I am going with my sis to CATHERINE'S to get some really light pants because I do not want to be uncomfortable in Port Aransas this weekend.

I am going to call our insurance company and ck the status on our insurance cards.  I hope they are sooooooo on their way!

I love you all!  Love, Jen

Friday!

It is Friday!  YEAH!   OK!  I must be honest.  I am a little worried about going out tonight.  I used to smoke, in fact the last time I smoked was, on FRIDAYS!!!  

I mean I would smoke a little here and there... but mainly ...

F R I D A Y    N I G H T     ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

Crap!  Well, there is one really good thing... well 2 good things:

#1 I am not going to buy any smokes.

#2 The club that we go to has a smoking room... and it is not in the main bar.  So the smokers are separated. 

S H U N N E D ! ! !  SINNERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    BAW HAW!!!! LOL!!!

Just kidding.  But anymore that IS the way that they are viewed!  Did you hear that if people are smoking in a film ---  THEY ARE NOW GOING TO RATE THAT FILM "R"!!????  WOW!! 

I know one year, probably not to far away, Smoking will be ILLEGAL!!!

I love you all!  I am getting the 800 number from Norm to call and ck on our cards!!! 

Love, Jen

269.8

OK!  I am trying not to gain.  I guess I need to try harder, huh? 

I did talk to Melissa, the surgery financer, and she need a copy of the front and back of my insurance card.

We do not have those yet.

Norm says that if we do not have them by Friday...  he will call! 

She gave me her fax number.  So, now...  I am waiting for the insurance card!

She was very nice.  I know this is going to work.  I told her that I wamted to have it done in August before I went back to school.  She said that sounded like a great plan. 

OH GUYS!  I want to get this preapproved AND scheduled!!!! I know that I need to be patient, but it is HARD!

Next week is our last week of school!!  Then I get to go to the beach.  It is not going to be all that fun because I am so heavy...  THE HEAT!  But it will be nice to get away. 

I hear bells!  OH!!!!   That would be my husband's and son's alarm going off.  GOTTA RUN!

Love, Jen

I still scream in my car...

I think that is the one place I really liked to smoke.    ha ha ha

I had a good day.  Not much to say about it. 

Next week is the last week of school then I am off to Port Aransas!

Family vacation is always nice at the end of the school year! 

I am off to ck on some of you!  Have a great day!

Love, Jen

TUESDAY! Day 4 of NO SMOKING!

God.  I paid for my 1st Masters class yesterday.  I was screaming all the way home...

"OH MY GOSH!  I AM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL!!!!"

And I was screaming that I wanted a cigarette...  but that is niether here nor there.

The dreams have started.  I will dream about smoking!  BAD, HUH!?!?!?

I called and left another message for Melissa at the surgery place.  I hope thast she calls me back soon!!!

I love you all, and I am so trying to hang in there!  Man!  Norm did better yesterday.

I love you all very much!  Love, Jen

I DIDN'T SATURDAY OR SUNDAY....

S M O K E ,  t h a t   i s !!!!!

This is hard!!!  REALLY HARD!!!   Cuz I want one!  But I will be ok! 

267.2  is my weight this morning!

I have been eating.  I am trying not to go over board, but this is hard.  I am just going to have to tackle one crutch at a time.  make sense?

I am glad you guys enjoyed my two FRIDAY posts!  I was in a "bring funny" mood!  All I could think about was maybe I'd make someone laugh that was having a bad day, you know!

My hubby is still smiking.  I know that when it is his time...  he will quit... CRAP!!!  =-(((   that makes it doubly hard one me.  I have to go have my car cleaned out.  And then FABREEZE the holy crap out of it! 

We are going to Port Aransas.  I told my hubby I do not want to smoke in my car.  He got a little pissed at first saying...

"Well, I'll dip!" 

NO!!!!  I told him we can make stops, or he can ride with my sis and her boyfriend!  Or I guess he could drive himself if smoking in the car is that important to him.

I do not want to be mean, but man it was hard yesterday when he accidentally blew smoke in the house while standing outside smoking.  Our ceiling fan caught it..  and WOOOOF!!  The smell was everywhere!  EEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!   I asked him to make sure the door wad closed!  PLEASE!  He still gets a little pissy.

He will be ok!

I love you all!  It has been a difficult weekend, but I am commited to not smoking for 3 months or until I get my surgery.  I am praying that after that long, I just will not want them anymore!

I can not believe I have this week and next week, and then my 8th year of teaching is over.  WOW!  time flies!!  I get about a week off then I begin summer school and my 1st Masters class! 

I need to wake up my household.  I love you all!  Love, Jen

read the blog underneath this one too!!!

just a thought...

exercise !!!!!!!!!!!!    MOST OF US HATE IT...

HOWEVER...

i thought of something you can do to strengthen your theighs! 

While you are sitting on the toilet with your GIRDLE on..  (((YES!!  I know that some of you wear them to feel "HELD IN".

Sit on the toilet.

with your girdle.

stretch it over and over

tah-dah

EXERCISE!!!

lOVE, JEN

Sunday I quit...

S M O K I N G ! ! ! ! !

I have to be clear of all nicotine for the surgery.  C R A P!!!  I know it is a good thing, but I am just worried.  They hospital says that I have to quit 3 months before my surgery.  So..  I want to have my surgery on or around the 13th of August.  I can do it.  My hope is that after the nictotine gets out of my system..  I'll be a happier, healthier person.  You know!

Have you seen that commercial?  The one that shows the nerves in your brain as these little black monster looking things???  The commercial is for nicorette.  Those little black things bang their heads on the walls.  They go crazy!!!  =-)  That is how I am going to feel.  I have to just quit for 3 months.  I am praying that after 3 months...  I just wont want them anymore.

I just had incredible SEX with my hubby.  He is passed out in the chair.  I will be right back.  I am going to go make a drink!

OK!  I am back!  ha ha ha ha   I am 263.8.  I forgot to put that in my blog this mroning. 

i am patiently waiting for this lady to call me back about my insurance.  My new insurance doesn't even become effective until 5-13-07.  So, I am not going to REALLY start to bug her until MONDAY!  I want to get everything pre-approved for August. 

I am going toPort Aransas over memorial day weekend.  Then i begin my 1st master's class on 6-4-07.  WOW!  I can not believe that I am going back to school!  I am scared..  I have not been in a class room since 1999.  I know LONG time ago.  I am not too concerned abou the weight thing.  I will just have to find a table or something that will accomodate my big ole' rear!   I am not looking foreard to that humiliation.

I MADE THAT DRINK RATHER --- S T O U T !!!  HA HA HA  that is ok!  It'll put hair on my chest!!  At least that is what my dad says!  Lord know I DO NOT want hair on my chest!  There is enough on my chin!!  THANKS MOM!!!

We ordered pizza tonight.  I had a couple of candy bars today!  C R A P!!  I know!  I am P R A Y I N G that I am one of the 85% that suffers from "DUMPING" after my surgery!  Dumping just means that when SWEETS fall directly into your lower intestine..  It doesn't like it... and it makes you sick!!  AVERSION THERAPY...  Hey!  Works for me!!! Anything to STOP the sweet monster!

It felt good having sex with my man.  But Can I be honest?  ha ha ha  Like someone saying NO has ever stopped me...  ha ha ha  

He was on top!  OHHH BABY!!!  =-)  hee hee   He was too heavy and I had trouble breathing.  i remember when I met him...  I was all about sex every night.. or at least every other night.  Now, I am finding myself NOT wanting to have sex because then I have to get naked!  AAAAAAAA!!!  ha ha ha  Do not get me wrong... My hubby thinks I am the sexiest woman to ever walk the Earth.  But I ((ME)) do not feel sexy.  Sound bad!??!!?  

Now after a few drinks... that is a different story!  BAW HAW!!

I know that this is going to be a long blog.  i am sorry for putting all this on here now, but I tell you what guys..  I can not wait to have the control!  I need help with that...  That is why I am having the surgery.  I need control.  I need my body to physically tell me...  YOU ARE FINISHED!!  PACK IT UP!! WE ARE OUT OF HERE!!!  You know what I mean!?!?!?!? 

I have talked to MUSTB in a long time.  We are stull friends, but we do not go out anymore.  She is bartendering at the VFW.  I miss her so much!  I know that she would make me feel better.  But her life in even MORE topsy-turvy than mine is... and I do not want to be an additional thing for her to worry about... Does that make sense??  She might not be losing pounds, but the inches are melting away!  She looks incredible!!!  I love her so much.  Just like when her life was going through some hard times.. She did not really talk to me because she did not want to bring me down..  SAME HERE!  She ((( for the most part ))) is doing well!!  She is working too hard..  I am sure!!  But she is doing well!!! 

DING DONG!  Pizza is here!  Do not worry.  Iam not going crazy!  They cut a thin large into 20 pieces...  I'll have maybe 6!  So..  I am doing well!! 

HOLD ON!!  I have to put my pants in the dryer!  =-)  Getting ready to go out!!   I am going to finish this drink!  Finish my pizza, and go jump in the shower!! 

I do still love my Friday GIRLS nights!!! UMMMM!!!!

I am trying to think if there is anything else that I want to share.  Uhhhhhh.......................  thinking.......................  Do you hear it??  THE HAMSTER IS RUNNING AS FAST AS HE CAN!! ha ha ha

OH!  Norm and I went to Thomas farewell to Middle School concert!  MY BABY CAN PLAY!!!   WHOOOO-HOOO!!!  I am so proud to be his mommy! 

I love you all!  I need to go get ready! 

Love, Jen

Friday

i hope today is a good day. 

today the children receive their reading trophies ...  i have 18 out of my 20 getting them... the 2 that aren't getting trophies came to me a month ago!!  so...

i did ok...  i snacked too much..   but did not have a malt or a fucking blizzard.  in fact had ZERO icecream.

I hope that you all have a great day!  love, Jen