The kids that work with me are completely and totally addicted to Starbucks coffee. Even the therapists...so much so that their holiday gifts were Starbucks gift cards!
When they would go for coffee sometimes I'd ask them to bring me back a tall (which is not tall, it's small) skim hot chocolate, since I don't drink coffee. Everytime someone walks out the door and says "do you want anything, I'm going to Starbucks" I've said "no thank you!" and meant it!
However, today one of my very sweet and well meaning employees brought me a small (called tall) skim hot chocolate and I DRANK IT!! I didn't drink all of it, but it was sitting there on my desk and habits be darned, I picked it up and started drinking. I got half way done with it before I realized what I was doing! It was an accident...and a bad one too. Of course I've been weighing myself daily all week and I'm down four, but tomorrow is my OFFICIAL weigh in...so if I'm up three because of today, then that's what the record will say!!
Oh, I know, one small (called tall) skim hot chocolate does not ruin everything I've done this week...but motivationally, to be able to say I ended my first week with four or five pounds lost...that would be cool!
And I know, it's not like I'll NEVER have a tall (actually small) skim hot chocolate ever again, as that would be depressing. It's just I need the motivation.
Actually, do I really need the motivation? I mean, I'm not hating the Jenny Craig thing at all. I'm really digging it. It hasn't been hard to do at all and I really like the food! I totally dug the pesto pizza I had for lunch! So, up or down tomorrow, who cares? I'm making good healthy choices 90% of the time now, which is huge. Two weeks ago I was making good healthy choices 10% of the time. So there's your progress folks, no matter what the scale says, I'm changing my outlook. I'm going to be healthy, and happy and by happy coincidence, skinny!
It's hard not to be overly excited. It's also hard to keep from weighing myself every morning! I'm down FOUR POUNDS from Saturday! That's CRAZY! I also know that it won't last forever, so I'm going to enjoy it while I can.
I also forgot to do my measurements when I started last week. I'll do them tonight (oh, I will!) but they won't be totally accurate. I'm not worried though, they're just numbers.
I'm eating more vegetables and salads and healthy food than I ever have before! And I'm enjoying it! Most of it at least. I did try some leafy "mediterranean style" salad the other day that was SO bitter! Yuck!
Anyway, I'm totally motivated to see if I can get to 5 pounds by Saturday morning. I'm sure it will slow down in week two, so I'd love to wring as many pounds out of week one that I can! I'm even going back to the gym tonight, I don't care how busy I am at work.
That has been an annoying thing, I'm totally tied to my desk this week. We're switching payroll companies, I've hired seven new massage therapists and two new sales associates...it's paperwork city. And I haven't done a massage in almost a week, which bums me out.
It's crazy busy at work today, despite the fact that I have extra people here. You can have ten extra people, but if they can't do the things you do, then it's just like being along. So sad. I'm literally working on four things at the same time, which is confusing me. To counteract that, I decided to come on and do my morning blogging.
I ate a scary amount of vegetables last night. Well, scary for me, probably not even a noticable amount for a normal person. I ate and enjoyed (which is weird, weird, weird, I tell you) the broccoli that was in my Beef Chow Mein for lunch yesterday. And I also ate and really enjoyed the green beans that were in my Turkey with Gravy. After Turkey, I even grabbed a salad, which usually I do before dinner to give me a reason to finish it. I am actually changing the way I eat and I'm thrilled.
I'm also thrilled to report that I'm down another pound! Still, I know that it won't continue like this forever. However, while you're trying to adjust to a new lifestyle, it really helps to have motivation like losing 3.5 pounds in the first five days!
My poor cat...whenever we eat dinner she hangs out, sometimes patiently, sometimes not, but she always gets a little bit of whatever we're having. Well, I have to tell you, every bite of my Jenny Craig Turkey dinner is precious. Poor Freddie isn't getting a bite. Funny, she's not interested in my salad.
I did have a small breakdown today...totally tiny and I'm not upset about it at all. I was walking past that candy all day. Everyone who came in and saw the HUGE box in my office had the same reaction. "Ooh, candy, I shouldn't..." and I said the same thing to every one of them. "Don't do it, but if you want it later, it will be here, come back and have a piece." I wanted a piece, I walked away. Later I still wanted one, so I had one. Just one. And it was good, good to have and enjoy one piece instead of shovelling down seven and not even tasting a single one.
The house showing went well today. It's SO weird to see a listing of your own home! Hopefully someone will buy our house, but not too soon because we have NO IDEA where we are going to move to!
I've only been doing this for four days (seems like so much longer), but already I'm feeling a change. I'm sleeping really well and waking up rested. I ate a blueberry muffin today...and I've never eaten anything with a blueberry in it before. It was very tasty! I'm passing by treats left and right (we have candy dishes EVERYWHERE and people leave stuff out for communal eating in the break room all the time!).
Today's work is going to be busy and stressful. If I can keep to the desk for most of the day and not wander to the aimless food eating areas I should be good. Today's lunch is Beef Chow Mein and tonight's dinner is Turkey with Gravy. Sounds good to me.
Of course, I'll update again later when I am in the middle of payroll, schedule updates and training a new Sales Associate. Should be FUN!
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I'm so dying for a chocolate, I don't know why. It's totally a mental thing because I am only starting to get hungry now. They are mocking me, those little Hershey's Miniatures. Can you hear the Krakle laughing at me?
Well, I'll have the last laugh when I avoid them all day today, have my Anytime Bar (which I'm not really enjoying, but apparently that's my vitamin source) and then my happy Beef Chow Mein. Later when the Special Dark starts calling my name, I'll find solace in my apple!
My house went on the market today. I'm not ready. Mentally, I'm totally ready, but physically my house is a mess! We spent the whole day working on it, room by room.
I snuck a non JC snack and I decided I didn't want the JC dinner. I made something else, which I hope will be fine (I compared the stats and what I made is similar, so I hope that's okay.).
I wasn't horrible...the snack was caramel rice cakes (60 calories for 7 of them, although I may have had 8.) and the dinner was a boca burger. The fact that I'm already off plan worries me, but I know I can do it.
Day three...it really feels like Saturday morning when I started the Jenny Craig program was light years ago. But this morning I decided when I got up to weigh myself. I was expecting to be the same or down a pound. To my joy and delight the scale read a loss of 2.5! Oh, I know it's water weight and all that jazz, but a loss is a loss baby and I'm excited.
Especially because yesterday was tough, hanging around the house all day. Normally, I'd be snacking my face off. I put aside a serving of grapes and would pop one in whenever I felt the urge. On a different day I'd be stuffing my face with chips and drinking soda. I drank SO MUCH water yesterday! I feel energetic this morning!
Anyway, today is another day...I'm off to have my cereal and keep working on the house. It doesn't look like we got far yesterday, but we did so much. When we start up today, we'll start to see progress really quickly! I'm excited to see what we can do!
Yesterday was not that traumatic at all. If I had eaten the salad like I was supposed to at lunch, I probably wouldn't have been starving.
I did "cheat" at dinnertime. It was the first day that I had to cook for the family and heat up a JC meal for myself. I heated up mozzerella sticks for Holly and the rest of our Red Lobster meal from the night before for Dave. I resisted the sticks...but when I saw the Lobster Pizza, I had to have a bite...or three. But I didn't eat the whole thing and I told Dave that I did it. So I felt good about that. I did want it, I didn't have the WHOLE thing. I got the taste I wanted and didn't go overboard. That's progress.
My consultation yesterday was a bust though. She was in such a hurry to get through the information I didn't have time too remember that I had questions. So now I have questions about the plan and no way to really get them answered. I guess that's not true, I could (and will) post on the JC boards.
Today is Super Bowl Sunday...fortunately we're not going anywhere, because it's only Day Two of Jenny Craig and I don't think I could resist party snacks this early on. Besides, we're putting the house up for sale on Tuesday and there's SO much to do still. The activity will be good and will keep me from focusing on food. I am excited to try my breakfast for today, though!
Does anyone have any thoughts on how often to weigh yourself? I want to weigh myself every day in the beginning so I can see when it starts to come off...sort of like this is a new toy and I just want to play with it. My husband says that weighing myself every day could be demoralizing, but I'm realistic, I know that it will take some time to see progress.
What does everyone else do?
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I've been hungry all day...I think it's mostly due to boredom. We're cleaning and organizing the house and while it has kept me busy all day, it's BORING! I think the eating is triggered by the boredom. Hopefully watching the Super Bowl will be less boring!
Lots of snow on the ground, perfect day for a snow day! But alas, I have to go to work.
I dreamt about opening Jenny Craig boxes of food all night...one even was a suitcase in my closet at one point. I woke up starving too, even though I ate a decent dinner last night...psychosomatic I bet. My imagination has me thinking as of today I'm going to be starving, and so I am. Mind over matter!
I love this site, though. I woke up and checked my email and found a very encouraging note from GCQMom. It's not a diet, it's not about depriving myself, it's about a lifestyle. I know that...but at first, in order to get myself in the right track, it will be like a diet. It will be about the things I can't eat and shouldn't eat...but that's mostly because I ONLY eat crap. Until this year I never ate a salad. Or shrimp. Or sushi. Or veggies. I was strictly meat and potatoes with a side of sugary snacks.
So for me this lifestyle change is way more than portion control (although it IS portion control too). I chose Jenny Craig this time around because when given the opportunity to make my own choices, in the past I've made unhealthy ones. JC is not giving me a choice, I eat what I'm eating because it's Saturday and this is Saturday's meal. I need to retrain my body to eat better.
It may sound negative, and it is SO not. It's positive but serious. I'm serious this time about my weight. I even took a "before" picture last night in a bikini that I used to wear when I was at my "goal weight" a few years ago. Mortifying, as you will see when I post it later today, but hopefully motivating. If I could find a picture of myself in it when I was thinner, that would help too.
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I'm sitting at my desk eating my Turkey Burger. So far I've eaten Banana Nut Cereal which I enjoyed, the "Anytime Bar" which I did not enjoy and now the Turkey Burger. I'm supposed to have a salad too, but I haven't been able to get out of work to go obtain that. I do have my Jenny Craig salad dressing. If I can stick to the plan I will definitely lose weight. The portions are not big. Not that I feel they're small, not tiny. Just not big. Which is good.
When I get home I have my first call with the consultant. I have NO idea what I'm going to say or how it's going to go. I actually have no idea what to expect.
