ARG..............the holiday season

I can see clearly now..............

I am re dedicated:)

Dang Fast food and your addition to my butt:)

So this past weekend I kinda messed up haha actually I totally indulged myself all weekend long. McDonalds, wendy's and pizza mmmmmm. Looking back I realize the crazy effect that yummy food had on me but I have done GREAT Sun Mon Tues and today and have lost the 4 lbs I gained whoo hoo! granted that could have been 4 lbs more I had lost, if I  had resisted the "evil food" but hey life goes on and I am strong. I think I am good for awhile cause I no longer have that craving for those foods. I am ready for the dedicated me I know I can be!  Geez I am rhyming alot today lol. Anyway I am going on vacation this weekend for 5 days to Oregon to see my Grandma.......I am a lil nervous. My grandma is like a chef and recipe inventor for a restaurant and it is definatley not low fat:) I am traveling with my mom "the health exercise fanatic" though so I think we will be ok! Hope so anyways I really want to get this going and see good results every week!!!

Richard Simmons hahahahahaha

K so I have been quite reluctant/lazy about starting to exercise on a daily basis. I tried my mom's hip hop abs video about 2 weeks ago and HA bought had a heart attack..........so.......my mom bought me Richard Simmons Sweatin to the oldies. I just laughed cause I remeber him from when I was a baby and he's such a goofball. Anywho last night I was laying in bed with my baby and he comes up to me, sticks his lil fingers in my belly and pushes down. Then the lil turd laughed and laughed cause his hand would sink o=into my belly. While at first it was somewhat amusing cause his laugh and smile could bring happiness to the most miserable person, I then realized I need to start exercising for real!!! The reason being, though this is funny to him now it really loses it's humor once one understands why the tiny fingers disappear in the large mass i call my belly:) SO today I put in the dang Richard Simmons and I actually had so much fun!!! My baby did too he thought it was better then the belly!!!

Granted I will eventually move on from Richie and the gang but I feel it was a big milestone and the begining of an end...........to my belly haha. I hope to keep it up and exercise everyday for 30 min then after a month kick it up to 40 min so on and so forth up til 1 hour a day. This is a big  goal and a commitment but if I am serious about losing all this weight and getting in shape, then it really isn't that out of the question. Right now I spend a good 2-3 hours a day if not more watching TV so If I trade just 1 hour of that for exercise MAN O MAN will I be one sexy healthy happy hot woman!!! SO this is my new plan and I have my son and Richard Simmons to than, never thought I would say that:)

Brrr it's freezing

Oh my gosh it is cold here today!!! I think that shivering should be an exercise:) I am trying to keep moving which I thin does burn some calories. SO yesterday I did not do any Yoga like I had planned, but I did do some cruntches and push-ups. Not for very long cause holw cow they are hard for me but hey it's a start right? My son was so funny he kept creawling all around and when I would come up from a puch ups he would laugh and laugh. God I love that little boy.

So for X-mas I asked for my mom to get me a treadmill. She said ok, not like a super high tech one but basic ya know. I am so excited!!! I love TV and anything I can do while watching my shows at night is awesome:) I know TV is not the best and I could be doing something more productive but I am human and I like it. I do want to start taking some online classes though. I work part time and Mon-Fri and watch my son in the afternoons. I figure I could watch him and start my generals!! I am very excited I miss school and homework ( if my teenage self could here me now) I am pretty smart, not to sound cocky but I mean I am cabaple of doing more than I am right now in life. I think that this journey of weight loss is helping in other areas of my life, it makes me wanna shape up not only my body but my whole way of living. I want to be a role model for my son, someone he can be proud of. I don't wanna just be a cool mom that sits on her butt and eats bon bons (never had a bon bon but ya know what I mean) I want him to say "My mom is the best she goes for what she wants and works hard til she gets it!"

So yeah that is the plan! Whoo hooo for me!!!! I also am gonna talk to Patty (a co-worker) she goes to the gym everymorning for 1 hour and I think that I want to go with her. The timing fits with my schedule and I think a partner would be so helpful. She is bigger too so I will feel more like we are in the same boat. Well that's all for now!!!

Exercise oh my

So yesterday I did no exercise but my hubby was home and it is our only day together (yes I do realize this is just an excuse) Today though I am going to try a yoga video. I tried hip hop abs the other day, and for someone just under 300lbs who has not exercised since gym in jr high..................it was a bit much! I realize I need to start slow, and work my way up. I am dedicated to lose weight this time and know I can't just magically be able to run a 10k marathon, and will not let my slow start get me discouraged. SO yes we shall see how the yoga goes. It is freezing here and I wish I could just go walking.

My mother (size 0 and an exercise fanatic) says that I can come do some videos with her, but I just can't bring myself to do it. She has been skinny all her life and never exercised now that she is in her 40's she took up weight watchers and exercise to lose like 20lbs (size 4 to 0) I get that she is being supportive but I just feel like such a cow and embarresed when I exercise around her. She says she knows what it is like to want to lose weight and can help. I know that she can help and has great tips, and I hope to soon let her help.At the same time though she doesn't know the struggles of being extremely overweight and how it is to struggle with food. I know that for anyone to add exercise into their life for the first time is a challenge.................but, i just feel like it was easier for her because she didn't have this extra 100+ lbs to get moving when she started.

Don't get me wrong I love my mother and she is my idol for sure, I just am not quite ready to exercise with the woman:)

Hello

Okay so this is my first blog EVER:) I just joined this site because I am tired of being fat!! LOL it has taken me so so so so so very long to actully admit that I am (though it is very obvious to anyone that sees me) I think because I felt admitting it meant I would have to do something myself to change it. I am ready to do that now! I have been overweight all my life and after the birth of my baby boy I am extremely overweight. I have always thought if I think and pray hard enough I will magically wake up one day at a perfect size and be in shape..........................and this of course has yet to happen. So I made the decision to take action. This is one of those steps and will help with support and a place to vent. So about 2 months ago I started taking Phentermine and have lost 17 lbs. While it has greatly helped decrease my appetite and helped to eat smaller portions I have not been eating the healthiest of items. I want to change that now. SO from here on out is a new day!!!!!!