So I found myself having a dream that I was in a class I disdain and found myself refusing to do this during sleep, what should be my most peaceful time... so I woke up and had a gross puke burp... so I thought I'd come in here and get started on this site... my heartburn has gotten to an epic level tonight, btw.

Oh yeah, I'm Chasity. Hi.

I'm here because I'm lazy. Or stubborn. Or a pansy. Maybe all three? Last April I decided on a life change. This included getting separated from my husband, having a better outlook on myself, and loosing weight that I felt was holding me back from things. I was 246 pounds then.

It was actually super easy at first, I had a lot of extra weight that was just ready to come off. I was really active because it was getting warmer and I was playing with a 4 year old on a regular basis and he was kicking my butt with all his energy. Throughout the summer and into October I got down to 203 pounds! In November I stayed at that same weight (which is still a victory because I didn't gain during Halloween and Thanksgiving).

Unfortunately, I think I've hit a wall because the cold weather is kicking my butt hardcore. During all of this, I've never really 'exercised' I just love being outdoors and active, and paired with better eating habits, the weight has just came off. So when I'm in my apartment, I'm usually cozied up in a blanket, I'm just not exercising. 

I'm hoping this is just the winter blahs paired up with a serious case of hormones from the new BC pill, but I'm feeling kind of pooped about myself lately. I actually had a day where I felt fat and gross last weekend when I was visiting my boyfriend. I felt silly.

I want to go outside!!!!  (there's like 5 inches of freshly fallen snow outside laughing at me because I loathe it so)

This is so what I feel like right now!