a change of course
So after much contemplation and frustration... im going back to medifast. I am completely frusterated and scared about not being able to get this weight off. I just dont feel good about myself and i remember the results i got from medifast and how great i felt. I know i can do it i just lost my way last time. I have a goal and im going to try very hard to reach it, rather i am going to reach it. my aunt had a bunch left over that she cant use due to her heart and kidneys getting worse. So im using her supply and then buying a months supply when that starts to get low. I lost 50 lbs within 6 months last time. if i even can manage half of that ill be excited. But i know i can do this. and im excited to get back on this journey toward my goal. i even made sure to take my measurements as of now so i can keep track.
anyways, tomorrow is a new day. im weighing myself, mondays are going to be the official weigh in day, no more daily weigh ins...or at least no more than 2 weigh ins a week...its hard for me not to but im going to try. I bought a new planner just for my life in general and im going to write goals in there and track myself in there as well. ill post my little goals here as well. goodnight i better get some sleep