Its not over yet..

So I lost some weight, I couldn't believe it. I lost 9 pounds in such a small time. 5 off my starting weight and 4 more off of what I gained and lost again. I think I am starting to like this water, I like what it is doing for me more though..hehe.

I dont think I am eatting the way I should but if I eat something with too much fat or cals in it I will skip a snack or a meal to make up for it. I don't normally eat more that once or twice a day anyways.

I have an appointment with the doctor on Wednesday to talk about my weight. I hope he gives me some usefull information and I also want to talk to him about a breast reduction as well.

Water, Water, Water

Today so far I drank 2 16.9 fl oz of water. This is so amazing because I never drink water. Ever. And I am still going.

I did sit ups for the first time in like 5 years, I did twenty of them. I belly danced, I used weights for my arms. 

I didnt eat any junk food.

I can't believe how easy this is.

Tomorrow

Tomorrow looks like a better day to start my challange. I woke up with a horrible yeast infection. This would be my first one ever.

Someone broke into my house last night when my son and I were home alone. My boyfriend works at night and right after he left I took my son up to bed and laid him down and did a few things up stairs. When I was walking down the stairs I heard what sounded to me like tools falling on the floor. So I ran back up stairs and put a board in front of my door so no one would hurt us. Silly me didnt get the phone so I sat there and waited. When I thought it was safe again I ran down and got the phone and called 911. They didn't get into the main house, only in the basement.  They smashed some stuff and just threw around somethings and stold a toy box. I thought they were going to kill us. I desided to go out and get some pepper spray. ( I dont like that thought of a gun in my house )

I went to the drug store to get something for the yeast infection and seen this water jug that hold enough water for 8 whole glass so I bought it. I figure I could fill it up everyday and make sure I drink it.

Stress

I figure I should tell everyone someone about me. I am 23 years old and I have a 17 month old son named Shawn. I live with my boyfriend of 2 1/2 years. He has 2 other children who hate me because I am the other women, even though they  have not been together in over 11 years and they are not much older than that.

My stepmother died in January of lung cancer even though she didnt smoke, that was and is a lot to deal with.

My great grandmother died 3 weeks later. She was 83.

My father has over 600,000 and he doesnt want to help me pay for my wedding, why? I don't know. He does not like my boyfriend, why? I don't know why because he never talked to him. My father doesn't spend any time with my son but he has my stepsister's son 4 days a week and he does everything for her and her son and even calls her son his number 1 grand son, how is that supposed to make me feel? My father was never really in my life except when he had a women in his life. And now that he has all this money he helps everyone else but me out. Not trying to sound selfish, but I do need help. He is going crazy also. I don't want him to help me out with my wedding if he doesn't want to be there but so help me God, I will never talk to him again.

My mother is my rock, she helps me with paying for things, she takes my son for me at least 1 night over night a week and at least 2-3 times a week to give me "me" time. I love her. She makes up for my father.

I dropped out of high school because I couldn't deal with somethings and I was fat and everyone else was 90 pounds. I was only 160 and what I wouldnt give to be that size right now. I know it sounds stupid but I wanted to die. I cried every day in school. I was not happy. We had to take gym class everyday for half a year for 90 mins a day and I got made fun of all the time, mostly because I couldnt play volley ball. How freaking stupid was that?

I was rapped by my cousin when I was very young.. too young to know what sex was at the time. My mother was his foster mother. I don't remember too much of it but I had problems with being with people until now. The sad part is my cousin talks to me like nothing ever happened and I can't stand him.

Ok so I poured out my life.Hope I don't sound like a nut case. Thanks. I am so happy I found this site.

Has anyone ever tried any meditions for loseing weight from the dr or any kind for that matter? I am thinking about it.

Edit>

I have joined in on a little challenge, its going to be a 4 week one.

Here are my goals..

• try to drink a lot more water ( I drink none now)
• play outside at least an hour with my son
• workout an hour every night
• walk out and get the mail instead of drive
• lose 15 pounds

How do you add friends?

Long Day

This moring I woke up and went to get my hair cut. They took 5 inches off the back, it feels good. I lost 3 pounds also, prolly from all that hair they took off..lol.

Edit-

I am getting married in 11 months. Even though I have not been asked yet. We can't really afford a ring right now. So I am in the start of planning it. So far I found some really nice dresses for my size (being a 20) but they are not as nice as the size 12s. I hope to be in at least a size 12-14 by then. I have not been watching what I eat yet. ( I am also trying to quit smoking right now, so one thing at a time for me )

I am however, belly danceing..lol.. something I did before this point. I figure it will help my stomach. I have much need work to do for my stomach. I gained alot in my stomach when I had my son. Now it seems it will never be the same again. I hate it, but I love my son.

Wondering....

ok so I don't like telling people how much I really weigh, my boyfriend of two years doesn't even know I weigh as much as I do. I gave brith to my son 17 months ago and now I am just sick of being fat. I can't believe I am as big as what I am. It's summer time and I can't wear shorts like everyone else because my legs are somewhat big. I have already lost 30 pounds after the birth of my son.