It's been months since I've posted... and it's been a crazy few months. I went through a lot -- job/health/family/etc. And I'm not sure what to do about it all. I know that I'm not happy, just can't seem to figure out my next few steps.
I had a pretty serious health thing go on-- which caused about 3 weeks of stress... which resulted in about 3 weeks of me stress eating because I didn't handle it very well. Then, I went on vacation and recouped by spending about a week on my sister's couch in Seattle. She just had a baby who is now one month old, and holding my newest niece was exactly what I needed.
But now here I am, back at work and just uggggggggggh.
During the stressful time, I was worried about money and went off Jenny Craig. I was 162 when I stopped going to JC.
I lost a few more pounds, went down to 159.
Then, the stress hit.
I just weighed myself this morning and almost cried.
170.
I know that it wasn't smart to weigh myself (i'm at THAT part of my cycle, hello self-sabotage)...
but I know that I gained at least 8 lbs.
It takes me SO long to lose it. And I undid so much work.
I have to face up to it. I just have to.
So, I'm back to eating healthy-- and thinking of going back to Jenny. It works and I feel good on it...
Just so hard to go back having gained back so much work.
But, this is journey right?
I'm going to be a wuss and record my weight in a few days, after my cycle shifts. I need all the help I can get!
and yet... after hitting my 10% and then going into the next decade... I said this weekend, eh, I deserve some good food. And so I did, Chinese on Friday (I got a veggie dish, but let's face it, even the veggies are waaaaaaaay too high in sodium and fat!), I had some taco cabana on Saturday... and then on Monday, I baked soda bread for St. Pat's day for my office... and enjoyed a few too many pieces. On top of that, no "real" exercise this weekend... and not enough water.
I wasn't suprised when I stepped on the scale this morning and saw 161... back up 2 lbs and returning to the decade I fought so hard to leave.
That said, I really do believe that the progress I've made isn't lost. I also am 100% back on track as of this morning... and think that those pesky two pounds will be gone very soon.
Honestly, I'm not even going to modify my weight on ep yet... I'm going to wait a day or two to see which way it goes. If it stays, I'll change my weight to 161. If it goes back down to where it was, I'll leave it as is.
I'm posting this as a reminder to myself the next time I take a weekend off. I can do it, but there are repercussions!!!
Tonight, I'm going to do my Fat Free Yoga dvd and do my Lateral Thigh Trainer steps while I watch Biggest Loser.
Oh.My.God. After months and months, I have made it! A long, long journey to my first goal: 10% weight loss
Ok - really I'm still 0.2 lbs away from 10%-- but I think that's close enough to celebrate it!
I started Jenny Craig in July and it's been a long, slow haul to my first 10%. And yeah... I still have a long way to go on this journey...
BUT...
after 10% weight loss, the Diabetes risk goes down significantly. For someone with PCOS (one of the leading causes of Type II in women) - this is HUGE.
I'm thrilled. Really and truly Thrilled!
My rewards that I wrote down for 10% were: mani, pedi, new glasses.
So you know what I'm doing this weekend!
My next goal after this is another 10% -- which will take me to 144. My mini-goal is 5% - or 152.
So... I had three weeks back on plan... eating exactly as dictated and working out 5 x's a week (walking dvd or Lateral Thigh trainer for 45-60 mins).
The first 2 weeks I lost.
The third week I stalled.
Then this week... I made cupcakes for work and had one cupcake and 2 licks of my homemade frosting to test it...
yesterday, I had a valentine's day cookie made by my friend.
I was doing so many different things this week (acupuncture last night, teaching crochet the night before, cupcake making the night before that)... that so far this week, I have only worked out 2x's.
I stepped on the scale-- and I'm down 2 lbs.
So is it that I wasn't eating enough and exercising too much last week?
or that this week the stubborn lb from last week was ready to finally go?
So work is stressing me out... life is wearing me out... and yet - I'm still focused!
Tonight driving home late from work, I realized that I didn't have any veggies at home. It really helps if I eat a big ole salad or a large plate of raw veggies with my Jenny entree. I feel full. I thought about going to the grocery store - but I was so freakin HUNGRY. I realized that it could be a recipe for disaster.
So then, I thought, I could just get a subway veggie salad -- but, I was driving by Wendy's and was like... hm... they have salads, right?
I pull into the drive through and am surrounded by ads for their new frosty with candy. I avert my eyes as best I can and try to tally up approximately how many calories are in a tiny frosty.
Finally, I get up to the speaker and menu. I ended up getting 3 side salads with no dressing.
The guy working there got a kick out of my order (hey, I'm here to entertain the world, apparently). But, it was only a couple of bucks and I had three very beautiful salads in little containers.
I got home and poured two salads out on a plate and stirred in my Jenny dressing.
it was the perfect amount - and I still have a salad for tomorrow. 1/2 the price of the Subway veggies only salad.
So yeah-- minor victory.
a few months ago, I would have hit Wendy's and justified fries (well it comes WITH it).
But not this month.
This month, I'm focused.
I got home, ate my dinner and salad and felt great.
During the Biggest Loser, I did a hour on my Lateral Thigh Trainer. I'm counting my steps (aiming for 8-10K/day) ... and from that I got 9k steps.
Whoot!
Keep on keeping on - best of luck and support to everyone :o) I'm so happy that I'm back... !
I have been MIA for some time now... I hit a frustrating plateau, my PCOS symptoms started to really flare up... and life seemed to spin out of control with the holidays and work.
But... after a few months of not doing Jenny and not posting here, I gained about 5 lbs.
Which to the average person is not that much... but to someone who has the metabolism of a snail (or would a hippo be a better comparison?) and insulin resistance and all that jazz... losing ONE pound is huge for me... but losing FIVE pounds. That's a lot.
Ultimately, though, I think I have been using PCOS as a bit of an excuse... and I have cheated a lot in the past few months.
And really, when you cheat when you are dieting, guess who you are cheating?
Moi. I'm cheating Moi.
Anyway... I started going to acupuncture which has helped quite a bit with my PCOS symptoms. I'm far from New Age - and never thought I'd even try it... but I figured, what do I have to lose.
It was amazing... and even if the great stuff that I feel from it is all in my head, I'm ok with that ;) Feeling better is good - Period.
I finally bit the bullet and went in to Jenny. 170. Yup. 5 lbs.
But, I took a deep breath and said - I can do this. I can fight this.
I got a pedometer and on Saturday and Sunday I did leslie Sansome's 4 mile walk.
I ate completely on plan Saturday, Sunday, Monday, and today-- which considering it was a three day weekend, is pretty impressive for me ;o)
I stepped on the scale this morning... and 168!
It is possible for me to lose weight -if I CHOOSE to be healthy.
So, I'm choosing to be on plan.
I'm choosing to walk 8-10,000 steps a day (4-5 miles).
So, yesterday, I did the basic training video again in my new Tae Bo set that I got. It was my second time doing the workout.
When it came time for the bands, I put them on my feet and adjusted the right one. I went to adjust the left one and KAPOW! the band BROKE!
How cheap is that?
So... I'm going to call Collage video and get some new bands. I'm really hoping that I won't have to pay for them - they are $15 on the billy blanks site!
I continued and did the workout without the bands. It was still a good workout and I did get a good sweat going. It's mostly strength training, but I did feel my heart rate go up.
My abs aren't strong enough to do a lot of the abs routine that he does, so I did some crunches and things during the ones that I couldn't do.
I'm just bummed that the bands broke! The rest of the videos use the bands, too...
so part me is wondering if I'm going to end up buying new bands every week.
Thanks for the sweet comments and posts on my blog - I appreciate it!
Yesterday, I started feeling super-sore in the afternoon. By evening, my legs were aching as were the muscles in my tummy and my deltoids.
I didn't do my leslie walking dvd, instead, I just did about an hour of stretching while watching The Biggest Loser.
It really helped and I slept very deeply last night.
Today, I'm feeling a bit fatigued, mostly from work. It's our crunch time and I'm really just not into my job right now. There is a lot of unnecessary drama and stress, which I guess is par for the course at most jobs, but right now I just don't feel like dealing. I have no idea what I want to do, but I know that I'm not doing it now, you know? But, I love being able to pay those bills!
sorry for the rant !
Anyway, tonight I'm going to do the basic training tae bo again. I'll let y'all know how it goes. Afterwards, I'm having a friend over. I taught her how to crochet and she needs some help on a baby blanket.
So I'll work with her on it while we watch the new shows on abc.
Best of luck to everyone - keep up the awesome, inspiring work.
