Getting used to it

Yesterday was the supper ball as everyone knows. Everyone wanted pizza so I ordered from papa johns. I ordered Wings and a large pizza. Normally I would eat a thing a wings my self and pizza. But yesterday I was stuffed after 2 wings and a little bit of pizza. I am amazed. I did take a break from working out. I just didn't have the energy.

Thursday I go to a weight loss clinic because my doctor wont help me. I have to pay 130 a visit but that with the meds and pills and b12 shot. So I wont bitch about that. I just wish it were in my budget.

Blah, today is going to be a boring day.

Help

I slept in today, actually I just got out of bed and its almost 2. I have no engery and it was hard for me to sit up. I feeling like this. I should mention that I didnt go to bed until 2ish. I just can't sleep anymore. Ahh.

Edit-

I lost weight, I actually lost weight!!! Omg. I am 261 and last week I was 275

WTF

I just got done an amazing work out, but the strangest thing happened, my feet fell a sleep in the middle of cardeo (?) How the heck does that happened? I stopped rubbed it out and started again, I did that for 40 mins than I did sit ups for 20 mins. I feel really good. But I am not losing weight. I went to the doctors today and asked to be put on Phentermine and he said no. I am pissed. Now I have to pay to go to a weight loss clinic.

I'm back again

I lost 8 pounds in the past week! I excersized my butt off, Oh how I wish! I've been taking b12 because my doctor wont give me any, he also told me that Phentrimine doesn't work and he wasn't impressed by the results it did have, I personally think he is nuts. I have desided to go else where, I found this place called Physicians Weight Control, I am going to make an appointment with them tomorrow. I now have a 3 year old son and a 10 month old daughter. It's time to get the baby fat off of me!!!

Hello again

I have been having problems with some birth control I've been taking. So cross your fingers and pray that it was working. I been having cramps and stuff.
I can't watch the news anymore, I can't believe a mother would wrap her baby up and throw her in a box. Low life pound scum.

ahh..

I've been so sick. I just can't shake it off. I hate it. I gained some weight, but I have started a new type of birth control and its my time of the month so a 5 to 10 pound weight gain around this time of the month is normal for me.

I have kept up with my work out. I haven't seen any results yet. I have been back to my old eatting habbits. I know that eatting everything I want. and working out is getting me no where. I hate that I do it. I am trying.

sleepy

I've been sleepy and not wanting to get out of bed lately, than again living where I live, who would want to get out of bed.
My land lord changed the rain spout outside and she said she would take it on my rent, I went outside, looked at the rain spout and said "your fu&%^ing  nuts" my exact words. it was the same one that was there only she patched up the rust wholes and painted it. I don't think so.

I've taken my alli and it didnt happen to me again. thank goodness.

I cant seem to find a good daily vitamin, any suggestions?
I lost 2 pounds.

EWWW!!!

I tend to say to much or I tend to tell people way too much information when it comes to certain things. I bought the Alli pill, 90 pill starter set. I read everything. I never in my life watched what I ate like I did when taking this pill. Frankly, it scared the hell out of me because I didn't want to shit my self. I gave up my much loved Ranch Dressing, and chesse. Never in my life would I believe there was that much grams of fat in chesse. I never looked at how much calories or grams of fat where in anything and now I am too scared not too.

Well the side affects are real, and it happened to me. I did nothing to make it happened, it just happened on its own. I know it says that if you eat something with too much fat in it , it will happened, well I can honestly say I did not. I didn't  even know it. What if I would have been out at the store or something? Omg.

Two days off

I took two days off, Labor day and yesterday. Labor day I was at my grand fathers house, I watched what I ate but I didn't bike, yesterday I just didn't feel good. Today I did get on the bike for 30 mins, I did a little over 5 miles. I plan on doing another round of it a little later to make up for tomorrow.
I hate that I took off two days in a row and found it hard to get back in the game today, I had to force my self to do it.
My dream is too lose this weight and look good and be healthy but I just don't understand why its so hard to my self do it.
I took my truck in to get repaired because we hit a deer 3 months ago. I rented a car because it is a two day repair. They gave me a ford focus, its a 2006 but I just don't like it. It too small and too compact.  I am used to my big old chevy truck.
Edit-
I weighted my self and I gained weight. How does that happen? I mean I worked my butt off, watched what I ate and I gained weight. I just dont understand.

I give up

I am almost ready to give up on this post because this is the third time I am typing this and I am getting mad as hell at this computer.

My workouts are getting better. I haven't done any sit ups yet, I don't know if I can yet.

But I've done at least 7-12 miles on the bike everyday for the last 5 days, before that I did nothing expect run after my son and even then I walked.lol

I went to Rite Aid to the GNC section and bought some GNC Pro Performance 100% Whey Protein to help build some muscel, because  Lord know I don't have any.