Diary of a Loser
Writing as I begin my journey of being a healthier more fit me.
- Name: bckosurfers2010
- City: Charleston
- Region: West Virginia
- Country: United States
My Weight Loss
|Lost to date:
Well as you can see I have went up in weight and not down :( Starting over again. I just get so discouraged when I try to ride my exercise bike or do the stair stepper aerobics and can barely last 5 minutes. This is so pathetic. I just let it depress me instead of motivating me. NOT ANY MORE.
Anyone got any good recipes so I don't have to eat salads all the time...lol?
am Kelly. I am a stay at home mother of 2 toddlers. I am 35 years old and have
hit my life max weight at 300 pounds...yeah I know...I'm sick over it. I've been
over weight most all my life and have been on diets repeatedly only to have them
fail....or I fail. So now I am on another one..lol. I have never ordered pills
or tried supplements because I always thought if beauty came in a bottle we'd
all be skinny. Well I broke down today and ordered something (can't think of it
off hand) from the Dr.Oz show. I figured nothing else has helped so maybe just
maybe......and well truthfully with just getting tax refunds back I could afford
to throw away the money this once.
What brought me here...... I have gotten
so big and developed a low self esteem that I HATE going out in public for
anything. I even hate going out to eat because I feel people count the trips I
make to the buffet bar.....never the less even THAT doesn't keep me eating!! I
just love food. I am also an emotional eat out of boredom person. Did i say i am
a stay at home mom? Yeah, so I have nothing to do except eat and take care of
kids. You'd think with these two kids I'd get exercise and not have time to
snack on little debbies all day.
That brings me to another reason why I am
back on a diet...I can't do the things I want to do with my kids. I'm so out of
shape that even a stroll around the neighborhood with the hubby and kids wears
me out and leaves me breathless before we even hit a block. I want to feel
better about myself but I really don't want my kids to miss out on life because
Finally the last factor of my life changing event here is medical
issues and death. My grandfather had to have his leg amputated about 7 months
ago as a result of diabetes. That came from him being over weight. A dear friend
of mine passed away last week due to cardiac arrest. She had been on dialysis
for 3 years also, both due to weight. There have been several other friends and
family who have or do suffer from medical conditions that might could have
prevented by watching weight. Again I have young kids ( 2 and 3) and I don't
want to miss out on them growing up because I couldn't find the will power to
give up my food addiction and become dedicated to a healthier living.
really have much of a support system and most of the people I know who "need to
diet" (their words) wear a size 10 or less and weigh 130lbs soaked in concrete.
No disrespect to anyone but i need someone in my shoes..you know. That's why I
don't go to gyms...I'd feel like an elephant around a flock of
Anyways, don't know if anyone will read this but it helped me to get
it off my chest.